Ig to open up things I dread going into 2026: -My cousin whom I grew up with since I was 2. My first friend is due to die next year. -I'm unsure of this but I suspect my parents are going to disown me when they find out I'm transitioning against their wishes. -The increasing chokehold of fascism.

I think I've just been relapsing into some old bad headspaces. I hope someday I can put them behind me.

Just been totally paralyzed for the last 40 odd minutes. I don't know how to snap out of it.

I should've disclaimered this but I really advise against anyone who's in a dark place themselves mentally not to read a lot of my posts. I worry that my weight might drag some of you with me and I couldn't bare that guilt too.

It just dawned on me that 2025 is almost over.

ancient magma drawpile doodles

Pokeboobs Day 13

Gonna be a lil self centred and say I like seeing smaller boob rep. It's actually somewhat validating now.

this fact is the definitive judgment on kirk's life

Im gonna own it and say that on reflection I was jumping the gun and somewhat misunderstanding the situation. It did still feel bad but after talking with the ppl involved I shifted how I read the situation.

Not my health watch informing me that my heart is bugging out. Yeah ik I can feel it it's called the existencial dread I felt listening to a video about dynamic pricing.

Sam Altman: hey I made a machine that stole literally all your stuff in order to make CSAM of your child actors, sometimes it encourages people to kill themselves Disney: Holy shit here's a billion dollars Altman: the machine loses more than that each week but thank you. Soon it will become god.

I think it's cool how immense amounts of money - capital generated by real people doing real work that actually drives society - is getting thrown into a black hole in the form of AI data centres just shredding already strained resources to... Idk give people mental illness.

I'm kinda operating on a "I might be one of the last generations of humans" kinda plan for life.

Think the reason a lotta ppl still find elon smart is because he acts like a large percentage of guys lol.

The best fix to this is people not dating men like this or being their friends. Idk make them be the face of lonely losers that eventually die at 32 alone.

Distress Call ( she just doesn't like the work uniform ) #corrosart #furry #aeromorph #furryart

sorry I often kill the vibe by venting about racism within communities I'm in or adjacent too but honestly, I prefer to weed out the people too uncomfortable to look into why they would not want to hear the truth than silence myself.

you know what, northernlion is the only white guy that's allowed to speak regurgitated aave he hears through memes because it's funny and because I say so

I think every time a guy excuses their horrid/abusive behaviour as being a product of ignorance they should be branded with a hot iron.

youtu.be/H_c6MWk7PQc Was watching this video by Hank and I feel like he's missing the forest for the trees. Like the issue in all this is - it doesn't really matter if the data centre resource use varys, it's like. Whats the benefit to society allowing this?

trade-up

Deadass how I sat at my desk all morning today lol.

oh big stretch

I had it pointed out to me by a friend that the way I drew these kinda reflects my own state of mind... Yeahh.

Was struck by a funny mood and made some followups #corrosart #roe #pokemon #furry #me

Im gonna be real I don't think socially things are ever getting better. Idk, for me even if there's a social shift where not being a racist, homophobic, etc sack of shit falls out of fashion I'll always remember that to most people there's no deeper belief or principles.

Eugh it just hit me that I don't think I have a best friend :x

I'm gonna be 100% every time a guy tells me its a real issue they proceed to demonstrate why I would never date them myself lol.

again, people in this fandom will HAPPILY attack other queer folk if there is even a rumor of a whisper of a suspicion of an association with something problematic, quit your twitter drama bullshit and learn to be a good judge of character for yourself

In light of the recent allegations resurfaced and levied against one of our own in the community, deadass shame on y'all for giving those accusations any room to breathe or discuss. We do not use KF, KF is a weapon of the enemy.

I delusionally chose to believe I'm a cutiepie now and thats why people who just meet me tend to be really nice towards me lately.

buh Im gonna treat myself to some pokemon art today..

they should do an independent review into how much care is missed because interacting with the nhs is like running full speed skull first into brick walls

Tbh kinda liked the mspaint draft I made for this.

I can't help but wonder if my friends would've kept being fine with me. If I'd just stayed locked in the room in my parents house without really changing or growing at all. At least I'd still be the person they used to like. But probably not tbh lol.

Omg and one of the people I know being relieved I made this alt to be mad on being happy because they can consume more of my art without the messy grit in the way. So cool. Oh but I better not express any irritation at the people I talk to daily they might bail on me at a moments notice.

Think I made the right choice blocking people ik cause I don't need them bringing up stuff where I'm being vulnerable to complain at me.

"It doesn't matter if its mine I don't want you to be uncomfortable"

I’ve sometimes fallen into the trap of thinking that complementing a creative person for their work is less sophisticated or desired than discussion or debate about it but very often the best thing you can say to them is hell yeah and that doesn’t make you dumb it just makes you nice

Think what's annoying me is that it feels like my mom was totally right. That people might pretend to be accepting but there's that undertone of disgust everpresent and the excuses to constantly not have to engage with that aspect of you. If I wasn't transitioning just for me I'd have detransitioned

A Dracozolt was the result of the DNA of two different pokemon fossils being merged, so Big Ditt did the most logical thing to make a Milf Dracozolt. Got a little kinkier with this one, but I wanted to change things up since I'm doing so many of these.

Tonight is really shaping into one of those nights where I really hate dealing with people. Just a circus of the stupid, annoying shit in sequence. Also gonna preempt this and say if you're reading this it's not about you assume I'm not stupid enough to vaguepost about you the reader of this acc.

ME PRE TRANSITION: lava is so cool THE LADS: hehe yeah bro ME POST TRANSITION: lava is so cool THE LADS: aha easy mistake to make but actually it's very hot