girl who is at work for twelve hours today, hour three

it was 64 degrees in the piano studio i teach out of today i would like a space heater and financial compensation

one week till I'm driving up home to CT let's gooooo

tacitly missing male emotional response when I know that the correct reaction to the way my brother in law treats my wife is to beat the shit out of him but instead only crying over our collective failed relationship. I really hope he enjoys the new harry potter tho that seems important.

never meet your discourse heroes. they will always end up being bpd teenagers with an amphetamine problem.

never underestimate the sheer power of completely checking out of your life in a state of crisis. you can burn your whole world down simply by doing nothing. it's a real superpower if you think about it.

girl who gets to go back on her wellbutrin

"why are people treating me as [gender]" I ask while presenting as [gender]

hey don't forget to tell your wife you love her, she's the reason you're still here

engaged in boy mode today

Sex is great but have you ever gone 60 on the BQE

the flowers at the reservoir look like this if u care

sometimes you have a really long day that feels really bad but when it's over you realise everything is okay and you're better off having made it through

easily the greatest misericord of being a low-paid office bitch is having the freedom to offer up a coffee run for the office so that you can just fuck off for half an hour to swing by your favourite cafe

sang my first major concert in a year last night, did not die, had cute concert black fit

2 tornado warnings, an 80 degree day, and a snow day all in one week is actually crazy work

put my coffee on the roof of my car while loading groceries, drove away with the coffee still on the roof, remembered only after going over a speed bump, pulled over and my coffee was still upright. and now the correct temperature.

i bought this dress three years ago and never ever thought i’d fit into it and now it is my new favourite thing

when i turned 16 i wanted to go to a bowling alley for my birthday but i had no friends when i turned 26 i was too busy drinking to have friends or the desire to go to a bowling alley now i’m turning 36 and i am definitely going to a bowling alley with the girls i’m so happy i figured life out <3

honestly even if at the end of all this it kills me it’s worth it to be able to look at anything that would’ve buckled me six months ago and say “i’m too hot for this”

a bean and cheese burrito could fix this

me thinking about how i like my job and how it has skills that translate to other jobs then realising that i could do this job in new york

boomer age supervisor at my office job now responds to me finishing tasks and handing off materials with “thank you, ma’am” with no hesitation now. life is good.

low key getting an office job kind of saved my marriage. like it wasn’t broken but wasn’t quite working for us for awhile? there’s something so simple and perfect about working 8 hours apart then meeting up to pick groceries for dinner to go home and cook and talk about the day.

i’ve decided i don’t have strong opinions anymore

what if it’s nothing and the thing that’s been making you think you’re crazy is just like trauma or whatever

doomed always to start church jobs at parishes with questionable hvac in the winter

i guess i’m giving off militant lesbian vibes bc tell me why this cis woman just shot her shot on feeld with a first message explaining that the man listed in her partners wasn’t that serious

>log onto grindr >scroll >cluster sighting >delete

feeling of impending doom very normal occurrence

hello my friends i come to you with a very special offer !!! i am offering DISCOUNTED LESSON PACKS for new students for january !! $250 will get you four lessons, which is almost an entire lesson for free !! move quickly though, i only have FOUR of these packs available !! DM for details !

girl who sat in her cold car for ten minutes to defrost bc she forgot to buy an ice scraper

girl who overcame her fear of logging into her bank to deposit checks that are so old they had to be reissued because they were summer income girl who did a budget and figured out paying off her cards by spring girl who can do things

shooting blankets

oh no an institution hired me to play harpsichord; i am exchanging my joy of playing harpsichord for money—a transaction which will deplete my joy thereof and render the skill to be yet another job i hate doing because of capitalism.

music (the creative exploration of sound and all of its beautiful possibilities) vs Music (the process of codifying and reproducing the ideas)

i told one of my students i needed him to take initiative in finding rep to learn for lessons and asked him to go to the library and find a song book bro came back with a book of folk songs from lotr written by a guy who knew and consulted with tolkien.

girl who did her shot early for once

i wonder how many regular madewell girlies bought this necklace not knowing it’s flagging jewelry like the overlap of lesbians and madewell customers is literally just femmes: we are a community minority

girl who is a baby organist

slowly losing my mind as i engage in cutting anything out of my life that makes me feel bad except for the things that make me feel bad i will give it another two weeks or so before no one is left in my life

i love working eight hours at the office then coming home to cry and pour myself a gin tonic

rainy winter day calls for fuckass coat i think i think my office is like 50* rn someone remind me to buy thermal tights.

it’s all fun and games when you’re developing a taste for french mustards and adorable little cornichones, but eventually you start to lose control and buy french ham, and french butter, and before you know it you’re beheading the ruling class in this essay i will eat a jambon-beurre

girl who managed to gain five pounds during vacation week (please clap)

i’m home which means i should be dealing with all of the loose ends i have left till after the holiday to tie up but i will not be doing that, instead i will be ruminating.

no i didn’t give you the wrong vibe, my personality actually is this atrocious

i may be a lot of things but i’ve never written a substack article about being trans so i’ve really got that going for me.

if i ever come to this impasse again may i have the memory to remind myself that there is always too much grief in the room

collecting mirror selfies in all of the mirrors of this house bc it’s The Law