just know that if you have shitty parents that you have complicated feelings about i don't have complicated feelings about it. do you want me to kill them for you king. i fucking will.

tired, sad, and tired of being sad

watching japanese and korean foodtubers making bacon seems to be an assault against my senses... why is it so pale and limp.... that needs cooked more... it's barely more than raw TT A TT

he is givin me SUCH a look wtf boy

[personal, negative, complaining probably,,, ]

ok i'm tipsy now and just found something very important in my drafts should i be brave and post it.

making myself a mixed drink i call pocari sweat and vodka. because it's vodka with pocari sweat. and a little extra lemon juice to even it out. because that's what i have in my house.

my one gripe with fields of mistria (other than like. the game bugs and constant crashing lol) is that olric is not a romance option. what do you mean. he's sweet and dorky and autistic about rocks. he's the only one who made me go "oh i WANT him" immediately D<

*after having told someone "no" in any way*: am i a bad person?? do they hate me now?????

i love to try new things at restaurants but man it is a GAMBLE. sometimes they become a new regular order but like 70% of the time it ranges from "this was nice and i'm glad i tried it but probably won't order again" to "wtf this is terrible oh god i can NOT finish this"

deeply mad at the state of things where they can just take my favorite show from me. i want to watch flavorful origins (incredibly beautiful documentary featuring a granular breakdown of regional chinese foods) SO BAD but nope! poof! it's been scrubbed from the internet!

i don't even know exactly how to use a cane correctly but still have you ever seen someone SO obviously using a cane the wrong height for them ToT;;

me realizing the dollmaking is just the most literal application of this. the man IS in my inventory. i can carry him around in a bag to show him off

do u ever accidentally ask yourself hard-hitting therapist questions while trying to figure out wtf is wrong with yourself and are suddenly on the brink of tears like ooohhh that was too real and i don't wanna think abt it

fom update: "if you've been having performance issues, this patch should fix that!" the patch: "now if you crash (which has so far been at the same rate and unexplained as before), it freezes the game on your screen instead of crashing to desktop! and there's an error message!"

i'm so tired, i've been fighting for my life to go shower for like four days (and still haven't done it), what the fuck is wrong with meeeeeeeeeee

i had. another hua cheng thunk. rolling around in here. from a couple days ago. that i never drafted up. and now i'm sitting here like WHAT WAS IT??? i will remember when i once again do not have energy to articulate it i'm sure......

there's been good points made by others about how hua cheng, as an artist, specializes in sculpture over painting-- he does paint, and very very well, but the sculptures are the ones described as eerily lifelike, and they're the majority of his (devotional) work.

okay,,,, i finished hair embroidery for the xl doll hairstyle test, prepped a bunch of things, and did one ear.. mayhap... that is enough sewing today...... that is a Lot More embroidery than it sounds like i promise ToT;;;;

executive dysfunction will have you like "i want to watch a movie" *has movie pulled up on screen* *doesn't press play* *sits there and stares*

the fic (about a torn sleeve): "thin short fibers peppering raw edges;" me: huh, but if it's hua cheng he's probably wearing high-quality and therefore reeled silk so the staple length is actually unimaginably long--OH they mean threads. they are using fiber to synonym threads you've gone too deep

(not directed at op, just general knowledge) the term gay panic specifically comes from the "gay panic" defense - a legal defense stating that a straight perpetrator cannot be held liable for their violent assault or murder of a queer victim bc they perceived the victim as coming onto them, which

to my oomfs

we went for boba today and because it was super like... getting into the evening i went for something fruity and low-caffeine (which i never do) so i took the opportunity to try popping boba for the first time (for the last time because i like it Exactly As Little as i thought i would)

ooohhhh,,,,, somehow more than i thought i would get and yet ! i still don't have a full bingo even on the 4-count! (some of these i'm lowkey counting extensive participation in deb's au's // unpublished fics BUT IF I WROTE IT I'M COUNTING IT! )

it's like bedtime-ish (in an hour and a half or so) but suddenly i'm like damn i could go for some green tea and peanut butter m&m's....

