Binging K-Dramas - “My ID is Gangnam Beauty”, “The Glory”, “A Love So Beautiful”, “Hotel De Luna”, “Extraordinary Attorney Woo”, “Nevertheless”, “My Demon” & “Sweet Home”. I love them all. Also, Cha Eun-woo & Song Kang are 🥰 so anything with them is a plus. #kdrama #audhd #Netflix #bingewatching

I finally went back to church today after a 3 month hiatus. I cried. It’s always great to be there.

Happy Yule 🌲 ❄️ aka Winter Solstice to you all. Shortest day, longest night and the beginning of Winter for up in the Northern Hemisphere.

At least your sign was mentioned in that song - he ain’t say ish about Aquarius and I was hurt! 😔 All Aquarius’ need to band together and sue his ass for that ish! Have him really screaming “My Shayla” when we hit them pockets

Love is a choice. It’s not emotional and that’s where people get lost. If you let your heart & emotions run you, you’ll always make mistakes. Be logical, be sensible and use your head when you choose to love someone, not your heart. (Proverbs 28:26)

AYE MAN 😭😭😭😭

People will share their accomplishments and things they’ve done this year, and it’s absolutely okay if all you did this year was make it through. Life has been lifeing, it’s okay that you just got by. Give yourself grace but don’t give up

Someone got mad at me during a trip to a store packed w/ people because I asked them not to touch me because I was overstimulated & overwhelmed. Months later, I finally had the chance to explain to them how my brain works, my diagnosis & how I didn’t meant to hurt their feelings. Good talk! #audhd

I’ve been masking all day. I don’t even feel like doing that ish tonight. You get the raw unfiltered version of me until I go to church tomorrow. Don’t like it? Tough titty! #unmasking #audhd #neurodivergent

Being in my Discord with my social media family is the best. I am just happy sitting here listening to them talk about random ish. It’s just so calming & soothing. Just a bunch of different people with different interests coming together to just be weird together.

🥰 it really could be!

My Afro is Afro-ing. I like how it looks. It’s so . I wish people would stop staring at me whenever I wear my hair out.

I don’t want to call anyone back… I am in such a good mood. I don’t want it ruined…

I haven’t been out in a minute. Not even my daily walks. Seasonal Depression, Fibromyalgia & everything else is a SOB but today, I actually got outside and did some shopping. I was overstimulated & anxious at the beginning but I got outside & ended up happy to be out and about. I feel a bit better!

My comfort food isnt working…. Im ordering pizza…

Rest is not optional. It is not laziness. It is not a luxury. It is not giving in. Rest is a survival necessity. All living beings need rest and restoration periodically: daily, seasonally, yearly. #ActuallyAutistic #EnergyManagement #AuDHD #BurnoutRecovery

…my friends said I’ve been distant lately. One person said I hurt their feelings... now, I feel like I should feel guilty but I’m unsure if I can feel guilt for this. My social battery is dead and has been for months. I need a break sometimes #ineedabreak #socialbattery #neurodivergentburnout #audhd

The “smile until my face hurts” one is so relatable. To NT’s, when an Autistic person looks like they’re “smiling” to you, this is what it feels like we’re doing:

I don’t talk enough about being diagnosed as AuDHD. I was diagnosed this summer and Im still finding out new stuff about myself everyday. I’m not weird or strange or abnormal. I’m me and my brain just works differently.

I’ve been listening to the same five songs over and over. I recently learned that was stimming. A lot of stuff I do is considered stimming like eating the same food over & over which makes me wonder - HOW WAS THIS MISSED?! My friend said it’s because I’m black, a woman and born in the wrong decade.

You know how freeing it is for someone like me to not have to think around someone? To not have so many thoughts or concerns. That’s what it feels like to be safe to me. All I’ve ever wanted was consistency and to feel safe. Is that too much to ask?

Unmasking is so difficult after years of hiding who I am, how I truly feel. I find myself slipping back depending on the situation. I go from humming, biting my lip and the “I hate you hoes” RBF to “Hi! I’m doing wonderful- hru?” & smiling until my face hurts #actuallyautistic #adhd #neurodivergent

I want to be in Waikiki so badly. Away from it all!

