We stayed for another Brighton starling murmuration this evening - weather was much nicer. I could watch them for hours.

Brighton Gulls.

Brighton murmuration 🩵

I’m not one to buy wrapping paper. I use old magazines 🎁 Hope our friends don’t mind the choices 😜 I do adore stickers - each one is quite appropriate to each person 💝

Oh… my… days 🐦 youtu.be/W68-XaFepOg

Beautiful day in the park 🐦🌤️🪾

I was literally followed home… 👣🐦🤪 This could be trouble 🫠

Can’t even make it up to the lake to feed them without getting recognised 🐦🤪💜

Ya… I’m angry.

Not finished.

My friend Claire, was diagnosed with cancer on same day as Matt. Her cancer was far more aggressive. Died 7mth later. Claire & Emma, kept us all in the know. Even when they pushed their wedding ahead, I thought Claire would live. I know better now & am making arrangements to help current friend.

I was having a private moment, when I heard a clatter above my head. Toilet perverts 🐦🚽🐦

I heard a flutter at our window, and our little Splash is here. It’s worrying, as it’s late & very dark. She looks alright. It’s odd for any pigeon to be here this late in the evening. She’s eating… maybe had a Crimbo Party and needs snacks. (Please excuse the state of our windows).

We have suspected Matt might be AuDHD for some time. I just popped into second bedroom for something and noticed this… We bought this big box two months ago so he can store his woolly jumpers, safe from clothes moths. And yes… those are some of his maps. I think this is fairly conclusive 😅

It’s so stupid. I’ve already had a friend who passed from an aggressive cancer. I honestly, believed they would live. They did not. Breathe…

Annoyingly, I can’t find my chemo cookbook. These are for my friend’s partner.

Our friend might have only 12 months to live. FUCK CANCER He is only 40 years old. No symptoms until stage 4.

🚨 Trigger warning A trifecta of events occurred today, that has made Matt’s trip tomorrow be stressful. If this happened with my previous partner, things would have been… explosive. Matt was upset, I did my best to come up with solutions - mostly all sorted. No drama. Trauma stays however 😓

This is what I’m missing by going into office 😅

When everyone is doing their Spotify “round-up”… this is mine.

3 feet of festive joy 🎄

I bought this tiger patch ages ago, knowing I’d need it to cover an ink or paint stain (likely on this, my favourite jumper) - that moment has arrived. It’s proving quite challenging for a non-sewer to do so by hand, but it will be worth it 🐯 To be completed once I get more black thread 🪡

Random interaction: As Matt and I were walking in park, a woman stopped me & said, “I want to cut off your braids and stick them to my hair.” Not gonna lie, I was taken aback, then she continued to say she wouldn’t, but simply liked my hair 😅 We giggled. She was giving Margaret Atwood vibes 🍁

TICKETS BOOKED 🎭 #BridgeHouseTheatre #Penge #SouthLondon

I love this photo… I may be over the top in trying to paint it in future. Nature is simply too perfect, to be able to capture in human capacity 💚

There’s something about crisp sunny autumnal days 🐦🕊️🌅

Beautiful chaos 🐦🕊️🤪 Pigeons were well hyper and hungry today. They made friends with two woman who were passing - they giggled and took photos as they too were swarmed 😅

My way of dealing with a partner’s cancer 💙🖤❤️‍🔥

I painted a bird.

My baby boy crossed the rainbow bridge, this day last year 🐹🥲🌈 I love Pigeon, for ALL time 🖤❤️‍🔥💖

Naughty and I going walkies in park 🐦👣🍂

Pirate is a relatively new fwend. Whether it’s from birth or an injury, she seems to be blind(?) in her one eye. If I create a cone shape with my hand as opposed to palm feeding, she finds in immensely easier to eat peanuts.

Met a new crow today 🖤 They were very friendly & tried to get through flock of pigeons to gain my attention, so they too could get some treats. It was only when crow flew up to railing, that I saw they had a leg issue - broken or birth defect(?) I managed give them peanuts. (No photo of crow… yet)

Pigeons were RAVENOUS. Temperature has dropped, but sun was shining.

Found these gems from 2023(?) amongst our vinyl collection.

This is Bridgerton - offspring of Gates and Betty-Boo. He came to our window months ago with his parents, and has since been incredibly tame with us. Often he will take a few peanuts from hand, then simply hang out. If we let him, I’m sure he would make himself entirely at home in our flat.

This is reminiscent of Matt’s chemotherapy meal preps - 2020-2021. It’s just bad flu - surely. F*ck cancer. At least I have some practice 🙃

I had made vegan bolognese with lentils… might have to freeze half of it.

Matt has taken a down turn after being ill for over a week now. More fevers, and now no appetite. Made him some packet Lipton Chicken Noodle soup, I brought back from Canada (a non-vegetarian emergency). Sorry. It has been a lifesaver in the past 🤞

For over a week now, I’ve replaced my morning coffee (with oat milk), for a simple green tea. It wasn’t really a conscious decision, but had read some bits on socials about cortisol, and how coffee can increase one’s body’s stress hormone. Seriously… I have noticed an almost immediate difference 💚

PIGEONS!

The cancer may be coming back…

Painting my friends… pigeons. Indian ink Bamboo dip pen Acrylic paint 1/2” brush

My Queen 👑📖❤️‍🔥 New book arrived. I’ve flipped though… it looks and smells AMAZING 🤓 #MargaretAtwood #Author #ABookOfLives #AMemoirOfSorts

Stay safe our animal and human friends 🎆🫨🎇 #RememberRememberFifthOfNovember

Bonfire night is here! Sending love to those sheltering with animal companions @wascherclaudia.bsky.social and I have new research out about the impacts fireworks have on urban corvids: ecoevorxiv.org/repository/v... And as video: youtu.be/dCfHEqJfx2A #BonfireNight #birds #crows #urbanwildlife

Please sign 🐦🐿️🐀 Matt & I witnessed two lads shoot a pigeon with a catapult in CP Park, after gaining their trust with food. Matt gave chase, but they were too quick. Pigeon sadly passed away 💔 petition.parliament.uk/petitions/74...

Repping hard today ⚾️💙❤️ As I was walking in park, an LA Dodgers fan and I tipped our hats upon passing one another. #WorldSeries #Baseball #GameSix #TorontoBlueJays #LetsGoBlueJays

I’m so angry, upset, depressed, and tired - yet wanting to simply escape. Is this peri-menopause?’!? I want to have some time just for myself.