Finally cleaned Michelle's tank today after putting it off forever. You wouldn't guess that it takes about 4 full hours to clean, but it does.

Went to a cousins wedding yesterday, while I'm of course happy for my cousin and her new husband and did have a good time with the fam, their wedding was decidedly the exact opposite of where I would have rather been: a Pride festival. 🏳️‍🌈 (probably either Stark, or Kent, or both).

Today is my birthday(I'm 31), and despite being unemployed, that has given me time to take a step back,relax & work on myself for a bit. It also put my future into my own hands for the first time in awhile. Obviously the lack-of job is an issue, but I feel better right now than I have for years.

Weirdly, one of my main takeaways from Pride CLE today was how surprised everyone I talked to was that I drove myself up there. Everyone took either a bus or a train into downtown, which is honestly not an option that has ever crossed my mind.

I recently told someone that I've been struggling with who I am as a person. They told me that I shouldn't worry about who I am now, I should instead decide who I want to be, and focus on becoming that person. That thought has been stuck in my head ever since. Unfortunately I'm terribly indecisive😅

It seems something got ahold of some of my accounts today, if you see something suspicious, don't click on it, and please let me know. I have purged my phone & PC and and working through changing all of my passwords now.... I know what I'm spending my Friday doing....

Had an interview today that feels like somebody handcrafted a position to be exactly what I'm looking for. The interviewer was tough to read, but I feel like it went well overall. This would be an ideal spot for me to land for so many reasons, I can only hope that they feel similarly. Now we wait.

Today I had a 90min in person interview which not only included an impromptu written test in the middle, but I was also given homework on the way out when I thought it was over... This literally looks like homework I would have had in Statics & material strength class back in School. Actually insane

I started actually applying to jobs today, and my phone could not be stopped all day. I literally have 2 interviews tomorrow & at least 4 other places I'm waiting to hear back from. I was not prepared to be this much of a hot commodity, especially not right away, but I'll take it as a positive.

Not that anyone will care, but I changed the flag on my PFP today, (I'd only been meaning to do that for well over a year now 😅.) Nothing has actually changed about how I identify, I just felt the Agender flag is a bit more relevant day to day than the modified AroAce one I was using.

Finally have my Resume & LinkedIn fully updated, and ready to really get out there and start looking for new employment. Took WAY longer than it should have, but we there🙂 Not sure how much I'll post here on that subject, still indecisive about keeping this name/identity separate from my legal one

Didn't have anything to do on this Easter Sunday. So I decided to come to Progressive field for the Double header.

Came across this while cleaning today, probably been hiding in my chair for at least a few months. I'm not usually one who enjoys surprises, I've had a few bad ones recently, but at the moment I'll take anything to avoid falling into this rut of unemployment.

Woke up this morning like it was any normal day, did my regular morning routine until I noticed I hadn't put out clothes for myself before going to bed, then noticed I hadn't done laundry over the weekend. Then it finally hit me why... I knew it would hit me today, but I wasn't expecting to do that😢

Welp.... I have received the black folder of doom, I have been laid-off. I'm still in shock right now, but realistically I don't expect too much trouble keeping my footing and ultimately finding a new workplace. But the transition is going to suck a lot.

I know these two things are ultimately unrelated, but it sure feels odd to spend a good portion of your day watching coworkers get plucked off the production line and laid-off, then have to stay late for your regularly scheduled mandatory overtime.

🔴We live with more Badurs gate3 This place is more depressed than I am :) www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

🔴We live with more Badurs gate3, Who is this Thanial guy anyway? www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

🔴Live now with more Badurs gate3, Probably banned from Moonrise towers now... Ohwell plenty of darkness to explore. www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

They took my blood.🩸 It hurt.😣 Then I woke up in my recliner at home like 10 hours later. 😴

🔴Live Now! We're off to see the wizard at moonrise towers. though I suspect we'll end up sidetracked, as you do... www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

Unexpected work from home days kinda suck, if I know I'm going to work from home, I'll leave myself some good WFH work. Today I have none, so I get to struggle with the slowest VPN of all time to try to get something done. 🙃

We be strimmin again!, More Baldurs gate 3. probably entering Act 2 today. www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

Can this slow descent into whatever you want to call it hurry TF up? This general uncertainty about the status of tomorrow is really getting old.

