I keep having swings between feeling panic that I need to relocate & that I must stay disiplined and responsible even in the face of fear & stay working it out here until I have some semblance of independence It’s scary when it feels I may not have rights

dental emergency, having to extract a tooth and nervous about where its located usual extraction price is $50, but more difficult extractions prove harder will have to try and get payment deferred, flat broke until the 30th and anything would help to stay afloat

Workin to see things good Water is back on running, it’s a bright new day, gonna try and meet some goals where I can Body comfort is already beginning to climb

Spending today out of commission due to lack of running water & bodily discomfort 😢

Enough gripes for today Slime is goop

My mood during furry cons and events in 2025:

Cursed w/ the bad gallbladder & requiring half my time alive spent rushing to the toilet or trying to get comfortable with long shower 😭

Woof the water is shut off again 😢

I FEEL THIS FUCKING PICTURE IN MY BONES

I'm barks today

Got out of the house, on my own, and got some errands done <3 big steps for this fox its been tough to go out on my own, but once I get going, it feels great

Gonna do healthy things for myself today, staying away from conflict 💙 Yesterday, I collected safe spaces & locations to feel safe, and avoid conflict before escalation. Bc It is a pattern healed some anxiety of my insecurities I’ve been feeling within this house, as I work my way out of here

growing discomfort with digestion, coming back to starting mornings with Impending Doom episodes :( Still, gonna work today into a positive one once I pass this moment I wanna hold and keep to my joy more, this morning is an ultimate reminder to that

Talked it over with the rest of the roommates.. We all don’t know what to do Me leaving is easiest, but, it is unfair to the sacrifices made and great expenditure I’ve undertaken, to survive. I’m at the cusp of finding work, fixing my life, having a future. I don’t know what to do..

Cooping with my condition means that things I know, take more time, as it progresses that's okay; I'm being stronger for attempting the same things I love, under greater discomfort, though I wish I had more capacity I wanna spend more time loving, while I'm doing everything too

I wanna take more walks, I wanna bark more

bakery called the barkery sell dog treats

working on my life & self all year has me feeling, like a completely different person all this time, events, change, has felt like years im yearning a little about my time but, I'm here now, & that's what counts 💙

lately thinkin back to physical therapy & feeling the desire to re-establish a routine

Working today into a good one early 💙

feeling alone, I want to invest time into another, but I can’t make sense of time for myself I miss when it was passionate and the conversations would go like wind, life happening, growing together instead of apart I strive for that, but I cannot feel it’s joy while missing a lifetime 🥲

Knowing it’s especially important to try & stay strong, as a person suffering with disabilities right now Solidarity is strength, I love you all

wish I got to have my wisdom teeth out when the peril wasn't so perilous the necrotic nerve pain condemned me to suffer in a world of anxiety @ the depths things are now, from the clear path they were after 2016 I spent a swathe of time dreading, when I could have been loving, if I was able to :(

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I’m dreaming of, having spending money, that didn’t take years of saving. The idea of being able to freely enrich myself through books, developing new skills, trade school, certifications, passion curriculums It excites me. the non materialist ends to the means of money is to build on oneself

Put my big apps in with refined tailored resume & nervous tummy hoping my life will be changed soon for the effort I’ve been driving home every day of the weeks It’s a big time to learn, self educate, and refresh the mental as life grows

Foxtember foptember

Sorta like, blows complete ass that I don’t want to live here, I’m not safe here, but I need to get a job and set up shop to even have an option to leave 🙃

I’ve been trying to get a job anywhere doing anything for months on end now with no bites since June, frequent bites before June but my surgery messed up my availability Writing tailored resumes for local business now because corps are so fucked hard to get hired lol Hoping for better chances

Egh, feeling like I need a breather

My roommate endangered me in public yesterday & my feelings are tense I try to not be around them, any moment of interaction causes deep consequences They are trying to stir up trouble, and act like a chaos agent I don’t know how to stay safe in their midst I have been seeking rehousing :(

Joy is the ceaseless gift of life. nourish and foster joy, it is your bonfire that can light another Elders who feel & seem young, spry, know the values to joy. It is priceless. As much work as life requires, the same amount of play, & rest, is due. it is pivotal to taking care & defeating odds

I want to badly to secure a good job to support myself and my friends. I want to help people with my success. I want to share the good fortune beyond myself. I want to build things bigger than myself.

I have to say, this present moment has me missing Maine. not the circumstances I was under, but the community I was within I was able to meet local business owners thru candid moments, participate @ the local Co-op, finding my peace, taking my time hiking thru the Protected Public Land

hurt my back pretty bad, feeling blue from malaise certain kind of dreadful feeling knowing full well I can't afford to see a doctor right now, but also that this might impact my ability to find work

sitting here, afraid to leave the house, afraid to engage in plans, afraid to feel better, afraid to make a noise; afraid to leave, and come home to consequences exuded of an abusive narcissistic alcoholic attempting to exert control or duress over others I want to be free, I want to feel free

I don’t want to live in Arizona, I am from Maine, but I ended up displaced down here due to homelessness circumstances and my vulnerable health situation. I was offered sublet here while homeless in January by a stranger. I had no choice to entertain options as I had a necrotizing tooth

I'm completely broke, I've been unable to meet my needs since the month began. I'd like a little food, but medications come first $60 will get me my medication, and leave me with some grocery money, my anti-consultant medication is $40 after tax w/ current GoodRX coupon any assistance helps 💙

my roommate keeps using my personal toiletries, eating my food, etc. im at a line of frustration I'm broke, they're not. I'm unemployed, they're employed. I have no savings, they have THOUSANDS in savings. I have no one to reach for help. & they're digging a hole for me, @ their benefit 🙃

misconstrued with my depression posts. my current environment has become increasingly unsafe & I no longer feel physically safe I am afraid for my life in a situation I want to be out of; as much as I have tried, and given a large grain of salt to the idea it's C-PTSD. it is beyond evident, real

Been feeling a little flat, considerably depressed this week Feels like I need a friend and a hug Still working my best at landing a job, I feel In part my environment has seen me struggle here the most. I yearn for a peaceful day soon

Hanging in

Still scratching my head at the long term Unless I make it myself or build a support network, I don’t know what will happen, and I don’t know if I will be okay This AZ move was supposed to bring safety; but I only found myself jeprodized and preyed on. Since, I’ve solely focused on is rebuilding

Love how there is a hierarchy on disability I have spinal stenosis, my doctor said my spine looks like your average 80yr old spine. I am fighting to maintain walking abilities But being young, with an expectancy at 35 years, I’ve got 9 left to claw at, I guess I’m better off than elderly?

The worst part about aging is realizing how hot you used to be back when you thought you were ugly

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mowed lawn, did 50 applications, refined resume for bakeries, broadened search w/ food handler safety cert, looking @ my bank going AHHH i can't fucking stand this. I can do it all every single day but I cannot bring money home lol

there is something demeaning, of applying out to hundreds of places each week since July began, without bias, any and all, across as many web platforms as possible. to the avail of several One way Video Interviews, that take further weeks to respond with a unfortunate denial, and countless denial

I want for a time with friends, not feeling like I will fall out of life, for having pursued that joy & quality to life. It’s been a while. I desire to persevere this tough hand I’ve been dealt, but I wish it wasn’t such a lonely road to get there 😢