@jroldwk.bsky.social hugs you

sleeping mental status before sleeping: cold and frozen like ice

i cant let him know

everything's going a little TOO well...

the stuff im into can be scary if taken into another context

loved me for like 3 days and then immediately lost interest i guess hurts just a little but its fine

it's happening againnnn STOP!!! STOP IT!!!!

told you 👀

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its all in my head

Everything is Okay

It'sall in my HJead

Immaking everyoineWorry overNothing im Fine

Ebveruthign will be Fine

Eevrytjgint is Sunshiena nd rainbwos Imkfimne im fine

Calm down

nobody's fault

imASlomost a yearclean Dontmak e me do this

the temptation is ldouer than rthe trest of my rhtoughts

shaKIng

Everythign was goIng fine until i SHworedup

mind clouded with degrading thoughts it hurts i know whats gonna happen it's gonna be too much and im gonna end up deactivating again and then everyone's gonna suddenly worry and then something bad will happen and then and then

@colakitty.bsky.social peep OS

i feel like i just cried (either though i didnt)

regained control over myself maybe next time i shouldnt snoop as usual

heart racing

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i know too much

sorry

it hurts seeing him get ignored by like, the 1 person that was there for him at his lois

how do i tell him without sounding biased

have a suspicion that someone's an undercover account of an ex-friend i can't be sure though

FUCK OFF

what is my purpose

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going 2 sleep current mental status: atomized (masking)

will he even be there by the time im 18, or even 17

what is this feeling

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questioning everything

why did i think that

there's nothing left in my heart but hatred for you

i dont think this is going to be the last time and i dont think ill be any help

feels like the end of the world