Dealing with chronic illness is like: It's fine. It's fine. It's fine. Fuck this. Fuck that. Fuck you. Fuck my life. *goes apeshit* It's fine.

Gave myself a quick haircut that wasn't the most even but was close enough lol. Gotta get rid of as much as I can off my neck for this summer!

New profile pic/header pic to show how I really feel. Credit of each pic unknown.

It's a "live laugh toaster bath" type of day🫠

The level I feel this ideation is scarely high. I keep seeing things about my issue causing the ideation as if the universe knows. So yeah..

You're a piece of shit You're a burden You're a disappointment You're not going anywhere What's your anxiety telling you today? Mines hating on me pretty hard!!!

This is a great idea!!

Gaslighting is the entire GOP playbook. From ‘biggest crowd ever’ to ‘normal tourist visit,’ they’re betting you’ll ignore reality. If we allow them to keep rewriting history, they’ll keep burning the truth to the ground.

I can't wait to get @skydxddy.bsky.social album at the end of the month. Just from videos I have already memorized part of my new favorite song that I haven't even heard in full yet 😂 But it's an emotional song about having an ED but for me it fully feels like the anthen for how my life screwed up

Life's hard. I'm tired.

Ayyyyyye we did it!! Let's see if we can get to 700 followers!! If you like my page be sure to suggest it to others! (on Fb or BlueSky)

I wish I could change one part of me and it breaks me I may need to give up because I don't see a way out.

And here is the only safe place (besides my group discord chat) to actually post about how I'm feeling and work through it.

30th birthday selfies from today. Shirt courtesy of my mom and of @steviesafespaces.com

So mentally I am so far from OK that I'm scared of myself at this point... so that's great for my 30th birthday...

What time do I dislike the most? Laundry time🙄

If youd like to join the Chronic Illness and the Borderline Mind discord server comment below! We do group art swaps every few months, we have dedicated channels to talk about everything from pain/Illness, neurospicyness, LGBT+, beauty, art and writing, and more to create a safe inclusive community!

USA mail finally caught up from the Canada Post strike and I got my art swap (in my CIBM discord server. Comment if interested) But how beautiful is this!? The detail in the background is perfectly balanced with the butterfly and the cool lil bookmark with moths/butterflies drawn on it. I love them!

Just throwing this back out there no pressure

Do you think we can get my count to 500 followers for my birthday on Sunday? 🥳 Only need 25 more people!! I'd really like to get there in time lol.😜

Not necessary but I'm just throwing it out there my p@yp@l is paypal.me/madi0406 if anyone wants to help me celebrate my 30th birthday on the January 12th. Or Canadian Etransfer to [email protected]

Forgot to share one of Stella's Xmas photos!

Having no cannabis fucking sucks. Can't afford any and my guy stopped business so I've smoked the last I had now. My body pain is insane without the anti-inflammatory ad tension help.

Did I go out anywhere? No. Did I do makeup just to sit around in it? Yes. Did I need the happy chemicals? Very much yes!

These are my inspiration for my birthday cake this year since I'm turning 30. Kinda funny because I am quite depressed too so a black and funeral style cake do make me laugh. #DarkHumor #30thBirthday #FuneralForYourYouth

1/3 I really wish I could get into Chappel Roan but she looks IDENTICAL (even Scott thinks so) to my ex-best friend and considering there's an EX before the words best friend I think that shows my POV.

I wish I had something to say...

My scalp hurts so fucking much!!! #Allodynia #TrigeminalNeuralgia #IcePack

Made this change monster to hold loose change for my bf for xmas out of polymer clay.

Like running around endlessly with no stamina and 1 HP left 🤯

Self hate is strong tonight!

I love dogs hahahaaa

Stop the slaughter

When you need a way to remember to use your STOP #DBTSkills because you haven't been using it lately so you paint a sick stop sign! This turned out perfect! Debating outlining the yellow with black to separate colors.

For 3 years I've been Chronic Illness and the Borderline Mind. For 3 years I've been sharing my story. For 3 years I've been building this community. Thank you to everyone who has been part of my fb page! Make sure you follow me over there www.facebook.com/ChronicIllne... #anniversary #3yearsonfb

I popped my ear and it's been killing me all day!😫😫😫

Yeah let's go!

I feel like I'm dying!!!!!

Fuck the Canadian Post strike! It's effecting me getting part of my pain management. My body is raging against me right now.

I honestly feel so sick. And the pain is high asf!

Can I call out from existing today? I’m not sure I feel real

chronically ill #chronicillness #chronicallyill #chronicillnessmemes

"how are you feeling?" "By your standards or mine?" 🤣

Every friggin day

I would really really like this, I have such a love for nirvana and Kurt Cobain!!