CBD does not make you intoxicated. THC is different than CBD. Going to get my medical card again, so I can vape CBD at work when in pain. Since it doesnt make you "high"

psoriatic arthritis is an invisible autoimmune disease, however it becomes visible in my joints and skin. I get psoriasis rash and my fingers swell up. Triggered by stress, environment (cold and dry) and diet. My last flare I didnt turn to alcohol (early april) amd CBD worked for me.

Good night folks. Sleepy time tea is running a muck.

A new virus and global recession, any good news out there?

Whoa, someone painted their shoes like this!!! Thats wild.

Something inside me always hold on to hope and silly things. Like coming home from work, and theres more waiting here for me, than just my dog. Someone else missing me, surprising me. Or silly rom com stuff. Im such a dreamer. I wish I could stop dreaming.

Grumping at me for tummy rubs. Doggo cuddles with coffee. ❤️

Working on my coping strategies. However, losing weight and working out is part of my recovery from alcoholism. So I think thats a part of my coping. #midlifecrisis #midlife #recovery #sobersky and actually wanting a career/change is a plus, because I never had one. 🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️ so I guess it depends lol

Staying sober is an award every day.

Trying to release as many feel good hormones as I can. Especially when Instagram keep suggesting sappy couple reels. Time to have a coffee and take the dog out. I miss real conversations. All the little things that actually meant so much.

This mothers day is going to be different. 😪

I have the next two long weekends off work. That has never happened in a LONG friggen time. Plus labor day weekend. Wish there was a camping trip this summer. Maybe next!

Tomorrow is 40 days!!!! I felt it when the willingness hit me.

Theres only one thing im craving and its not something you eat or drink.

38 days!

Im the worst for typos. Work sucked, someone didnt show up, i almost cried. I miss cuddling, this would have been a perfect fix. 🥺😪 everything i took for granted.

#sobersky #recovery

Today will be a better day. Working tonight, so I get to see people. And hopefully get to escape my head a little. Lmao. Ohh dear.

I signed up for this free lecture about surviving trauma. I will miss the beginning, i work till 830. And its going to pour rain. So I have to walk home. But, the 9th apparently I get the link to watch it anyways. Im doing everything i can to fix myself. For myself and the people I love and care for

Thats exactly why, took me a long time in denial. I still hope I can pick up the pieces and get a chance again. Its hard to get out of my head.

I did say I would be sharing my journey, and I always over share. Especially my feelings and emotions. The status of my marriage and future is nothing but question marks. It always pops in my head and the timing is awful. I still have faith in my sobriety. Id do anything for a time machine.

I should feel incredibly happy because I feel like I actually have what it takes now to stay in recovery and stay sober. But I just cant. I still got this, some days are just harder then others.

When I hear couples having fun. I get jealous, sad and lonely everytime. Happy for them.

Sunset teas and dreams. ☕️✌️💙

Just missing a certain something. #recovery i start every morning thinking how strong I am this time. And I can do it that each day. Not drinking ever again. Fed up of that shit. #sobriety

Must respect boundaries.

I think I have a warm drink obsession. 😅🤓

Definitely need a lawn chair that flattens, ants are sooooo annoying. I need off the ground. Lol

First time I bought new bras in 8 years. Felt good getting something for myself. So now we're just chillin listening to music. Sooo many songs make me sad now, so its hard to really enjoy it. I have to be selective .

Just ran into someone from the meetings I go to. Small town. Apparently i forgot where to put the transfers, and he helped me. 🫠🤣🤦‍♀️ i tried to put it where the money goes. Lmao. Been awhile since I needed transit like this.

Heres to our freedom and no longer being powerless. #recovery #newchapter #upgrade

Trying to fill up my days with positive activities. I want to dabble in making jam this year, and salsa. I have so many jars from my old growing weed days. Lol. I may ride a bike somewhere far and read all day. Not many places near me to hike.

Oh the neighbor is having a fire. Its giving me some ideas.Theres some firewood here at my house, might as well use up. And there's a roast in the freezer... i may make a stew cooked over a backyard fire🤔Did that a few years ago and it was delicious. I always wanted to try 0% coronas. Long weekend😋

Countdown to my next chip. May 28th! 60 days... :) depending how I feel later... i may go to another meeting tonight 730pm. We will see. I havent gone to the one on sundays, its a different group. I should push myself. What else do I have going on?

I feel lighter today. I think I had a good day. I had some real laughs and smiles and not just strange forced ones at work. Lol. Socializing with strangers is a lot for me. ive shut myself down for 3 years. Was an emotional day, and not all bad this time.

Yay! Sun today, and I get to finish cutting the grass. So much rain over the last week, a nice dry day.

Some1 extremely important to me made this meaningful gift for me. With colours of sobriety, our favourite colours and the word trust. I never thought of how important that word would become to me. After lying to myself and others for so long, its time my actions cause trust again with everyone.

March/29/26 getting ready for the next one!!!! I spoke again tonight, I picked the word Willingness. My willingness to do the work it takes, my willingness to feel vulnerable around a bunch of strangers in a meeting finally. My willingness to be honest with myself and to recover. Finally, Im ready.

Get a new sobriety chip tonight. 🥳🥳🥳

Emotions.... I have way too many of them today. Excitement, fear, nervousness and hope. Working tonight. Yay! I see people.

When I say Im trying to make the most of the sun, I mean it. 9 degrees and I am in shorts, soaking up the fresh air. Lol at my goosebumps. Im appreciating every day here. #recovery #sobriety #sobersky

Ripley sure punished me today for no night time walk last night. A dog started barking at her, while I was picking up her poop. So she jump, jerked me, then I stuck my finger in it. 🤢🤮 well, thats a first. What a jerk.

It is, and now focusing on making my mind, heart and body healthier. Doctors appointment on the 12th. Going to get a full blood panel, hopefully all my organs, and blood levels are okay. Its going to cost money though 😕 😞 for everything. Oh well, like everything. Hakuna matada.

Got the best and worst hamburger helper outta this thang.

Welp, no night time walk for Ripley. My heads pounding. I feel guilty now when I dont. Boooo. Sucks because she loves poopin on her walks. #dogmom

Great, 60 mins Australia did a piece called, "Global Recession Warning". Bloody hell. Worlds going to shit everywhere.

31 days!!!! #recovery journey. I want this tattooed on me. I have to save, hopefully a bday gift to myself this summer.

Yay! I have sprouts!!! If this is the last summer in my home, im going to make the best of it. Who knows the hole ill end up. Tomatoes and cucumbers are growing!!! Pole beans are taking awhile though. 😋 🌱

A sad realization is, cooking a nice meal and having no one to share it with. Kinda really takes the joy our of it.

Prepping for tomorrow, im going to cook up a storm. In which, I absolutely love doing. Keeping busy. #recovery #sobersky. And then an online meeting tonight. I WILL TALK, i promise lmao