feeling sick. hyper-aware of what happened to me since this year began i need some love. i wish i was around more, i want the people of my life to know I care and love them

I did a lot of reaching at the start of this year to little Opportunity I had to get my wisdom teeth out on an emergency basis I only had couches or a three week stint in Baltimore and I needed at least a month for OMS surgeon after referral and then intake, and finally surgery

It’s scary to be alone My siblings have better outcome because they got this familial support I got left behind because I’ve always managed to find my way, they see it as strong and smart I’ve had no choice because of the fire lit under my ass of being abandoned to keep alive

Going to commit to rest while I can Trying to get some food ; worried about internal infection because I feel like last year physically inside my body Fighting through depression Trying to know what I should do Easiest would be flyback to mom, but it’s an abusive environment

I can’t put it into a single post My expectations are what I am told, what I am told has changed all year with this group, it keeps leading to consequences I’ve wanted away for a while, I need to get out of dodge and take a couch anywhere I can I’ve not got much time to get roofed

Roommates moved forward on exit plans to end of month I was expectation end of DEC I’m on a bridge fill of anti convulsants I have PCP intake tmrw, unsure if I will able to attend follow-up required for med continuation Kofi updates to come I am Homeless end of month This is humanitarian crisis

I genuinely don’t know what to do right now Facing homelessness within the next two weeks I don’t know if I should attend my scheduled intake for PCP and sign all the releases if I’m unable to attend the follow up I’m afraid of making a grievous misstep

Rehousing pushed up to by months end when I was expecting December At least attempting to relocate, and be safe to find more time to land my self stable. In crisis and upset by the sudden change in course direction Seeking leads in AZ, and New England where I am originally from

Agh I want life to stabilize, I want to find myself open to love and relationship again I want to build deeper more intrinsic values to hold close and dear as these years move on Feels like a whole, keep on keeping on since the pandemic struck

Time, never works with me 18 days Not much to sell money saved for doctors and prescription all I got to my name Pulling hair, losing sleep, I gotta tighten up and figure out my options by the end of the week :(

have to figure out a move or safety plan by months end as everyone here is now out of a job & we are looking at end of month default Others have begun selling belongings off to pay for their exit to Virginia, I’m sick to my stomach Not sure how doc will go if I’m homeless by follow up. In crisis

Mmmm the further away I am from L a t t er day s a ints the better my life will get perhaps 🤔

Everyone in the house has lost their job this last month… today makes it so it’s a difficult and scary situation to approach. I’m still looking to rehouse, or get to New England safely by December end. There is a chance November ends in default. I don’t know what to do but reach

Sunset anxiety on the dime 5/6pm every day It’s been years of this. I start feeling very unwell and irritable, nervous and tired, lonely and isolated, palpitations and brief spots of Doom medication or full sobriety, thru all the changes, since I did psychedelics @ 19 Cannabis helps, tho Idgi

im still hell bent on defeating the prognosis'!!! wheelchair prognosis @ 24, I'm two years past with PT and active efforts, hoping to reach 30 before I lose the function in my legs to nerve compression

AZ isn't kind to disabled young adults, as much as it is to disabled elders in systematic availability of programs, quite like Maine. though this country in general pt resident in both states, non-domiciled makes it even more complicated

I really want to develop habitual study again, under circumstances where I have time to undertake

Monday! It’s gonna be a busy week Doctors appointment later this week, & assessing for mutual aid needs in rehousing or relocation Last push is rehousing, I’m gonna spend this time actively trying to get into a suitable job for my physical limitations

I want for comfort objects stuff with love and sentiment that evoke fond warmth

anyone have a hookup on the cure for Deep Degenerative Forminal Stenosis? I rolled the worst cards for body and health to be in my mid 20's and @ the end of my bone health w/o insurance, displaced, and near homeless, without family (till I open the Bible and give faith healing a try for them)

I don't want this disability to make me less of a person to people I try not to mind it, I rarely mention it I feel estranged from my age group going through something that's avg for 70/80yr olds scary like infohazard of health to share, but w/ old heads, its like Check out my Decompression Tech

absurdly lonely, feeling low value to texting. got no recreation, hobbies or fun, no way to convene, and it tugs my heart terribly so I got books, study, but struggling to feel like I can do things with myself. I learn, but I am alone until I find and utilize my strength to its fullest

I need assistance finding work Or pointers for what I can do with my limited time under housing to make the best shot at keeping safe Got till near end of Dec to rehouse and I’m out of work, phys impaired set up primary care for continued mediation I am in the Phoenix area, any resources help

Art is emotion through expression. AI does not think and it cannot feel. It is a program designed to scrounge the internet to pass things off as its own. All the while stealing jobs from real artists and soaking up drinking water.

