Well. That's that

Got myself a new truck. Well new to me it's an old ass truck. Only two years younger than me

I decided to rewatch all the classic whose line episodes and damn, I forgot a real young Colbert showed up in season 1

🦝🥂🎉

We cooking clearance ribs for new years eve dinner

Mod dependencies are crazy. What do you mean the ability to modify the solar system is a requirement for making you start the game with only probes in KSP?

Smoked some mediocre brisket and ribs

Looks like the strawberry plant is once again resurrecting from the dead

Crunches are finally starting to not kick my ass. Is that progress I feel?

2am gang but this time featuring heart palpitations. I do not feel great

First episode of fallout season 2 was pretty good. Hope they keep it good for the rest of the season

I love when cats stand on their back legs. They look so damn silly

Only just realized bottles uses its own wine list. Meaning I could have had it use ge proton this whole time

Good Lord I woke up in silent hill this morning. Fog is so thick I can't see across each street

Bad part of having lost 25 pounds? I get cold now

Thinking about joining HEMA. My brother has done it for years and it just seems pretty fun. Probably do saber

Oh that's funny to show up the day after he blocks me

All of the blocks fucking hurt. But that one is just painful when you make it seem like we're okay only to also block me

God therapy cannot come soon enough today. I already stopped believing in love now friendship proved to not be real

Man. That first cognitive distortion sheet I did with my therapist where I argued against my depression with saying I have made a lot of friends sure is looking fuckin hilarious right now

Long long morning

Oh. She blocked me on social media now

Also I decided to go for a nice four mile walk instead of streaming

You know you're an adult when news of a new grocery store being built close to where you live two years from now excites you.

Grandma is out of the state now. As mean as it is I hope she has a bad time on her trip (otherwise I'll wind up needing to find a new place to live)

Found another Polaroid of my wife and the cat. Really glad I can see those without sobbing now because damn do I love my photos of her. She's the most beautiful woman and I regret fucking everything up so badly. But cherished memories and all that

I almost clocked in at my usual time forgetting I took today off

I will be trying to do some kinda VR stream tomorrow. Either screaming at spider jump scares or going through dying in a cave with a funny ahh name

cyl from picayune dreams

Having leftover smoked lamb for lunch and its really making me think, DAMN, I love my smoker

She removed herself from the steam family but didn't unfriend me on steam? Wtf dude. What are you even doing

He's just like me fr

He's just like me

I prepped two months to send that yet I'm still covered in tears and feel like I'm about to vomit. Should have preemptively taken the extreme anxiety meds but therapist recommended I didn't

It's always the last second builds that curb stomp wtf

2am gang again

I live www.twitch.tv/bakyn

It's really good

To further this, they don't stay kids forever. They grow up, and look back on their media and find new meaning with their later experiences. Several of my trans friends really connect with the original Bionicle movie's message about self acceptance and becoming who you're meant to be.

We got some Aussie lamb in the smoker

If I make it through January I'll be fine. If

Damn, kinda chilly this morning

I might make tamales as another IRL stream next week when my grandma is gone

I like how of the bosses I've fought in soulframe Kabocha is the hardest and its not because the fight is really "difficult" its because he wont stand still for me to kill him

Another very rough morning today. Too much ruminating over ruining all the happiness I had in my life. The worst part about therapy has been learning to see all the ways I was dooming myself and making things worse. The worst thought is wishing I was successful when I attempted my life back in April

We still 2am gang btw

therapy day and I've got two of those this week lets go

I feel like making tamales

I'm on here making things more difficult!

Feels weird doing my walk why the sun is still up