The dress can officially be tried on!!! (Had to hold it closed because I need someone else to fasten the hook eye closures) but I just have to color balance and add some final lacing and pearls

I’m so tired of being disgusted with myself

I’ve missed her all these years like a child trying to find their stuffie in the wash

I’m sorry we lost touch over the years and I’m sorry it’s because I lost it at you and never accepted your apologies when you only wanted what’s best for me. What happened was not your fault and I’m doing everything I can to get you back in my life though it know it’ll never be the same

Hey if anyone’s up and would like to talk hmu I’m always down for friends (as I have very few and my social life is crumbling)

I feel so large and bloated but my stomach is nearly flat???

Oh my god why can I never sleep on the days I don’t work

I have a yogurt in the fridge I counted in my totals but I’m afraid eating it will make me hungrier

Guys I just placed my dream grocery order, saved 75$ on my 200$ order I feel godly. Only 125$ out of my pocket on groceries

My mouth feels naked without the tongue bar

Hey yall share your top 10 musicians of the year now that December is here I wanna see something

I saw one of my moots doing this and thought it could be so fun plus it would end on New Year’s Eve prepping me for the new year so let’s gooooooo

Woke up with an upset stomach, ate a sticky bun, now I’m in excruciating pain and had to call into the first half of my shift because I can’t walk without doubling over or shitting

Why the fuck did I try to go to sleep early now it’s 4am I’ve been up an hour and my cat thinks it’s breakfast time???

I think I’m getting into a miso soup mood again

Feeling cute so not sober

Oh my god guys I’m under 160lbs it’s happening finally my plateau of the 170s is in the distance I was 159 but to the high end of that,,,

My skin is itching to see my weight

Also found out my fiancé has bpd (he also just found out) so at least I know he feels things at least to the extent I do

I love sex? A good way to burn cals, pass the time, AND a distraction from food while I suck dick and get some salt?

December 2025 This month will be spent working towards the habits I will bring into the new year, this will be my thread holding myself accountable. Hopefully this will motivate me towards my goals.

Wasn’t too bad of a day, feeling kinda fat and definitely drunk, still got a glass to nurse to keep myself that way

Guys I’m drinking too much to get back on trcak, I think it’s becoming a slight problem

God I feel like I’m getting back on track

It’s a holiday I have to keep reminding myself I did a charity walk and ate with my loved ones and the Ryan’s I should not feel guilty

Okay so post thanksgiving dinners (I had to do 2 my family and my fiancés) and the early morning 5k this is where we’re at outfit wise (changed into this after the 5k, did have to change my shirt due to a whipped cream incident when I got home) I don’t look fat right?

not only is it disgusting, unglamorous, painful, and dangerous, it doesn't even work. you might get rid of ~50% of the c4ls but you also might lose teeth and damage your heart. it'll go up your nose and give you sinus problems. you'll pull muscles and your back/chest will hurt. and on and on.

I’ve been averaging 1,500kcal-1,600kcal but I was on my period,,,, had one day I hit a regular amount of around 2,300kcal because I was a food vacuum. I think I’m doing okay going to 1,300kcal for today and tomorrow for the holiday to then dip down again after cause I’m already hungry at 7am???

Okay yall here’s the game plan for the day, just packed my lunch and am drinking the coffee now. Chops are in the fridge dethawing for dinner, I’m scared for tomorrow but at least I get to do a 5k first? Hence the 1,300kcal for today???

Made a winter wallpaper woot woot, it’s things I like and winter thinspo

love how I got scared last weekend I would blow up from 2 days of eating over 2k calories as is my tdee isn’t 1,650 and my average burnt calories a day is like 2.3k meaning at worst I would’ve maintained if anything but logic brain don’t work when I’m a schizoaffective ocd driven bitch with an ed 🤭

Xoxo, I stayed under my 1,300kcal budget 😘🥰😍

I’m following 101 of yall Dalmatians

Ordered a new winter coat with my paycheck, it’s a vintage leather mid shin trench with a Finland fox fur collar I’m so excited I’ll be warm and it’ll be the first time in years I had a coat that closes, for under 150 it’ll be here, I spent 100 before shipping

I can’t omad on my period so today’s plan is an iced macchiato and a concha for breakfast (bout 485kcal) and then grilled cheese and tomato soup for dinner (well see how fat I am after the first day of my period)

Of course my period had to comet and absolutely wreck my ability to function it is almost 3am and I’m in so much pain I can’t sleep

And a wedding dress sip since it’s been a while, ignore how messy the room is all our wedding decors piling up there

Hey so I’ve been restricting better again getting around 900-1000kcal a day after my binge weekend I have just been bad at getting on my phone so tired

My paycheck is so much smaller than normal cause we kept getting out early the last two weeks FUCK

I’m terrified these two 2000kcal days are going to ruin all my progress

Yesterday was a blowout ignore it and move on today we’ll be okay just An alcoholic bingne of an omad

Anyways yall I got a day of food packed (my coffee, half a torta and my homemade mac’n’cheese)

November 12, 2025 Daily total: 1,631kcal, I don’t wanna even TALK about it but basically I’m a greedy bitch

How do you know if your vows are good? I’m trying to write them but I feel corny

November 11 Breakfast: 12kcal coffee 49kcal sugar 69kcal coconut milk Lunch: 55kcal black seedless grapes 20kcal for about 2/3 of a plum

Just told my fiancé who’s on a work trip I wanted to light all his shit on fire while scream crying this man is asleep I really hope he accepts the “nvm ily” he’s about to get

Just had a crash out of epic proportions, huge, a crash out this big have never been done before, I am the crash-outiest of the crash-outs of crash-outdom

I just want my scrub jacket back but no they have to embroider it for me IM COLD

November 10th Breakfast: 12kcal coffee 49kcal sugar 69kcal coconut milk Lunch: 26kcal on a honey stick I was getting shaky but I honestly think it was cause I was cold anyways no omad womp womp

Anyways today we have coffee with a planned omad of the other half of my Chinese takeout from last night. Fingers crossed yall