As the seasons change, I feel as though it reflects in my thoughts, emerges in my feelings and it seems awfully poetic as Autumn is my favorite season. I feel as though the old me is withering away and the new me is trying to come to the surface. May only take two seasons but times are a-changing.

Did this 🥷 just threaten my friend via text?! Where that 🥷 @?!

Bubble baths are essential

I see why they don’t use it anymore! Caused more issues than not in my early 20s 🤣

Think I should watch CoryxKenshin play episodes 5 & 6 of Dispatch. I love that game tbh. I really missed TellTale Games and this filled in that gap that came about when they left.

I want to smell them throughout the week to remind me that I’m appreciated. Flowers on Sunday would be perfect for someone like me. Will I get those flowers on Sunday? Not likely but as long as I dream of flowers on Sunday, it keeps my hope alive. (Part Two)

I want flowers (roses, white ones). I want flowers even if it isn’t roses bought for me every Sunday. I want to have flowers every Sunday for the rest of my life. I want them to be given out of love and not obligation. I want flowers, even if it one flower, every single Sunday. (Part One)

I’m still watching Love is Blind. I think I’m addicted!

I can’t wait to get off at 6! It’s been a long ass week. Not complaining or anything. I’ve just been drained beyond belief.

I’m watching season 2 of Love is Blind because I decided to watch the whole show after being forced via TikTok to watch that train wreck that was season 9. The first two seasons are actually quite good - can’t lie! How did the last season become such a disappointment?! Smh

If you have an argument about anything and there’s cake present, you’re a monster and no one can change my mind about that because how can you fight when there’s sugary confections present?! Like, how dare you?!

Been away for too long- what’s up family

We’re gonna go check out this tendernism 😭

I deleted Snapchat and instagram until my feelings about things improve. Only Bluesky and TikTok remain!

I need a 💋 to wake me up from this haze!

That’s it - I give up. I’ve been wanting this since April 1, 2025 but to actually have it happening has my body confused. I feel it in gut - that feeling of wanting the familiar but in my head and in my heart, there is a sense of relief. I don’t ever want to feel confused like this again.

Went for a walk, to work, played the game & finished dinner. Now, I’m putting honey cornbread in the oven and in Discord with my friends while one plays Sims. This has been a peaceful weekend. All that’s missing is a glass of wine! I think I will skip the alcohol & get in a few chapters instead. 📖

I appreciate quiet nights like this. They have been so rare. No plans. No rushing. Nothing to do besides enjoying my evening with a good book and my own company.

I finally did my skin routine. The full routine along with a facial massage and an uninterrupted bath 🛁. Dinner was great too. Tonight was nice after working OT today. I’m thinking Bible Study with music and then reading “Elizabeth & Mary: Cousins, Rivals, Queens” by Jane Dunn until I pass out. 📖

I’ve been inside for two weeks. I haven’t really left the house. Been binge watching shows and working more than living tbh. I used to walk every day. I used to go out. I used to read books under the sunlight. Now, I am inside the house and inside my head. I need to get out of this funk and fast. 😖

I’m so distracted now that I put the book away and now I’m on BlackSky while still listening to them talk about everything under the sun (or the moon since it’s nighttime). I’m actually in my happy space.

My AuDHD makes me want to plant more plants while in bed, reading a book with my weighted hoodie on humming my new favorite tune from those illegal Dracula videos on YouTube while listening to the people in Discord argue over silly 💩.

🥷s want a girl that doesn’t care until they run into a neurodivergent girlie who will forget you exist after two to three days and will stare at you blankly when you’re mad about it.

I want me a yearner.

I am so glad Aunt Flo (are we still calling it that? 👀) is here. I took two pregnancy tests this month. I have three kids with my eldest son turns 21 tomorrow…. I don’t want anymore right now.

I am loving the tribe I found on TikTok. I’ve known them for a year and I met them during a tough period in my life. I’m so glad I found them! Those goofballs make me smile each and every day.