I've had a really bad day getting upset knowing my dad could have been saved... And now I see one of my idols has passed away too... I never got to meet him back in my old life. But I knew his brother. Through my dad and family friends. Utterly gutted today :/

Those fucking bastards in norfolk NHS could have saved my dad and they chose not to... www.bbc.co.uk/news/article... This trial was around when he was ill and we begged them. And they refused to give it to him

So much for a short nap...... 2 hours later! Damnit!

Good news Dr didn't find any scary lumps. He thinks I have a varacus vane on my testical... And booked me into getting an ultrasound... I guess it's the veins putting pressure on my bollock!

Well I just saw some animal cruelty news regarding a state police officer and geese in America... and I'm really upset by it and fucking fuming with rage... I wont go into the details but its utterly awful!

I don't really know why but I'm feeling pretty damn rough tonight ... Mental health wise. I mean more than the usual.

Been listening to a lot of Solar Fields while working this last week and a bit... Damn hes a good artist!

Why has my testicals attached so many bots!?

Looks like the house purchase completion will be end of next week if not week after.... Getting close now.

It's always nice to hear the receptionist at a GP giggle when I stutter when saying testicular! When describing pain that could be... You know. Cancer! Gives such a warm fuzzy feeling. And the fact I asked to see a doctor and they tried to fob me off on a nurses appointment... :/

Well finally got my old first big bike up on gumtree... If anyone wants a 2007 er6f 46K miles project bike that needs new fairing new calipers and some paint work for a grand. Msg me!

Look I get American politics is really fucked. But this is utterly pathetic. Zero professionalism. Zero politics, ALL juvenile school yard bullying. It really is indicative to how broken the American system is.

Welcome home old friend! Im actually in tears... Strictly speaking this is Tookey 3.... But its the same make and model as 2 which I had since I was about 3 years old and sadly lost during the turmoil in 2010 and the following house move. Its taken me years to find the same toy, but...

So took my computer apart to give it a good clean, even opened up and drained and refilled my AIO, and nope my cpu idles are still high and AIO cant keep things down. I ran the AIO on my bench power supply with the coldplate off expecting the water to rush out, but the flow was rather slow.

Oh lord! 😂 youtu.be/BQJHxH4ygg4?...

New toy!

Logic question no one seems to be asking! We are a country that has nuclear and a large amount of renewals. And we get our gas from the north sea. Our electricity production does not rely on middle eastern oil. Why is no one calling out what this is? Profiteering bullshit!

They measure performance in teeth now!

And also today's dad's birthday........ :( I miss him lots

I've got to buy a new fridge for the new place once I get the keys... I was thinking of the double door things with the freezer one side fridge in the middle. I was going to ignore stupid features like ice makers... But damn right now wish I had an ice maker!

Do I order something in or do I cook the Chinese pork loins and have rice with them.........................................

My boss pronounced Gerber as Jerber. Like jif instead of gif! Grrrrr! G and J made from the back or front of the tongue... Though why is Gerbal like a hamster pronounced with. Jer...... I hate you English. Make sense!

I have music going and I'm already starting to think about it again... I don't want to die and the enevitability is terrifying. Knowing one day I WILL no longer be... I really wish I didn't have these panic attacks

Damnit! Seeing Wes streeting saying the right things is winding me up. He's still a cunt who I don't trust at any length. But damnit. Return to the EU, add new wealth taxes... Damnit! These are things we all want.

Had another bad mortality panic attack last night... Kept me up till after 2... I feel so tired :(

I just put on deep heat spray on my back and... Apart from choking at this smell... Nothing not feeling a damn thing! Have they made it weaker?

Can someone remove the pain out from under my shoulder blade please.... It's really fucking starting to get to me :/

Eeesh just had a power cut for the last 2 hours! It was wide enough that even the mobile masts were offline... I was completely cut off... That... was uncomfortable!

I felt a bit tired so tried to have a 40 minute nap... Used my alarm to enforce it.... I feel so fucking zoned out! Disassociated! Brain wonky... I want to go back to sleep but I know if I do I won't sleep well tonight at all!

Ive just finished adulting for one day... Ive done more adulting than I should have any right too.... Damn it! Cleaned kitchen, the sink the cooker and descaled the kettle and coffee maker!

Did Bulgaria deserve to win? I dunno i think there were better songs... But am i glad they won? Fuck yeah im glad?! Also at least their song was fun and i said before I liked the performance... Israel outside of the whole genocide thing... Were just fucking shit anyway. Their points were crooked AF

THANK FUCK FOR THAT!

There are no loosers tonight... Apart from you the uk!

wow the very audible boos for Israel's points

israel... Fucking bullshit! total utter crooked bullshit!

Norway deserved better!

:O 232 Fuck me! Romania... turns out the world likes a bit of chokey too.....

OMFG 0 PUBLIC VOTES!

Latvia have taken something... I dont know what but something!

YAY Tom Cardy got 12 points!

WTF ITALY!!!!! WTF that was Awful!

Lets talk to the sporks person from the countries! #esc

uuughhh AI Anime characters in this video! bad #esc BAD!

For me the ones I liked... Belgium was not awful... Ukraine Serbia (look I like grunge) Bulgaria's performance was fun but bad song. Croatia was REALLY good! Finland was not bad too. Norway was actually cool, whitestripsey Romania, choking aside it was a good performance and a nice metal track.

Someones is into breath play! #esc

Just realised Norway looked like Tom Cardy... What if Tom Cardy was next years Australian entry?! #esc

Norway strong start! #esc Nearly some white stripes

in that intermission we saw a new mascot, I guess they got rid of lumo last minute! #esc