So much for emailing the professor in order to ask for more time so that I don't go through an anxiety spiral. I'm having an anxiety spiral because they haven't emailed back in 5 days.

Ugh. Why did I pace the entire hour when I was... holding a sign. I told myself I wasn't going to and I lied to myself.

I only got 3 hours of sleep and this is supposed to be the first day that I start on my final paper.

I think there will be enough people out of work that they have will have endless time to protest. In order for that to happen we need to community organize to keep people off the streets and keep the food banks going strong. Otherwise we'll see people getting desperate enough to join ICE and we lose

Honestly I am going to view protesting every day as just a weird way for me to exercise. Got my steps in.

This protest on the 18th is going to be different. My therapist is canceling all her appointments that day and I saw it advertised with side walk chaulk in my area.

It’s not that I cannot spot sarcasm, I get the concept. I’ve used sarcasm before. But I’ve lost faith in humanity being overwhelmingly intelligent. If someone says an obviously dumb thing, I will assume they meant it. That’s what living under the Trump regime has done to me.

I accidentally said “poin” instead of “point” and so I looked up poin and it means point. 😎 I got it right after all.

Best $8 I’ve ever spent on a Halloween decoration. #booksky

The inflatables have made it to Broadview.

Me literally all day: This is easy. It's only 200-300 words. You can do this! You were supposed to do this yesterday, and it's easy! Stop doing other things, who gives a fuck if you're tired. DO IT.

My mind is dissociating too much for me to hold verbal directions in my brain. I rely on written instructions a lot more than I want to admit. #disability.

I wish I could show how silly I am going to look at the protest. BUT yeah. Privacy.

We should all grab rubber chickens and learn how to play them.

I’m going to go buy a silly outfit for October 18th.

“In the shadow of the steeple I saw my people, By the relief office I seen my people; As they stood there hungry, I stood there asking Is this land made for you and me?”

I think you can get inflatable costumes at Spirit Halloween. 🤔

Gotta love when a graphic novel makes you look like a crazy person when they loops the words upside down so that you’re constantly spinning the book when you read. #booksky

Do I have so many library books to read with so little time to read them, that I'll let these books go over due just so that I can get around to them? Uh, yes. The answer is yes. #booksky

What keeps my hope going? Americans do not EVER like being told what to do by the government. The word freedom is ingrained in us. Americans said "With liberty and justice for all" 5 days a week. Our declaration of independence lists all of what King George did, and it matches what Trump is doing.

You would think this would translate well as an avatar. It does not. I shall try again...maybe with a pen.

I'm going to try and draw a frog for my avatar. Which might be easier to draw than a dragon with a book, something I've had great difficulty with. Because when I draw I tend to draw tiny details and THEN figure out what it could become, instead of doing it the normal way. 🤪

I think we should put frogs on everything. I know Portland originally put a bird on it, but frogs. Switch to frogs.

I know there's a million worthy causes to fund but may I suggest this teacher in Maryland who wants to buy two Albert Camus novels for his AP students? Please and thank you? www.donorschoose.org/project/2-no...

I have had the “Don’t Stop Me Now“ song by Queen in my head for an entire week now.

Believing that history can be spoiled is just weird. I’m not going to throw down my biography of Abe Lincoln and glare at you if you say he got shot in the head. #history #booksky

Maybe if I go back and forth between reading this graphic novel and writing my paper I’ll finish a graphic novel today.

Hey, just a reminder: Dictatorships want you to be fearful of them. They want you to watch the news and spiral out and do nothing. Speak out, be loud and give them a backlash to the shit they do.

I bought 5 ebooks. Those Who Break the Chains (series) by Maria Ying I promised myself I wouldn't buy more books until maybe next year. Yep.

If you like people getting kidnapped in a plot, read the Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordon. You'll either love how many times he uses that plot device or be entirely sick of it by the end of the series. #booksky

The YMCA decided to prey on book nerds who want to exercise with extra books they don't need by putting their Little Free Library by the door. #booksky

Book recommendation for the day! #booksky The Colony: The Harrowing True Story Of The Exiles Of Molokai by John Tayman. Did medical experts think you have leprosy? Well step right up and get forced to live on an island with not enough resources to accommodate everyone else who was forced on there!

You know what, I don't think I can write this paper without caffeine this morning and my calendar says "limit caffeine" not "no caffeine" for my medical appointment.

Trying to become a historian while being terrible with names and dates does not actually limit me all that much. There's a misconception that you have to memorize that stuff and...not really. You just naturally come to know names and dates by reading about the same time period repeatedly.

Mental health days are pretty important for me to have. Otherwise I get wound up so tight that I am forced to give myself a mental health day because I have a nervous breakdown. But I can have that happen even if I do mental health days. So that's why deadlines are hard for me to follow.

Oh, the essay I am supposed to write is about what crosses the line in personal liberty when it comes to medical prevention?

My yoga studio called up and asked why I canceled. I explained that I was reinjuring myself over and over again and that I'm going to swim to strengthen that way before going back to yoga...So I agreed to freeze my account instead, again. They're giving me a medical exemption until I can go back.

"If I finish my paper quickly I'll have time to read Redemption of Hacksaw Ridge by Booton Herndon." Oh the lies I tell myself. This will probably be an unproductive day entirely because I'm going to crash out from therapy. 😅

Dear oh dear, had to block someone because they believed we all gave up fighting and simultaneously believed protesting didn't work. 🙄

I just added to my library book stack. I have the illusion that I have enough time to read other things during my day. Ahahaha.

I am running on 4 hours of sleep and I cannot drink caffeine for 2 weeks because of a future medical appointment.

Diaries are so very important to keep during fascist regimes. Bluesky is used by people as a short jot down diary that anyone can see... practice writing without having an audience. We gave them power over us by not caring about privacy and we can take it back.

*realizing I should have started on my final paper weeks ago*

Casually reading homework about the history of gynecology: "And one of the most descriptive terms for enslaved black women was 'breeder.'"

#library #booksky Every Sunday morning: Me: I’m going to the library! 😃 Partner: They’re closed until 1pm.

Can I just read my history books in peace and not have to participate in a civil war?

Can anyone guess that I am not fond of the medical community? 😅

*gasps* A new medical dictionary! I need this for my classes! *opens to random page* Lethal Injection: A method of capital punishment in which several medications (typically an analgesic, an anesthetic, a paralytic, and/or a sedative hypnotic) are used to execute a convicted criminal.