the like... buzzword search optimization multi-tagging title thing that products on etsy and amazon do has i think ruined the meaning of words a lot... like fam. i'm searching for cotton gauze. why is this labeled muslin. muslin does not mean cotton OR gauze. it is its own word!!!

horrible chimaera almost done,,, just need to fill in one last part of hua cheng's eye and then some little detail lines that go so quick,,, (and then i can get some more colors and try ANOTHER test eye Dx,,)

THE CHILDREN ARE HOME SAFE I'M SO GLAD I BIRTHED THEM WITH MY OWN FINGERS ; w ; <3

SQUEAKING CHILD RECIEVED!!! @catwif3.bsky.social

THE BABY IS HERE!!!!!!! He is so soft and precious. Sao is so talented @catwif3.bsky.social

doing the test embroidery is very good because i AM learning from every bit of it and also adjusting my pattern vectors to fix a lot of what i'm not loving about it, and making lists of new colors to try to fix what isn't working here, and and and--

lrt: missed the one-year anniversary of the first art i really shared on here 🤗 (i had thoughts about trying to draw something for it during the same event i drew that one at, but i was busy sewing ^^;; )

the descriptions of long boi soggy wet mer fafa in this thread were just too good... they haunted me until i coughed this up honestly i fear i still didn't make him long enough but i kept running out of canvas T o T

there are adopted hong'ers out for delivery today..... *vibrating furiously*

nooo the little crocs i tried to get for future xie lian doll were sold out actually,,,, ToT;;; rip (but also i actually hate crocs with a passion i but i was trying to do my due diligence bc everyone loves xl in them :/ and these were pretty cute I GUESS) (getting him little converse instead)

Once again begging people to stop advertising for writing comms on AO3. It's the fastest way to get yourself banned and puts the archive at risk if you admit on there that you're taking money for fics. 🙃

i wanna write but i also want to sew but also the cat is once again using my hand as a pillow so actually i cant do /anything/ but he had a hard night last night so i cant take this from him,,,,

hahahaha we're having a thunderstorm for 4th of july so no fireworks tonight downside (according to my cat): thunderstorm /also/ scary (but less) downside (according to me): probably ppl will be setting off their stash more than usual the rest of the week 😔

fighting so hard to actually go take a shower and manage to get out to see friends who are in town today aaaaaaaa ToT;;; why does going out for fun ALSO trigger the "don't wanna DX" part of my brain that going to work does????? mental illness is the worst

i will say that all the bsky images being down makes a GREAT case for how nice doing alt text is x'''D

writing is so hard y'all,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

every time i get so brave and look at something like my property taxes or health insurance telling myself "it won't be that bad, we can figure it out, we're an adult!" and then the websites ARE that bad and reduce me to tears once again because the info i need is hidden or not even available

unfortunately as i try to get back into sewing the last couple days it turns out that video games are more fun and rewarding than sewing right now.............................. deeply fucked. but i WANT the results of sewing (dolls) so i. gotta. ; w ;

i turned the thermostat down one (1) degree. to help combat how stuffy the upstairs gets now that the heat wave is hitting my area. but somehow this means that when i'm downstairs i'm FREEZING???? it's at 77 fahrenheit wtffff why am i like this!!!!! !

did a lot yesterday and trying desperately to find the strength to do *anything* today..... maybe i should save it to be able to actually make dinner tho i've been really phoning it in (takeout. crackers & cheese. freezer meal) for that lately ToT;;;;;;

Saw a couple of posts from US artists saying BSky is now asking them for age verification. Please follow the link in this repost. I’m the UK we’ve had this crap going on for over a year. The methods listed here work great, it’s what I use it (no way I’m providing personal info!)

Here's a list of all kinds of medications that may interact with heat leading to a higher risk of overheating/heatstroke. Please take care of yourselves and if you have friends/family who take these medications make sure they know the higher risk. ❤️

oh no... something in my quesadilla has gone moldy... guessing either the cheese or butter.... it all smelled fine but i can taste it now that it's been heated up ToT;;; rip i really wanted that......