The doctor went over my prognosis. There's no indication of illness or infection in my lungs, thank Janna. I am anemic and have a compromised immune system. The thyroid issues are also correct.

Jayce and I are at the doctor's office waiting to be called in. Both our hands are sweating but holding his is reasurring in a way.

The meeting with the doctor to discuss bloodwork is tomorrow. I want to ask about acquiring testosterone. I haven't mentioned this much but I feel ... softer than I would like. Curves in places I do not want that could be remedied with the hormone. It'd be nice to have again.

We were not eating any cookies. Dimitri only brought tea?

I just returned home and saw that Jayce picked strawberries for me 🥹 Only mentioned the craving in passing but he remembered. I feel like crying for some reason, it's just fruit. But gods they taste heavenly.

My time with Dimtri at the park is done. It was nice. He brought tea like he said he would. We spoke in Zaunite the entire time.

Jayce marked up my neck again. I suppose I should be grateful that he kept the bruises lower this time— means I don't have to wear a turtleneck or scarf. At least this garment Sashelba gifted me some time ago covers things.

I received a letter today. It is from Dimitri inviting me for tea tomorrow. I am surprised. I assumed the suggestion of us meeting was simply a formality.

Managed to get a photo of our handsome rooster. We are open to name suggestions for him as well 😊

Oh uh— hello. Not sure who this is but I appreciate the greeting.

The bread turned out perfect. It is no surprise that Elena knows what she's doing. She's kindly letting Jayce and I take both loaves home.

Jayce and I are at Urel's place. His wife, Elena, is showing me how to make sourdough starter and bread. I quite like the process, I understand why Jayce said it can be a science, it is fairly simple chemistry.

We've decided on names for the girls. Everyone meet Jayce 2 and Viktor 2. Kidding! Heh, the lighter one is Honey and the darker is Maple 😊

At least once a day I wonder why Jayce chose me, why he wants me. It's redundant because I know why, at least from what was revealed in the arcane. But reasons could have changed, I do not know. I cannot help but to question.

-moves back in his chair, away from Jayce's grasp- You already made your declaration, you cannot take it back. -chuckles then gasps, eyes zero in on the grass- Jayce, Jayce look! Oh my gods they are so small!

-opens eyes-

Jayce was, um, thorough with me last night. I don't think I've ever organsmed that many times back to back. We had to take another bath afterwards, it was necessary. The bedding was a mess.

-hums and lets Jayce undo his towel- Yes -sits in Jayce's lap and kisses him as the towel falls off-

Jayce and I finished the garden today. I am satisfied with how it's turned out, I just hope the plants will cooperate.

I am not sure what a, eh, "neck" goat is. I only know of the animal but I suspect that's not the intended meaning since you bring up Jayce.

Blitz has been sleeping on the bed with us lately so I get to wake up to this ♡

The ginger tea did help some, I was able to eat a whole slice of the cherry pie Jayce and I made the other day. So there is progress. Next will be the peppermint tea.

Oh, how kind. Yes the doctor did provide me some tea blends to try, one of them being ginger, but I will never turn down the opportunity to try new ones, thank you ☺️

you, too, have touched the arcane............. #arcane #jayvik

Jayce is asleep now. I seem to have tired him out well this time. My jaw kind of hurts but I am content.

According to the doctor my symptoms are a combination of several ailments. The main one is depression. He also suspects I have may have a thyroid issue but that cannot be confirmed until bloodwork results return in about a week. I am also fairly dehydrated 😅

My heart dropped when the doctor did an x-ray of my lungs and saw something. But the more we looked it appears to be scarring, or where I was healed, because there was that webbing pattern like the ones all over my body.

I don't want to be here. -sigh- Let's get this over with.

I will be going for a visit in the morning. Jayce will be accompanying me, for which I am grateful. I cannot help but feel a sense of dread. My mind goes to the worst possible conclusions. For Jayce's sake I hope it's not serious. I don't want him to watch me wither away again.

Learning how to make pie today. Jayce is teaching me. It is a fairly simple process, not sure why I thought otherwise.

Jayce decided to take a nap. I have been sitting beside him on our bed reading but I find myself ... distracted. Jayce does not have a shirt on. Perhaps now is a better time than any for that surprise I mentioned earlier...

This may be silly to think but I cannot help but feel I was ... lacking during that intimate moment with Jayce yesterday. I finished too quick and could hardly handle a finger. I– I don't know what the metrics are for this kind of thing but my mind keeps telling me I'm premature.

I had a dream last night, a horrid dream. I was in Piltover, still the Herald. I was not stopped. Everything became evolved, including Jayce. He cried as he changed. I felt nothing. I was utterly alone in world devoid of most life and did not care.

Jayce got so handsy with me the other day at the market. The man has no shame. I cannot say I did not like it either which frustrates me. -feels heat blooming below his belly- Hmmm. He's still asleep so I am sure he won't mind if I ...

Such a place was inconceivable to me as a child. I knew scenery like this did exist but it was far out of the realm of my reality, if anything it was a fantasy in the books I read.

Newest members of the cottage. We acquired two females and a male that I need to get a photo of. We are open to name suggestions 😊

and some more post canon #jayvik

The produce at this market always has me in awe. While these are not my favorite fruit they are incredibly beautiful.

Jayce and I are at the village market now. A few people have given me curious looks, I don't blame them. Wearing a turtle neck in this weather is odd. -Looks at Jayce with narrowed eyes-

-wakes up, groans, and touches neck- *Damn Jayce really went at my throat last night* -walks into bathroom and sees reflection- Dear Janna JAYCE

That is true, I will keep that mind when looking. The variety in color would be interesting.

Jayce and I are clearing out an area near the cottage for a chicken coop today. We will be visiting the weekly market tomorrow and I hope to acquire some chickens.

We've only just crossed the line into a romantic partnership. Children are not at the forefront of my mind at the moment. As I've explained before I am not sure carrying children is possible for me. It was highly unlikely back in Piltover and I do not see how things would be any different now.

Jayce made tortillas. I very much enjoy them. And the best part is my stomach tolerates them too 😊

It appears I bruise easily, I already knew this but in a difference sense. Either that or Jayce has a very firm grip. It's as if his hands are painted on my hips ... goodness.

@postcanonjayce.bsky.social @postcanonviktor.bsky.social Ahem… sorry, I was just passing by… and you forgot to close the window… 🫣 #jayvik

Jayce and I are getting the garden ready by sowing some seeds. Previous ones we planted are sprouting so that's promising.

I assume by "done anything" you're referring to activities of a, eh, intimate nature? Not that it's anyone's buisness but as with our relationship, things will progress when we are ready.

happy and in love #jayvik in post-canon