Alex Reads Tarot said “remember who the fuck you are, and what you are capable of” and now I’m crying over my turkey sandwich. Geezes, she popped up on my fyp at the right fucking time.

Two new PRs in the gym!! RDLs and hip thrusts!! And I THINK I might actually go up in weight again next leg day because I was hitting 12 reps each set.I found a gym photo of me from a few months ago and I was lifting 75lbs for rdls/thrusts. Now I’m at 105lbs. Light work to some, but I’m encouraged 💪

Not me thinking about saying yes to a potential 3rd work gig that was just offered to me. I had to call my mom to ask if I’m crazy for considering. I know the anxiety meds are working because I legit think I’m gonna apply. It’s in my field and would be temp, but has potential to continue on.

I carved Derpy in my fat ass pumpkin. Then walked around the house with him in the dark before putting him outside 😂. #kpdh

Updated an old classic with goose & wheeze laugh clips! 🪿😂 #lgbtstreamer #gamingclips

It’s gonna be in the 90s today and tomorrow…this weather has more mood swings than I do. I can’t keep up.

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I was nominated for the @horrorgameawards.bsky.social Horror Content Creator of the Year?!?!? THIS IS UNREAL, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH 😭❤️ Voting ends in five days!!!! Cast your vote here: www.thehorrorgameawards.com/news/public-...

I wore my glasses to work today and everyone freaked the fuck out LOL I don’t know how many times I’ve had to say “I’m not wearing my contacts today” 🤓

Wayyy behind decorating for Halloween. Wasn’t going to for the first time ever (a travesty! But brain is so fried lately). Changed my mind today. Even got a pumpkin. It’s my fave holiday and I’m sad I waited so long. But better late than never. I could use a little festive cheer. 🎃👻🖤🧡

So last week we get an email that all full time and part time employees will be getting a raise…today was payday…no raise. Then, another email came in…I’ve worked here 5 years, but because I got PROMOTED in August, I’m considered a “new” employee. And no raise for new employees!!!! Because OF COURSE

I rarely eat meat, but lately I have been absolutely RAVENOUS for it. I crave it. I just cooked a FAT filet to perfection and tore into it like a fucking animal. Gawddamn. I had one last week, too! I can’t afford this sudden lifestyle change 😭. Maybe my iron is low? LOL help.

I tried to open up to one of my friends about my anxiety and how I was nervous to meet with a psychiatrist for the first time ever…and my friend didn’t believe me? Thought that because I am well put together and functioning that I don’t actually struggle with anxiety…I’m— wut? Im speechless.

I swear by taking a shot of apple cider vinegar at the VERY first sign of being under the weather….but that shit feels like I’m purging a demon from my body. Like drinking holy water 🥵. Regardless, acv please save me.

the motherfuckers bit me THROUGH MY WORKOUT LEGGINGS AND SOCKS

HELP ME I HAVE 42 MOSQUITO BITES ON MY LEGS AND FEET AND I WANT TO GNAW MY SKIN OFF THE ITCH IS SO BAD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I’m grateful that I had the entire day to just not really do anything! Other than the gym and grocery store this morning, I took it easy. I still feel so tired, and am trying to fight the guilt of a “wasted day,” so approaching it with gratitude instead! Or trying to anyways 🙂

I am upset that I downloaded Fortnite 12 hours AFTER the Like Jennie emote went away 😭

Mmm nothing like finally getting to eat the breakfast I packed with me today at 3:30pm 😭😭😭. I need to be better about this ugh

I hit a new PR with RDLs in the gym Tuesday night! 💪🏻. My 🍑 and my hamstrings are screaming loud today.

I knew better than to trust my ‘im just gonna rest my eyes for 5 min while on the couch even tho it’s late and I’m in full makeup and contacts’ thought. Now it’s midnight and I’m pealing dried lenses off my eyeballs, feeling tiredness deep in my bones. 😵‍💫🫠

Validation! I went to my mom’s personal trainer this morning as I was visiting home. She kicked my ass, but she complimented the cuts in my biceps and shoulders 💪🏻💪🏻I’m seeing more definition, baby!!! I can hardly move right now, though 🤣. Sweat so much that my hair was wet LOL

Shiiieeeetttttt The Chase by Tinashe late at night is hittin’ some kinda way. Ascending.

