I’m tired but I can’t be upset for more than 30 minutes before it becomes about other people.

Sometimes you remind me of people I thought I forgot about.

My whole hand is throbbing lmfao punching walls is so cringe, I’ll stick to my thigh and arms thanks

I can hear you aggressively moving stuff around. My chest hurts. I’m back in her basement, with that familiar realization that I’m about to get hit.

Oh my God shut the fuck up

No it’s not.

No you don’t.

I’m going to throw up why am I so upset by this.

This makes no sense wtf

Fuck I can’t tell if this makes sense but I just started writing what it was so I hope it’s coherent if not I’ll read it in the morning I will remember hopefully what I was saying if I didn’t say it already

Can someone come get me

I feel sick. I cannot tell anyone these thoughts.

Vent asset bc of if I have to see shit then so does my Fursona

Just fucked myself until I felt gross to cope with cutting myself but now I just want to cut myself more

I wasn’t trying to lie

I wasn’t lying I swear

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Everything hurts

I’m not here

I won’t. But I can’t promise I won’t. I can try

Get off of me

I believe in her.

I want to turn around but I’m already down the Road from my house

I guess that’s why you’re free and I’m not

So do i

He liked being free

They look free

I like how they fly

Walk at 3:17 am core! He won’t remember this in the morning but it’s a nice night, I know who would’ve loved the amount of firefly’s address out tonight

We need to fucking go.

I should go on a walk but if I don’t bring something I’ll be killed,

I want to sleep but I feel so full of energy that I can’t sit still I’m so cold but so awake I need go move out of the house

I feel like I’ve never been more clear in my life. I cannot sleep

I think I have something in my chest and I really don’t knots how to get it out my nails are clean but I don’t knit if that means anything I should find a way to so that it will stop

I feel gross.

I’ve been binging these few days and I think it’s cause I started my fucking period after 4 years of not having one but still

Look really fucking closely I think it’s watching me. The ring. I don’t think he knows he bought one with something in it like in its eye it maybe both I don’t know I just know it’s fucking watching me and recording me maybe he does know and it’s him though

I know every creek that’s in the floor, mother fucker I am paranoid.

I’m worried because I’m not fucking worried. I’m not scared of relapsing. I’m not scared of any consequences. And that’s probably the scariest thing about this right now and even then I’m only scared because I know I should be not because I am

I binged last night and honestly the past week I need to get back on track

I wish I was kidding I think people are trying to poison me, everything I eat has made me sick but I only eat food from people I thought were safe but I’m starting to doubt it. Why did my mom get mad at me for trying to fill my own cup? She’s drugging me that’s why she mixed it before hanging ittome

Never has a smile dropped from my face so fast

Like actually wish he would’ve went through with killing himself

Fursonas (warm colored one isn’t mine)

I wish I wasnt so sensitive

I have that impending sense of doom rn, but not on a personal level, its not like smthn is gonna go wrong for me, it feels bigger I think

Shit he’s mad at me fuck

Recent bc (I just ate btw 🫡🔫)

I’m looking at these and honestly I can’t tell if I’ve lost weight or not (Left is a week or two ago, right is months ago)