DO I still stream? yes... Yes I do. right now in fact. I believe we're in a forge? I don't remember 😅 www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

It cold

If it helps, people are mad at Democrats because many of their social media presences produce comms which address what's happening as though we're simply dealing with the consequences of going along with a bad restaurant recommendation. The food isn't just bad, we want to shut down the restaurant.

🔴Live Now!🔴 More Baldurs gate 3, now that I'm no-longer dying of the plague 😊 www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

Rolling into work with this playing, that's probably not a great omen.... youtu.be/33LFuKIYnyM?...

Finally starting to feel better from the plague I was given on Christmas. Just in time to go back to work on Monday. 🙃 Not like I would have done anything fun or interesting this past week anyway ...

My new years resolution is a simple one: Convince myself that I AM actually a human being worthy of existing, and maybe manage to convince at least one other person to at least pretend to agree. A low bar, I know, but that's where I've been mentally for way too long now. 🙃

🔴Live now🔴 Let's clean up the Creche before getting too far ahead of ourselves... Baldurs Gate 3 continues www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

off work... bored AF.. Imma stream. Now sounds good 😊 www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

This is a PSA to the world that the 12 days of Christmas STARTS on Christmas, not today. Also, all 12 gifts on that song are birds, they're having a poultry themed feast.

That Hobgoblin has gobbled his last hob... 🔴Live now!🔴 Right here: www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

🔴Live now 🔴 Protected my peace, now we gon' stream, I guess 🤷. Continuing Baldurs Gate3: www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

In a couple of hours, I'm supposed to be going to the Family Thanksgiving. Problem is, I don't particularly feel like driving over an hour from home just to be stuck in a house with people who barely pretend to remember I exist, let alone care. So I'm not going to. I'll see if I feel good about it.

🔴I be live, Here: www.twitch.tv/just_paxton Now :)

Actual chat I sent to the sales manager today: "Should I be concerned that our CPQ tool has been down all day and I'm only hearing about it now(2pm)?" Response I got: "I don't have a good response for that 😅, lemme check" Yeah, it's that slow right now. 😬

🔴Live Now !🔴 That poor bard... RIP. 😅Continuing Baldurs gate 3. Right here: www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

🔴Live Now !🔴 Oath bound to resist. Continuing Baldurs gate 3. Right here: www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

Unless I fall asleep before then, I'll be streaming some more BG3 in about 2 hours. I may have acquired a mod or two in an attempt to spice things up😅

🔴Live Now !🔴 Let's try this again... 😅. continuing Oblivion, as long as it works... 🤞 www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

Gonna try to boot up Oblivion to stream it some more in about an hour. Bumped the graphics settings down, and messed with my GPU and Bios settings to help it perform a bit better, so hopefully it does 🤞. If not I'll have to pick a different game for now.

🔴Live Now !🔴 Why must we always start as a criminal in these games? www.twitch.tv/just_paxton

This is super random and out of nowhere, but Imma stream later, probs around 6pm (est). Looking to play ES4 Oblivion. I've been meaning to get back into streaming for awhile, so I'm just gonna dive in, and hope everything works. 😅

Spent the better part of this weekend getting my PC setup re...setup, it may be a risk to try to start a stream schedule right now, (I'm waiting for a new direct boss to start at work), I may just go for it anyway. I just need to pick a game to play.

I'll give you one guess where I'm at

Today I went to see the rubber ducks LOSE🥲 in what was several players last game in Akron before going to Columbus. Following that, I went to Lock3 for the first time since it reopened for Pickle fest. As I typed this, I realize I'm still terrible about taking pics when I'm out & about. Owell...