She can't lift the markers all the way out of the box, so at least they're safe.. unlike the colored pencils which get yeeted all over the place.

Reflecting and introspecting.. while it's understood things take a while to level out, I've got an impatience to return to some semblance of 'normal' that it feels like it'll never exist again.. and the mental circles continue, and the more unhinged I become, and, and, and.. I hate this.

The squash seeds i planted a while ago started growing -- wasn't 100% if it was them or something else that had been deposited in the soil, but the beginnings of a flower emerged over the last few days, so that's exciting.

The woes of taking interest in a show that is on a different or upgraded streaming platform. Mom's been rewatching The Sopranos. It certainly has some moments, despite me being a wee bit lost since she's on season 3.

Blue keeping an eye on what hawk was up to.

Little warbler (is that redundant?) leaps into action. Bird legs are an elusive thing, but when they're out there, they're long.

Come to the feeder so I can get better pics of yoooouuu. ..and after typing that, he came to the feeder, but the lighting wasn't ideal.

Forgot what it's like living with cats. They were little monsters last night. The hinges on the door to the room need some oil, it squeaks really loudly. Figure I'll just put something behind it so the cats can come in.. after an hour of 5 cats running in and out, I just shut it.

Would seem I've won over the two elusive cats at mom's house that have consistently avoided me. Broke the ice with Pippin (yes, LOTR ref; my mom is super into the series), and Dorian (Gray) has come around. They're even following me into the bathroom like the others.

They're silently judging.

I fits, I sits. #cats

Love my mom and all, but goddamn I hate the cigarettes.

Thank goodness. After thinking it was turning into a scam, the thing finally happened. And with swift timing, I get snark from a different source that has taken the wind out of my sails -- despite T&C/S&H being outlined in my listings and ebay's slow-ass payouts.

Sometimes marketplace works out well, other times I end up wasting 3 hours of my day being at a location only to get a "can we do it tomorrow?" just as I'm already reaching wits end. Have been wondering if I've been getting strung along, but no, the dumb optimist in me said "it'll work out!"

Starting to lose confidence in this sale I've been working on all week. Nearing the later half of the estimated time frame. They've been p good about updates along the way, but it's gone quiet for several hours. Need this to go through so I can pay the electric..

Oh, the stuff I want to scream into the void right now..

Second time I've seen an eagle on the same tower. Been seeing a lot of 'em this year, which I'll take as a good sign.

It's... a day. Following in the footsteps of all the other false starts, this one certainly hasn't disappointed in that regard. Fingers crossed this deal doesn't fall through..

Sigh.

Well, dropped my plastic beverage bottle in such a way that all its weight was focused into a singular point (i cant think of what word I'm looking for.. edge of the bottom part) directly onto my toe It was so jolting that I could not move. every nerve in my body feels like a cramping forest fire.

Grumble, grumble, I'm not feeling social enough to sit through a meeting but gotta do it anyway. Distracted with my stomach being upset and the ongoing manic list of things needing to be done by Friday, time frames of which keep getting shuffled around due to life being life.

One of the rare mornings when breakfast sounds appealing. I could destroy a couple of sausage biscuits. But I've gotta settle for whatever lurks around here. Le sigh.

Deadlines sometimes inspire the determination to complete tasks, but the afternoon spent digging through boxes trying to analyze the psychology of what may possibly sell at a yard sale catered to old people and what prices would move things quickly was.. very draining. home is in chaos and i'm.. bah

Dinnertime with the dove family. It never ceases to amaze me just how quickly the babies grow up. It was merely a pile of sticks posing as a nest last month, now is squeaky flappy chaos. 🪶

Moo. We had to share our worksite for the day with the cattle. They rested in the shade from our travel van.

There are days where I miss being in BFE, Idaho.

The worst time to have the revelation of what you want in your wardrobe is when there is no expendable income. Hm.. welllll.. I take it back. It's time to actually sit down and sketch out those ideas and figure out what happened to the sewing machine.

I suppose since it's #indieanimationday I can post the completed version of this "speed run"

some rainbows for your workweek

Haha.. oh good, I woke up in one of "those moods" where the internal voice became the external voice and it's been a very unhinged morning. Finally managed to word-vomit half of the stuff that has been mentally crushing me, and the not-so-swift recovery has been difficult to navigate.

Well... here we go Maybe moment of truth Probably remain in agonizing suspense.

oh, the fading hope of my favorite flavor of dish soap returning to shelves at some point in the near future. things are sometimes a little better when you like how they smell.

Pet portrait commission for @phengarornis.bsky.social of Rhea and Ms. Furkins from December that I forgot to post #fitotelmatart Unshaded ver.

are Magic 8 Balls are the original D20?

Struggling to draw humanoid characters, so I do this instead. It keeps my brain busy amd distracted enough to find a moment of peace.

HOLY CRAP PEREGRINES IN *MY* CITY?? First time encountering wild peregrine falcons, let alone expecting to see them downtown. They are potentially scouting out nesting areas in the recessed portion of the building?? I hope so. It's in an area I frequent. Sorry, blurry pics. Sun was also blinding 😖

If you want your employees to show up early for a shift, make sure you pay them for their time. If you want your employees to care about working for you, treat them with dignity. If you don't want to pay people to run your business, then run it your damn self.

RIP my colored pencil box Bird decided she wanted to preen *there* instead of on her hallway perch. The box is full of fluff and a couple of bird dookies.. trying to work up the ambition to deal with it.

Old attempt at a panoramic pic with one of the earlier versions of the Samsung Galaxy. The birds in flight is pretty cool, but the -[ l o n g c a r ]- had me dying after reviewing.

The apartment has these old aluminum frame screens that love to bend over time and fall out. I don't ever open the front windows because I've got it barricaded for privacy and to block out the sun. Apparently lizards crawl between then when they warp .. and die. Unearthed a graveyard just now >_>

This week, following in the footsteps as the others, has been mostly trash. Where's the self-reset button because I'm in massive need of a RAM dump.

Laid down to try and sleep only for my typically trustworthy blanket to feel as though it is full of fire ants biting my leg Wtf.

Awkward blue jay stretch-preen (captured through the blur of the window screen). 🪶

This current era of advertising definitely hates those of us with misophonia.

Went out one night when the fog was so dense. Traffic was minimal, visibility mostly non-existent. Drove to a turnout just before the Courtney Campbell bridge to admire the seascape before the return home. A heron standing on concrete forms was soon startled by dolphins playing in the water.

Ooh. It's low draw distances outside this morning.

...when I read a post from a friend who -as far as I know- has never been a dog owner, doesn't have a yard, is fairly stationary, says they want to get an Aussie because their friend got a puppy and "it's cute." Just. Don't.

Having learned the very basics of surfing in very mid chop from incoming tropical storms off the gulf, it never ceases to blow my mind watching people cruise along the curl of massive waves.

💔 Saw a horrible video of a bird mill (think puppy mill), stayed up late and just criiiied. I could share the footage and let shock do the talking, or you could just trust me on this and choose/share the message of adoption only. 🪶 Bird rescues are overwhelmed. No demand, means no bird mills.

I need a crazy adventure away from everything, or something .. definitely something. Been staring at the same handful of issues for so long that I've lost perspective on any of it, and in that same vein, *not* being able to put any distance between it isn't helping.