Feel like, if harm reduction for alcoholism, demystification, low judgement, more widespread & available resource w transparent info, it would help who desire help the fearmongering campaign can’t stand for wellbeing or social welfare It’s taken so many I love away while they’re still here..

Folk tell me a lot I need to write a book, just about my first 15 years of life I feel like I should start interviewing my family, but it’s hard stuff, painful to revisit. darker than movies can depict, stuff we don’t talk about. but I feel it’s important to the state of things

My entire life, I have felt poverty needs a louder voice From poverty, these perils are all I’ve seen and known through growing up It breaks my heart it is now more widespread and inundated I can’t even drive, but I want to do so much, what little I can to aide

What scares me about scams is how decision making & rationalization are extremely altered on a starving body/brain It may be obvious when something foul is afoot, but to folk like my family, the right line of desperation, duress messaging, and “looks valid” ensnare folk

Woke to impending doom feeling deeply sensationally fearful for the first time in months, my heart is always fluttering when it happens Getting better by the minute awake Feel like I need a hug & company

Got a little food in me last night, ibuprofen and good rest Feeling a lot more better in headspace and body, gonna keep up with food best I can Looking up and forward with my doc apt set 💙

We really really need to buy more groceries soon, and I'm starting to fall behind on bills again... I'm disabled and I'm not able to make consistent income... Anything helps...

getting my head out of news, gonna do some art and music tn, gonna get some food too, its been a couple days

Humanitarian crisis and struggle to do a damn thing It makes me sick

Ugh 😣

I think we need to stop calling it empathy and go back to calling it decency. It isn't a favour you're doing someone else, it's you proving that you aren't a fucking ghoul

anxiety reading disability resources feels Kafkaesque, confusing, disheartening I got calls all week next week to do, im reaching, im scared of a pitfall

I have a intake appointment set up next week It’s a sliding fee pay scale provider I still don’t know what the costs are, but I have 700 put back. I may require new mris I am Homeless at end of December, and seeking rehousing, as a next priority

I’ve been crashing out on gender dysphoria all week and it’s really coming to a head today :(

I have to rehouse, get and keep a job, while I'm losing the function in my lower body, get a doctor without insurance, get steroids or a nerve block, in less than 45 days, and I am a little bit existential

Gripes but, what did I do in a past life to get foraminal spinal stenosis w/ neurogenic claudication, loss of lower lumbar, and Spondylotic retrolisthesis, by the age of 22 lose all my weight to 90lbs @ 24 here I am a couple years later and oh, it's still not enough to get disability

Take my forminal stenosis away What a fucking curse in this country to have any spine problems To lose lower body function slowly A lifetime, a lifetime of money, no insurance wants to cover

Pain malaise is terrible I need to get new mris, I need a plan of action & EOL plan. I need new determination on my expectancy, last mri turned up my doctors response of ~9 years with intervention How in the world am I going to make this work without insurance

I want a nerve block Spinal stenosis is hell

Covered in itchy bug bites, freezing again Reaching some emotional limits with the stress I can endure 😣

The hate has hurt me, so deeply, I can’t be okay here Even in peace, I fear the other foot I want to live but I am domineered to dehumanized values I cannot escape the instilled fear and pain of my roommate, or the prior abusive alcoholics one in the same

Tired Chest hurts, panic and dread Tm Is new day but head hurts grinding jaw too much Not okay.

my religious family is unconcerned with my welfare rn there is no place for me, I got a month and a half to find somewhere \ I want to get safe, and stay safe

withdrawal made this feel all too real my body was taken from me twice this year

life feels so urgent that I can't self study, or enjoy time alone. I want the one thing, security and stability everything cherished feels like a distraction, if I can't keep it, but I grow lonely, want to do things, don't want to let myself down hard to let a day end, to find the short peace

Is there anything I can do about a fraudulent HR direct deposit account. HR added a direct deposit to my account, without notifying me, and has taken my paycheck I have direct proof, and the account/rout of this mystery deposit… Messaging HR but choosing words wisely as they fault me…