Probably a thought I should keep to myself, but I find myself genuinely envying those who have died. Especially those who died before 2020

I am woefully disabled dude I started a new job and I’m having to sleep 16 hours to even remotely recover from a part time shift

I’ll start doing commissions soon. Probably just one or two to start, to see if it’s something I’m comfortable and confident enough to do

Old doodle

(Regarding Chirin as his own character and not me) Chirin has a staring problem. He will unyielding gaze at you with his beady eyes. Wide-eyed yet blank expression. Who knows why.

babawdjfkdoan dllajehfhfkdiwowifjaja :)

I’ll make the pivot to more horror centric art eventually

the lonely Knight Alcine

It’s erroneous to put your faith in anyone

Anyone in the market for an unemployed, disabled, broke bf? I mean, what’s not to like!

All I can hope for is that I impact people positively. That’s all I want to do.

What if I don’t recover from this surgery and I’m just like this forever. Stay tuned for this and other rational and anxious thoughts

Helloe

The rose is a little screechy on my skin, but the scent is so unique and moody (in my sort of way) that it makes up for it I feel. Just not something I’m gonna spray all willy nilly lol. May layer with Iso-E-Super or Ambroxan

the lonely Knight Alcine

7, I have been told by a good handful of people that I’m intimidating. I don’t know why :(

Erm, im thinkin dinner is frickin served!

The act of getting up from my bed to go and use the restroom today was enough to make my heart race so fast that I got dizzy and collapsed on the floor. I hate my body!!!!!!!

Gonna name my son Steak Sammich

Helloe!

Baby’s second thermal grease application (this time for my decade old ps4)

Baby’s first thermal grease application

It makes me feel ill just looking in its general direction!

It makes me feel ill just looking in its general direction!

Spent it fully bedridden. Woke up now I’m vomiting :(

Birthday

Gonna name my son Rat Bastard

Didn’t touch it for a month but I’m back at it. Can’t promise anything but I’m feeling more motivated to draw finally, should hopefully finish this one . Anyways, WiP pt. 2

Reacts very nicely with my skin chemistry, very lovely.

Do I give off a cold demeanor? I’ve been told I have. It’s not intentional, if so! I’ve gotten the “I didn’t expect you to be so nice” thing a couple of times. While it is a relief that the misconception is gone, it’s also a bit saddening to hear

Coven

I drew this yesterday but it is only a quick doodle. Real drawing soon

My 5 faves from each gen

Kitty Bobo and Maggie from the kitty bobo show pilot

Scent evoking memories is a very real thing! Smelled a Greek dessert of some kind that my brother was eating, and it took me back to an antique store that was basically our second home as kids. Hadn’t thought of the place in forever

Feel like my sona should have doll joints, an autopsy scar, and maybe some metal tooth crowns. I worry it would overcomplicate the design though. Suppose they’re non mandatory features, that’s a good enough compromise

This doodle maybe took 3 minutes

Metal I like. Just some

I feel like I don’t have a lot of time left. The sun is setting. I’ll be dead soon I think.

WiP. I don’t really post works in progress ever, but I figured I should actually prove that I’m working on something finally.

The physical toll I will take for going out and exploring this place is no longer a concern of mine. I don’t do anything ever and never will, so the subsequent flare-up isn’t getting in the way of anything. Anyways, floors too rotted to enter sadly. This place belongs to spiders

I want out.

Found this fellow

I wonder if it was self fulfilling prophecy that my body would become dead, since I’m so helplessly drawn to decay