I can’t be happy, can I?

I have a new collection out: Theologia. It’s available now on Amazon and Kindle Unlimited. www.amazon.com/dp/B0GJGNCWN...

I needed a breather.

Nothing like breathing.

Walking into 2026

Needed a break.

I don’t know how to go on anymore.

I wrote over 1000 words for the first time in forever. It’s not much, but hey. It’s a start. jillianspiridon.medium.com/baby-its-col...

Ugh, me.

Therapy hit hard today. My therapist basically said, with the brain I have, I made the choices that I had available to me at the time—and I couldn’t help but think, “Damn, I wish I had had a different brain then.”

I doubt Jimmy Fallon’s going to grill Sam Altman about the ethics and environmentally detrimental effects of AI. What an epic fail in normalizing something that’s helping to further destroy the world.

I don’t know what I’m going to do between December and April since my next upcoming concert in 2026 isn’t until Florence + the Machine. I’m hoping BTS, Harry Styles, and The 1975 will tour next year where I can see them. 😮‍💨

I’m unfortunately living for every concert I can attend. ✌️

I kinda feel like I’m watching the end of the world in slow motion.

Learn anything?

I’m so done.

Dissociation is saving my life.

Wondering.

Still can’t forget about him.

Facts. 🙃

I'm old. If you're not, listen to this. Get a guitar or some drums, or a trumpet. Pick up a brush, a pencil, some clay or a welder. Just make shit. It doesn't have to be good (eventually it will be) just make music, art or write or whatever. It's literally never been more important.

Something strange is in the water.

Fuck around and find out.

How did my friend get me into a checked position in chess in less than 10 moves? 😭

There’s something about buying no manga for months/years—and then turning around and buying nine volumes because some impulse inside you spurs you forward. 😅

Social media is not our friend, basically.

Kinda don’t see what’s the point at this point.

I overthink things far too much.

The film industry is fucked. Not only was the live-action Moana the cornerstone of the trailers that were featured before Wicked: For Good, but there was also a trailer for the new “full-cast” Harry Potter audiobooks. And I was thinking, “Why am I here?” the entire time during those trailers.

Feeling like this right now.

Fuck Harry Potter. Watch Puella Magi Madoka Magica.

Fuck Harry Potter. Watch Revolutionary Girl Utena

Breathing.

Waiting.

Thinking.

Just waiting for the day.

This is my life, basically.

Hello, America.

Waiting.

Not abandoned. Found. There’s a difference.

Hi.

Need to rewatch.

Boosting.

I’m done apologizing for who I am.

The hate Matty Healy fans have for his fiancée should be studied. I’ve never seen anything quite like it in my time online.

Yeah, no slander here.

But—aesthetics. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I can’t believe Timotheé Chalamet shaved his head. 😭

Definitely my favorite character from recent years.

Meow again.