Am I going to still have shingles pain for Xmas? Ugh. Waiting fir this nerve crap to go away is dumb.

Mom has a 6 month recheck. Must be like mine. Area to watch.

Please keep my mum in your thoughts. Breast follow up on something found at mammogram.

Awake... but willing to negotiate.

Ran into dude from last in person job. Yuck. At least I didn't cry.

Tire has been fixed. Now my car is free to roam this holiday season.

Jeans were a dumb idea. Should have put on yoga pants. Cold or not - it'd hurt less.

Errands today. Please pray for my poor body and soul.

I'll need referrals to see specialists this year. Health ins is so dumb. I've been seeing these ppl for ages. One more thing I gotta do.... Dumb. Dumb. Dumb.

I'm going to attempt a shower. I hurt. My head hurts. And I feel wrong. Maybe a shower will help. I'll smell like flowers.

Things are bad. My pain levels are worse - probably from stress and panic attacks last night. I just need a break.

I hope in another timeline I am happy. And vibrant. And strong. I hope I laugh more than I cry. I hope I enjoy little things and feel warm and loved. I hope I'm not hollow and hurting.

I want to peel off my skin and run away from earth

Pups are glued to me. It hurts but I love them so we cuddle pile on my chair.

Spa Day for Hennifer. I have to give her a soak every once in a while as she gets dirty butt and causes a rash. Spa complete with feather trim and snack grubs, What i don't do for my pets.

Humidifiers are cleaned and ready to cool mist the air. Shocks be gone.

youtu.be/oAiF4Nrlnq4?... Christmas Ghost Story with Christopher Lee

Problem is I need a place for my weekly to do list and notes etc... Printer planner doesn't have a blqnk space in the weeklies. Hmmmmm

If I didn't know better - I'd say I had a kidney stone. The pain is so similar...? At least to what I remember.

Maybe I can make a sidekick planner with notes and trackers etc. Tuck that in my pretty preprinted 2026 planner. Hmmmmm.

Finished Black Sheep last night. Started new Agatha Christie audiobook now....

Trying to figure out planner situation for 2026. I was given. Weekly one with great art.

Rash and blisters are healing. Nerves are still unhappy and Advil is my friend. I'm not good at being sick. I'm impatient.

New OnlyFans idea.... "Shingle Ladies"

Awake. Or dreaming. It's all the same.

Okay. I was expecting some lols. ... back to sick bay.

New OnlyFans idea.... "Shingle Ladies"

Ow.

Grump.

I finished My Darling Dreadful Thing last night. Great book. Now I'm starting a Playaway audiobook of Black Heep by Rachel Harrison.

Two to three weeks for me to be clear if this shingles bs.

Please send Percy good vibes. He's not acting unwell but his sensitive system has been ... yucky. Lots of cleaning his booty. Which he despises.

Poor Percy has been having puddle poops. Pumpkin doesn't seem to be helping. I'm trying to be patient. Just stick with the food switch. And keep him away from Erma's soup/miralax.

Have you had shingles?

Hello, Advil, my old friend. 4th dose of anti-viral taken. This is dumb. I hate being unwell. This meat suit is inferior. What's the warranty?

I keep getting chills. The sensation in my skin where the sensitivity and rash is SO BIZARRO.

Poor Dipper doesn't understand why he can't cuddle like usual. My pup. ♥︎ I'm still sharing my chair. It's worth the pain to have him close.

Another nap. I woke up thinking there should be improvements. I'm really impatient. Aren't I?

I slept awhile. The now I have sensitive skin on my leg. No thank you. I say no.

This is dumb. Shingles is dumb. Nerves are dumb.

These pills are HUGE. Begone Shingles!

I have an area of very sensitive skin. And bumps started. I called the doc. Appt Monday. Is it shingles? Find out monday... dun dun.

I just want my body to be normal.

Hoping tomorrow is a good one.

Hugs?

Sensitive skin is quite annoying and I want it to knock this off and be normal skin post haste. Just one area. It's making my anxiety flair which is likely contributing to the issue. Booo

Oh Percival. Turdburger was knocking over the bedroom trash can all night. I miss sleep.