I’ve gotten at least 20 calendar invites from work these last 5 days. My schedule is so full thru Dec that I’m having to just take it day by day because I can’t keep it straight! My anxiety ironically is the only thing keeping me ‘energized’ lol. Job #2 just ramped up my hours, too 😵‍💫🫠.

For the first time since jr. high I’m wearing a jean that isn’t a skinny jean. I don’t know how to feel. 😐

A live look at me trying to relax after my first week in this new role 😭🥴😵‍💫. It’s also 112 degrees out, so that ain’t helping. 🫠

Love it when game devs remember they have free will 😂 I didn't notice at first the pentagram on the floor says "OIIA" and has cat faces in it LMAO #indiegame #indiehorror #horrorgame #lgbtstreamer

Day three of this new position and being told that my entire program (along with 2 others) needs to be restructured otherwise they might get rid of it. 😐 It's literally do or die AND IM RESPONSIBLE FOR IT HOLY SHIT. My boss says the house is actively on fire and we have to put it out 🫥

My face every time I try to do digital art. 💀

I am unstoppable when ‘like JENNIE’ comes on my gym playlist. 💪🏻 Has me throwin’ back those RDLs like the bend n snap 😮‍💨.

Who knew that chopping my hair and getting my brows waxed would be the key to unlocking a mental crashout I was shoving down for weeks. Instant release. Picked myself back up and now it’s me and my brows against the world! Slay 💅

Another stream, another incredible moan edit courtesy of @absolutegarbage17.bsky.social 💀 At this point, DJ, Imma just hire you to edit all my short-form content 😂 This one made me cackle so hard LMAO

I never call out of job #2 unless I’m really sick. And I still feel guilty. Called out maybe 3-4 times in 3 years. But today? Today I called out because my brow girl only had ONE apt available for the foreseeable future to do my brows. She’s an hour away from me. Screw retail, my eyebrows come FIRST

I think a good yell would cure a lot of my feelings rn 🤣

Lofi Girl and Dr. Teals, save me. I beg.

My community told me I moan more than the average streamer, and so I asked for receipts 😩 Thank you @absolutegarbage17.bsky.social for the cursed clip compilation ft. the latest and greatest noises heard on stream LMAO

I roasted in the sun by the pool for a little over an hour in 95 degree heat. Like a gas station hot dog. THEN decided I was going to walk to the market in 100 degree sun🥵🥵🥵. I do love the summa time!

I made it to the gym three times in a week. It’s so hard some days. But it really *does* help with my mood. And I’m starting to see some muscle definition! One step closer to my Lara Croft bod 😆. I also ate like ten chocolate chip cookies today, so there’s that 🙃

I just caught myself crying over an Optimus Prime edit on tiktok…. #🩸

Back to life, back to reality 🥱😔

Stretching. 🧘

Sunkissed toe beans courtesy of Millard to sweeten your Caturday 🥰 Happy weekend! #catsofbluesky #catsky #caturday

3-day weekend after 3 weeks of nonstop work. Let’s goooo!!!!!! ☀️⛱️🏖️🐚

This problem could have been avoided if you just checked your email. This problem could have been avoided if you just checked your email. This problem could have been avoided if you just checked your email. And now your problem has become mine. Today in a nutshell.

I’m jolted awake at 5:30 because my phone ringing. Someone is trying to deliver a package for me and needs to be let in the building. So I jump up, but my leg is asleep. I TRIP in the dark and fall into my barstools. Crawl my way downstairs, but the driver has left & took my package with them 🤬🤬🤬

I’m tired of working every gawddamn day of the week 🗣️🗣️🗣️

Every time I open this app, I can’t help but think of my favorite Momma song “Welcome To My Blue Sky.” That whole album slaps so fuckin’ hard. #mommaband #momma #welcometomybluesky #indierock