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downward spiral

Anxiety... I can't sleep

ive figured some stuff out but i hurt rose by mistake

.... what the fuck is hapening

2/3 =?=> 1/3 =?=> 0/3

Held together by 3 strings One is a thread nearly breaking Another is a string linked to the thread Last one is being untied for awhile

The first time I looked to the future with hope was with her Now I don't even want to think about now

music.youtube.com/watch?v=IhDN... Again and again

I should not be trying to help my friends The littlest things are making me unstable currently

i feel like literal ass rn even though i might of gotten good news for some reason it feels like it will not actually happen and then Ill of gotten my hopes up like crazy and then... no i shouldnt get my hopes up... but i did anyway

sudden bout of horrible sadness

im fine with it i am tho going to keep that 3rd spot open for awhile

there is one that i dont think she should pick i wont say, but i have my reasons

putting this here (this is for rose if she sees it) I dont care if we get back together, i just want you around because you showed me what a true friend is, and I dont know if i would even exist today without you

irl friend group is falling apart one of my best friends wants to dissapear it feels like soon ill have no friends again

I want to cry But I don't want to wake up my parents

(💛💔)💙

I should just go back to how I treated the Internet in the past Watch what happens but rarely interact

please dont be what it feels like...

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Fear

Stabilized them enough I hope

none of this would of happened if I wasn't stupid and actually drank enough water

@flare.protogen.club You, solely, are responsible for this

I realy hope she comes back

should of stuck to the plan for that option

i have not felt this in years for how i made her feel i deserve pain not bloodshed just pain

that was def a mental break @janeventfollower.bsky.social @npc2cuzno.bsky.social im sorry I hurt you 2

im horible i made her feel bad i should just be left im not worth it

yet again, 3 options, 3 possible choices, all 3 will have bad outcomes

I dont know whats going on im scared that talking about it will split us apart

I don't know what to feel I was happy for her And before she got with them I was fine with it But now it makes me slightly uncomfortable Its probably just anxiety But still

it feels like im gonna get replaced

I'm 99% sure that I have anxiety

I did something wrong.... didn't I

what the fuck is going on with my brain the past few days

I just want to grab it and rip it off

I feel like if I ever don't interact for only a few days, I feel that I'll just need to rebuild, from the ground up. Every. Sing. Friendship. And that I'll just be forgotten

Im just a worrying worthless thing aren't I

So dysphoric rn

Sometimes I feel like I'm obsessed with them Like I'm taking it too far I tell them that it's their choice, but it feels like I make it for them I try to never be obsessed or manipulative, but I wonder if I am and they just won't say

He needs to take responsibility for his actions He can't keep deflecting

I need help Major AF panic attack