⠀⠀ Day 3000 of moping. Can I escape this hole already? Please get me to writing.. I wanna write with my friends.. Sigh.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ The moment you start thinking like that... It's over. Don't even bother. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Sometimes I feel like deleting everything and leaving. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ There's that feeling again. Always winning over me... .. what's the point of it all.. It feels so.... alone here. ... Whatever. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I feel very greedy.. Why can't I be grateful for what I have? ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Just ask them to write with you. Nothing rocket science about it. Also me: I would rather die. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I've been so focused on other people's stories again, enving and wanting something similar when I can literally just start? But no, I've decided to mope for the next I don't know how many days now. ↓

⠀⠀ Touch starved. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Often times do I find myself forgetting how to interact with people. How do you break ice? ↓

⠀⠀ can I be any more pathetic? ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Sometimes I feel like deleting everything and leaving. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Might decide on single shipping to non existent atp. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ A moment of peace at last. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I can't deal with this s##t anymore. Go away. If I don't tell you why, it's because my patience ran out. I don't owe you a response. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ [ Yap session ] Listening to motivational speech and music, none of it is helping me really get in the writing zone this time, it feels like my brain— I am trying to tell myself something, aside from the negative things I've come to memorize I feel lost again. ↓

⠀⠀ I'm awakened with the sense of a great déjà vu.... And it's not the good kind. I feel as if.... I'm going to lose yet another friend soon. ... I'm scared. I don't want this cycle to keep happening.. I'm tired already of it.. Let me be wrong.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ There goes my mood, bruh. I wanna write so bad but I'm so moody. I got to go by: "follow the plan, screw your mood" quote.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Y'know, every time I do a purge of my contacts, I wonder to myself I can sit down and think of a thousand excuses and reasons for why someone wouldn't reply or text But I've comes to realize something ↓

⠀⠀ [ Writing ] I've always wrote for the idea.. But when was the last time that I wrote for the character itself.. What she feels, not what I feel What she does, not what I'd do I'd like to dive deep further into my own creation.. she's been through a lot but I never conveyed it on paper ↓

⠀⠀ Third day Third chance Strike, I'm out ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Protocol: manifesting positive energy.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ "You are merely aesthetics, nothing short of half laboured work underneath" Yeah? I'm aware ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I just woke up man. And now my only gift into returning here is ruined .... I'm gonna sit out for a while, I can't catch a break. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Maybe a bold claim/hot take or simply a power move but Saying that you can't survive without someone gives them the power to control you and or actions/put you in your place Be careful and stay safe A message from me towards myself. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I'm learning as I go. I'll hold my own hand when I say "Everything will be alright" Just keep moving forward ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Follow clean up purge Feels good to get rid of nonexistent accounts ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ [ Writing ] Been thinking of making a bad ending version of my maiden.... That'd be cool honestly ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Could I go one day without looking at social media and feeling my energy drained? I'm so tired. I want to delete everything.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ If I'm here for love, I might as well quit. How does one be authentic again?.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I feel comfortable being in discord only... But I know that I'm forgetting to reply... I feel bad I'm also trying to not let it get to me and go when I'm ready ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ The storm passed— for now There's clouds but it's sunny. I miss my friends. And I hope they do too.. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ This is why you're so damn unlikable, makes me want to puke ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Emptying the barrel doesn't really make it any hollow, it keeps pouring because it's been reserved, complied for years that the source is lost To you, this all sounds like gibberish I don't feel like the right person right now. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Wanting to be like your idols, the people you admire.. the traits you wish you could have.. To know what it feels like.. It's all a lie. I'm a compulsive liar, traitor and a curse Curse you ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I'm eating my own flesh. Drinking my tears.. I want to escape Run again I want to hide But it keeps finding me Tormenting me and hurting me I've created my own cage. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I feel like every good trait I have is being replaced by something sinister Am I actually a bad person? Or did I convince myself well enough to villainize every good act? I can't go one second without being pulled back in Let me go. Please. ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Am I becoming anti social? Or am I tired of people? ... Or perhaps I've given on myself too many times to try again? Or I've been always trapped in my head for centuries? ↓

⠀⠀ Not this again. This pang in my chest I can't pretend again, I have to let it go through me, wether I like it or not ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Sketching oomfies as a surprise.. This'll be a bold move from me.. but they're worth it ⠀⠀

please know my actions are not motivated only by envy!

⠀⠀ Hello I'm peeking again after telling myself I'd disappear for a year Do I feel like writing right now? Nope. (Jinx yourself. Jinx yourself) I miss everyone. I want a hug. And most importantly.. I do want to write. Without thoughts ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ I think a bunch of non RP corn accounts are back, why is my main account getting followed by 40 year old men? ..... Gross. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Two animes I refuse to watch: CSM Dan Dan Dan ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀

i annoy everyone, i can feel it.

⠀⠀ What went wrong? ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Brief intermission ⠀⠀

⠀⠀ Dude I only just woke up and my insecurities and self esteem decided to drop the second I looked at TL Why am I like this? Why do I feel so... Envious? ..... I wish I was more fun, smarter.. and more creative than what I put out there.. ↓

falling in love with a damn fantasy that’s so me

how are you? i'm terrible.