Fantastic episode! 😍

Time an illusion divided in patterns Each stich a collection of untold beauty Or those Things buried deep inside your afraid to show In fear of Losing What little You've got left #poetry

Today's foraging in my local park: Nettles, goutweed, garlic mustard (Jack-by-the-hedge) and currant leafs. Also picked some more dandelion and lilac buds for my spring wine brew. #witchsky #foraging #eatableplants

Finally watched Britney Spears movie Crossroads from 2002, and OMFG! You can tell me whatever, but I fckn loved it. Even moved me to tears a couple of times. As an afab who was seen as ugly and where severely bullied, I never identified with Britney as a teen, she looked like my bullies.

I know this might sound like a ritual taken from the "other side" I.e the JC-mythology, but washing your feet and then put some oil, moisturizer or other tincture on is really relaxing. Ecpecially if your like me, a restless witch who sometimes find it very hard to just lay up my feet and rest.

Cutest lil guy! 🥰

In desperate need of a proper haircut. Might treat myself to a visit at the barber next month. Or maybe I just pick up the kitchen scissors again.😅

My bedside table made of an old wood crate. #witchsky Though about small everyday things reading a post by @gnome-and-tonic.bsky.social My before bed ritual is placing the rose quartz on my neck, focusing on its cool, soothing feel. Then I hold the moon and let it soak up worries I've got.

Started up this years first natural wine batch. Found a perfect bottle for it when I went trough the old cottages many cupboards this weekend. Now its standing at my, at the moment, rather empty herbal shelf. Ginger, sugar, water, geraniums and violets. Will refill ever other day with more.

I've always been both romantic and rather cynical. I really like to belive in some kind of love, but sex is so much easier. But the thing with great sex is that you feel completely comfortable with that person. And when I feel that I tend to belive that Im in love. And that's a problem.

Was not chosen to be the bands next singer. I'm not that surprised really. But it still hurts every time I realize that I've never truly belonged to any group where people have actively choosen me. Well except for my job. And I guess my friends have chosen me...

The interior of the desk drawers at a small school&public library in Sweden. 😅

Fantastic song and performance ❤️

Im so tierd. It'll be good to get home. Gonna try to focus on here and now and wait to process all my feelings until later. Sometimes I wish I could just put everything I feel in to a jar and close the lid. Then take up each feeling and sort it according to a logical system.

On my way south again. Im so happy that this weekend went well and that I didn't have a total meltdown.

Tonight, my ex-father in law suggested we made a salute for me feeling happy about being there with them and at my house in their (my?) village again. Almost cried. I know Im quite challenging being around. Im so fckn thankfull he still like me even if im not together with his son anymore.

It was a challenging evening yesterday. But I handled it and when I arrived in The sisters clearing today, everything felt OK again.

Please think of me. In an hour I'll arrive and I feel both anxious, nervous and longing at the same time. Its such a strange situation. Every time I've gone before, my heart has felt lighter and happier each mile further north. This time, its the opposite. I don't know how I'll handle this.

Finally!!! 💋💜💋

Going up to my cottage this weekend for the first time since August. Haven't been there since the breakup. The cottage is in the same village as where my ex's father lives. I usually stay with his father when Im there, and Im gonna do that this time to. He, my x father in law, is great though.

Apparently, Im going to the Netherlands to spend a few days near Amsterdam this summer. It will be an adventure and that's just what I need. Not sure exactly where Im staying yet, but I plan to visit Amsterdam, Utrecht and Hilversum. And some witchy things are planned too! Really excited!

Around 10 yrs ago, selling Aloe Vera products for skincare became popular among a lot of women in Sweden. Its so interesting, and a wee bit tragic, that a lot of people payed a lot for these products. All you really need is an aloe vera plant. Harvest a leaf now and then, take care of it.

Made a new wand for myself yesterday. Found and collected a fallen branch of what I think is an Ash tree a couple of weeks ago. Just wanted a quite rough and natural wand, so I merely peeled of parts of the bark and saved the rest as an handle. #witchsky

Today's delicious dinner!

