ooo wowww my body moves on its own without me telling it tooooo im soooo fucking quirrrkkyyy oooohhh myyy goddddddd I'M GOING TO FUCKING HANG MYSELFFF

things are finally catching up to me and i don't think i can take all of it at once i don't know who to talk to, i hardly know how to handle myself as is every option i turn to is bad. talking to family will always end with it being worse, and i doubt my friends would understand sorry

best (possible) relationship in UNBEATABLE yeahh uhh me and crest this concludes my ted talk bye

ALSO (adding onto this because this is honest to god one of the best games i've ever played and i cant stop talking about it) the character designs were SO GOOD??? same with, like, every song?? and they were charted PERFECTLY?? (i wont stop praising this game for like a month or two its so good)

i never sent my rating for unbeatable but off of my current profile i think you can guess how i liked the game it made me cry, 11/10 new favourite game also the dev team was really fast with fixing some of the bugs i encountered during my playthrough (especially the stuck in school 1) (my fault)

im so fucking pathetic goodnight

i give it about two to four months before everybody i like realises im a low-life piece of shit who just craves human interaxrion and affection and leavew me permanently

this game awards sucks ASS i dont like expedition suck my ass or whatever the fuck its called

scratch last post im going back to being a recluse and talking to like four people max god i hate eberything

i need more games to release or for Airsoft season to start early i have like two maybe three things to do and i am genuinely tweaking

doing this tomorrow maybe im far too aleepy

4 am calls for the end of evangelion rewatch

routine did NOT live up to the hype !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! turned into eldritch horror the first chance it had.. smh my head if i wanted eldritch i'd just have played signalis

the lack of i am your beast fanart is criminal

sentenced to the shoppers drugmart of careless payment

Happy Partially Muscled Skeleton Day to all who celebrate. Be sure to let all your screams out and then disappear.

"you're the most masculine gay person"

something is off... i feel wrong

suffering from success i'm not allowed to use my skills

i wonder if anybody would actually care if i was gone i feel like the number of people thanking whatever God they believe in would always outnumber the amount that actually liked me for who i am, if there even are people who do that

mf tried to lecture ME about halo lore i am UPSET.. everything they said was WRONG........

fuck 343 fuck 'halo studios' fuck halo 4 fuck halo 5 fuck halo infinite fuck the master chief collection (but not as much)

family finds out im trans and acknowledges it one fucking time to complain about the fact that they won't have grand children im getting real sick of this kind of shit. plus the constant hate (which feels targeted) is starting to get to me

i finished Eclipsium the other day and i must admit, the game was up there quality wise with some of my favourite stories. everything about it, although confusing, was absolutely beautiful. i'd say it was up there with Signalis for me.

im going to sleep before i do something stupid

okay i give up im just going to start brutalizing things around me until i get my way :(

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stim maxxing rn

I am absolutely craving some waffles rn.. like the ones from like sunset grill

i hate having a lack of restraint.. like why do i always act on anger without thinking? how do i fix this?

it's come to my attention that i don't really know how to respond, identify or reciprocate affection/love whatsoever. i just thought that love was a super minor thing. turns out i never really actually loved any of my exes. thank u husband for opening my eyes to true love <3

i don't think those are the lyrics to Orion..

thank u father for calling me affectionate nicknames like queef

that was the word truck I've ever seen where are the body mounts? how do you lose ALL of them?

# relapsed

satisfactory at night.. how calming

calm yourself hoss

silence yourself pal

i raise you one

god forbid i care for my friends wellbeings

ok i broke my own rule ill stop being dumb and talking about politics or whatever u can yell at me 4 doing it if u want i encourage it

yeah it's all biased right catholic views i am fuming

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? trying to get away from the whole Charlie Kirk bullshit and now im stuck w/ it in religion w/ a really biased group of idiots....

probably gonna start purging who i follow if all they do is complain im full of whimsy and don't wanna deal w/ a bunch of negativity

made it work and cooked anyway

wrote a line so hard they responded with the suicide help hotline

everything blows everybody probably hates me i feel sick constantly im stressed out i don't know what to do anymore im bad at the one thing i was good at im overworked im sore i have nobody to really talk to about this stuff im too much of a pussy to go through w/ sh or suicide im pathetic