My catwoman costume is complete I’m stoked for Halloween I have fake tongues to be punny with and a whip long enough to be a layered belt and some fake claws and a gorge gold mask it’s gonna be epic

I’m so tired at work I’m gonna kersplat on the carpet of this chiropractic clinic

I just want my period to end it was late and I’m mad it’s here Halloween is too close for this bullshit

October 26, 2025 Today’s total 4,242, full out binging with wing stop, alcohol and pizza rolls all within 2 hours 🤪🥴🤮 Xoxo, your favorite bulimic

Mmmm binge day binge day im already 2.4k deep, just ate 1.4k and sent the fiancé to get pizza rolls for me

Finally got my first big back patch all the way on my battle vest, she only has 4 patches (3 bands and one hand painted) and 3 pines (1 band, 1 movie, all 3 from small sellers) I’m falling in love but I need MORE I’ve also been pinning my even wrist bands on the inside

Crossed and feeling cute might delete later

October 25, 2025 Do I even have an eating disorder ??? Like I can’t even say it was an alcohol binge cause I’ve spaced these bitches out 6 hours, almost 7!!! I’m just a whale at 2,307 kcal and like only 12k steps tracked

My stomach is in so much pain but I had so much fun today I’m blaming my fiancé giving me the wrong coffee this morning and having full fat milk in my drink instead of oatmilk and not blaming my period cramps even though this feels like another ovarian cyst bursting

What’s a weekend without wasting calories on alcohol? I fucked today’s plan and ate nothing I originally wanted to

Vintage pseudonym dark brown leather pants finally fit I’m so happy time for a celebration bowl and cup of tea ❤️🤪😏

October 24, 2025 Today’s a soup day might get a quest bar at lunch but otherwise? Under 700 for my hearty turkey wild rice soup.

Fuck me omading a baconator combo and wanting to purge

Jump scare Kanye but it’s on my tinkering tunes playlist and what goes on never comes off anyways I’m making progress on my wedding dress

Why the scale says you lost weight but your eyes say you’re a fat bitch

So tired all I do is listen to music, work, sew, cook and play animal crossing. Sometimes I get to cuddle my cat. God I hate routines like this

Oct. 21, 2025 Here’s the meal plan for today I think I’ll do day threads to see if I stick to it. The total should be MAX 1,251 kcal. Shouldn’t be hard to get through breakfast and lunch.

I’m so tired of existing it’s so expensive had a blast at a punk show last night only to end up in the ER cause my fiancé ripped his foreskin back a bit

God I love punk shows

I’ve been manic af for the last two weeks but today almost feels like a crash of that let’s keep our fingers crossed for some normalcy with these new meds

I think I’m doing measurements again tomorrow before work cause I’m losing it why don’t my clothes fit right the brand new latex wet suit I got for Halloween is baggy in the middle??? Deadass only snug in my calves 💀💀💀

Guys my $400 scrubs are as tight as they can go and are almost falling off of my what do I do I have two pairs of these they weee free to me but still

Why did I use an accountability tracker that only went up to 1200 when my normal budget is 1300 so like yeah no shit this month is piling up with fucking clouds on that chart

Why do I purge every Saturday in my “rEcOvErEd FrOm PuRgInG” era??? And only on Saturday’s???

Idk why but I feel like homestucks and eating disorders just go hand in hand. I mean how else would I have had time to read that?

Ik I already posted about food BUT LOOK HOW PRETTY THESE BULDAK NOODLES LOOK ALL JAZZED Also realized I said the noods are like 560 when in reality they’re 470 so I didn’t eat 🧦but instead 🍎 because I didn’t break 1k and I’m about to eat but yummmmmmmm

You think my cat is adopted? Don’t talk to me or my son ever again

Why why why can I not sleep??? Again??? I thought this side effect was gone after I got 8 hours of sleep for the first time since starting Vraylar and now I can’t even fall asleep excuse me??? I laid down at 11:30, got back up at 1:30, showered and have been singing old P!ATD

BODY CHECK BELOW 👇 I’m so fucking huge I want to throw up just seeing a glimpse of of my reflection. Why does my stomach do THAT? Why are my thighs so fatty and squishy and full of cellulite and dimples even though I do leg day 5x a fucking week??? Idk I just need tips or something.

Fuck Taco Bell for ever getting rid of the nacho bell grande this shit is fire and I think I’m back in my omading era gang gang

“Oh my god you must have so much saved if you can make your own wedding dress!” No bitch it’s costing me 100 hours of blood sweat and tears and like 300$ instead of over 1k I’m a broke bitch and know what I’m doing

I think I’m losing my mind so uh sushi omad I guess Look how big that shit is compared to my thumb

Fiancés sister is experiencing her first hangover, I got her coffee and cinnamon rolls in the oven and I’ll fry up some turkey sausage patties to pair am I missing anything??? I don’t get hangovers so I’m unsure

I’m apparently a good big sister to my fiancés little sisters and I’m so happy. His oldest sister just turned 21 and came to me to drink for the first time and his younger sisters homecoming is next Saturday and she asked me to come help her get ready

Tears of fucking joy after last nights alcohol binge

I don’t work tomorrow I have 4 movies planned and some vacuuming and smoking and then I get to bake a lovely spare rib dinner with griddle potatoes and ima make a zucchini bread I’m so excited

180 cals of food 137 of coffee w oat milk 788 cals on fucking blackberry ginger mead anddddddd 772 cals of red wine for a total of Drum roll pleaseeeeeeee 1,888 Somehow still in a deficit and shit faced drunk

Was gonna be a low cal day but now I’m balls deep in alcohol calories

Even though I was originally pissed about not working the whole weekend (all day Friday and Saturday morning) like I’m used to I’m kinda relieved cause I only have to make it through a 4 hour afternoon today instead and since it’s Friday I can wear my scrub bottoms and a tshirt instead of scrub top

Third bath of the day because the only thing that makes the pain stop is scalding water up to my belly button

Hey guys, 2nd day on Vraylar and I think I hate it? My chest is tight, I woke up after 3 hours and managed to get a 1.5 hour nap 4 hours later, I’m nauseated and stuffy and why did I start this while on my period again???

Fall means soup weather tonight’s a hot pickle potato soup I’m so excited it’s only 130 a serving 😍😍😍

Happy October! We're locking in again this month and we're all gonna feel great in our costumes and enjoy fall dishes, desserts, and candy with no guilt!! H4lloween is my fave holiday and we WILL have fun and enjoy it this year 🎃🦇🖤

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Hey so one of yall tried to reach out to me with a problem and got suspended not even 20 minutes later? If that was you you’re still free to reach out if you’d like!

Therapist: you’re doing great we could start lowering visits to once a month Psychiatrist: how do you feel about adding an antipsychotic? Ever heard of Vraylar?

My therapist says I’m doing great with my emotional regulation and I can lower my visits soon, once my insomnia stabilizes. Oh, if only she knew about this account

You and me are not the same, I can’t fast without marijuana to keep me from screaming, you can’t fast with marijuana because of the MuNcHiEs

My cramps are so bad maybe I should eat more like I have 670 left in my budget and it’s the FIEST day of my period but,,, I’m not hungry? I’m just dying???