My whole life, Ive been told either that I analyze too much OR that I need to think before I do or say anything to avoid getting myself into trouble.... How the fck is that logical?

Did something cool but very scary tonight. I went to meet up with a local alternative queer rock band to do a test rehearsal and sing with them. I think it went ok, the ppl in the band where really nice and fun to hang out with. Felt quite relaxed but also very self aware. But it was really fun!

Sometimes, hearing somebody's voice is just as good as being embraced. 💜

I really miss being hold by somebody who likes me just the way I am.

Made these!💜🌿🪴

Beautiful May moon. Wishing my fellow #witchsky friends and everyone else a calm and peaceful Beltane. I want this spring and summer to be filled with good conversations, friendships and maybe, some kind of love.

On May 1st, I almost always join a march/rally. This year I stay home. Not because I don't care. I just don't have enough energy to spend time in a huge crowd in bright sunshine after a very intense week, both workwise and emotionally. Sometimes rest is the most revolutionary a worker can do.

The obligatory Valborg bonfire pictures. 😆

Today, 30th of April, its Valborg in Sweden. In my hometown Uppsala, its the most celebrated of festivities. Feels like Im the only one working today, but atleast im only working for a few hours in the afternoon. Tonight, me and my son are going to watch a bonfire, have a picknick and relax.

Thank you Fred, Anna and Joel. You mean the fckn world to me.

On my way in to Sthlm to meet up with my best friends for pints and company. Im so tierd, but really looking forward to meet them. This day is hard for me for a lot of reasons. I'm not going to write them down, cause I don't want to give myself a panic attack.

Beautiful sunset the other day.

I almost cried On my way to work I almost cried On my way home I almost cried A moment ago When a thought popped up Suddenly Like a leaf rustling At an empty street I swallow Thinking Maybe I can cry quietly Don't want my son to see Me crying Over his Father #poetry #sorrow

Fragile. Balancing on the edge between biting the bullet and breaking down I want to punch A concrete wall till my fists Turn to pulp Instead I buy Terracotta pots Planting soil A six pack of beer I'll bury my sorrow I'll sooth my anger I'll make plans For some kind of hope #poetry #divorce

Striped trainselfie 7:14 am Tuesday.

Met this beautiful birch tree today. I've started to discover the area around my flat a bit more. Picked a small paperbag of nettles. Said hello to a few magpies and doves. Felt quite calm considering a challenging weekend emotionally. #treemagic #trees #witchsky

-What are u doing with your Saturday night darling? -Well. Im drinking cheap beer, crying and listening to an old Joe Cocker vinyl from the 60s.

Whenever I feel low, overwhelmed or sad, I tend to the plants who live in my home. They do not make me yell, tell me I speak to much or hurt me. I get to take care of them and they give me so much back. #plantmagic #witchsky

I don't know what to do to get myself out of this fckn overemotional state. Im trying so hard to coop with this whole divorce breakup shit, but I don't know if I can handle things much longer. Just want to punch a wall and scream.

Supertierd librarian after another intense day. Gonna drag my ass home, lie down on the floor and breath for 15 min and then drag myself to the kitchen to make something easy but eatable.

First foraging of nettles and violets this spring! Found a few really god spots near my flat. Im so happy that I live near two parks and have lots of green nearby. One of the reasons I love Uppsala.

Today, at the library where I work, a 15 year old teenager told me that she thought I was around 27 yrs. ☺️ 😂

This wonderful sign welcomed me outside work today. Choose to see it as good luck as I love dandelions. #witchsky

During spring I tend to be a bit more manic than usual. Need to take all the chances to breath and take a break that I can, to not wind myself up. I still sleep quite well though and I don't have as much anxiety.

Had a short rendezvous with @rikardfvs.bsky.social by the creek of our hometown today. He is an amazing person. Im really lucky to have met such a good friend during a quite hard time of my life. A lot of things feels better now though. I find joy in being creative again and feel more at ease.