my life is good and i deserve that

i have never felt so good about myself.

i wish the world was doing better because i am doing amazingly and it feels out of touch to celebrate that

life lately

Hell is Us is fucking wild

i’ve reached the “everything upsets your tummy” phase of the ozempic ☹️

i’m keeping my autism

it’s a very odd thing to realize you’re thought of, spoken highly of, appreciated & loved. even when you’re a mess of a human. maybe especially because you’re a mess of a human.

what is the purpose of turning on filters to hide sexual content by default if i’m still gonna see dicks on my tl??? like i fully support everyone’s right to post whatever they want, but i think i should have the right to not see it.

i love my bestie but man, sometimes he sucks.

today i did the bravest thing and i asked a friend if they would be willing to help me with a project. and i was scared. i never ask for help. my biggest fear is being a bother or a burden. and he was like “sure!” and i was scared about NOTHING

i hate when everything is up to me 😔 like i know it’s hard because i have PDA but i would love to just have plans made for me sometimes

gpt-5 bullied me

i am so happy. i’ve been so sad and so stressed for so long. but i made it thru. i deserve this.

i specifically asked for garlic bread with dinner & my husband forgot it & i know it’s irrelevant to… everything… but i’m actually really sad.

me: what if my friends don’t ever want to hang out with me again?!??? friends in question: we had so much fun 🤗🤗

one of my current projects is with a company where i know one of the leadership team from a less-than-professional setting (Twitter) and it’s like… wow. this person has seen me have a years-long mental breakdown and has also seen (and liked!) pics of my ass and they still are cool working with me.

my brain is trying to process mutual bestie-ism and it’s a lot.

i hate having cats

i’m going to my first renaissance faire this weekend and i am both anxious and excited. but my friends are excited about it & about hanging out & honestly that overrides the anxiety.

i accidentally introduce the president of Kyrie Fan Club A to the president of Kyrie Fan Club B and i have a lil anxiety

not me getting emotional because my friends want to hang out. i’m so squishy.

good morning.

i showed my bestie Mega Dragonite and his response was just “Why are the wings on it’s head?” and i am actually offended

january ➡️ today been on a ~ weight loss journey ~ these last few months. i’m down 15-ish pounds so far but holy hell is there a difference

MEGA DRAGONITE?!??? 😭😭

SHINY CHI-YU?!?????

this morning i am thinking of the implications of calling a child “squirt”

dear apple, we don’t want an iphone that folds hotdog style. we want one that folds HAMBURGER style.

i was supposed to go to the beach tomorrow but it’s gonna rain. 

two hours ago my husband said he was gonna order breakfast. he also was frisky and cuddly. and then he fell back asleep. so now i am hangry and horny.

i love that i’m happy. i deserve it.

My parents were a dumbass for giving birth to me

i am emotional bc my buddy’s wife was like “he’s always so excited to hang out with you” 🥺 my brain convinces me all the time that people hate me but no, actually i am loved

No.

i am kinda sad. that’s all.

i want a Lydia B. Kollins shirt that says “i ❤️ Butthole”

fuck the usa.

i hate having communication issues. stupid autism.

you know when someone says something so out of character that it just sticks in your brain? like… why did my friend who HATES gradients say he liked “the gradients” on my toe nails?? sus

i’m so excited to hang out with my friend this weekend. and i feel like such a loser for that 🤣

i missed this bitch so much jfc. it feels so good to feel like myself again.

new baby

i have an emotional hangover.

i got blind-sided by someone caring and now i have extreme anxiety

the autistic nightmare of being stuck waiting for your pickup order for half an hour when your tummy hurts, you don’t even actually WANT the food, and you need to go home to prep for a meeting

7 year old autistic me felt this album in my SOUL

i’m using a foot mask and i am 100% sure it is going to overstimulate me but i will power thru the pain because i want cute toesies

went to the botanical gardens today