my doctor switched me over from immediate relsease to extended release quetiapine (seroquel) and it's like being edged by sedation

for pride month i must remind you that freddie mercury in fact identified as bisexual, as if you couldn't already tell by the Everything about him <3

Very cool and sexy that I'm being taken off my mood stabiliser at the exact same time my antipsychotics are experience a national shortage, very hot very outrageous

My favourite thing, honestly, is when I need to record and there's an alarm ringing incessantly outside, like that is honestly the best thing and I really look forward to reading about it in tomorrow's Neighbourhood Watch round robin

happy pride, everyone

Hey if you think you're working class because you can't afford to own a house in London you could try buying a house in Burnley since you're one of us now and I'm sure you'd love it

Mad people notice when people claim to be allies, but won't date a Mad person. What are you scared of? Having a really sleepy girlfriend? Dating someone who drinks a lot of diet pop because of lithium side effects? Or is it you're not really an ally, is it you participate in the stigma?

Anyway speaking of hating yourself I'm back on the lithium so probably that will help and it will have the added bonus of me not sending you guys 20 minute voice notes at 5am

I let my kid wander off for two minutes today in the museum and he got scared and found a security guard and I don't think I'm ever going to stop hating myself!

"We saw some unusually excitable activity on your heart monitor around 2:43pm, can you think of anything that might have happened?" "Yes, I ate a big thing of Twisted Cheetos Original Cheese flavour very quickly"

“Please have 2+ years of experience with an engine we announced on Friday” really sums up the state of the games industry.

Just a few weeks ago I felt my thoughts were connected to the thoughts of all living things, that I knew the experience of everything around me and had already lived it and would live it again soon, time being a wheel and me being able to slow and speed it with my thoughts.

#koln #streetart

"And it was half-way through my traditional supper struggle meal that I realised I'd forgotten the kimchi" "And how was that for you?" "I'm never going to be the same again, it was horrifying. But I was so, so hungry" *audience applause*

the reason people hate boy-mums is because of things like my eldest just coming in and saying, "you are exquisite, I love you, you are a beauty queen"

My eldest, eating chunky fish fingers: "exquisite. Just exquisite. This is superlative."

Calling people a "dry drunk" just because they're not doing the steps is absolute and utter bullshit. Just be glad they're not a proper drunk. Literally that's the most important thing. Doesn't matter how. Doesn't matter that they're not EXACTLY LIKE YOU.

Let's also talk about some of these moments and a belated chag shavuot sameach/Happy Cheesecake Holiday

Let's talk about the #ARIAS2026 GUYS

mostly the reason I work hard is because I love my job and it's important to me. one tiny bit is because sometimes I want to buy a little treat

G-d forbid a girl go whoring after her idols

G-d would love Ezekiel to stop *prostrating* already, people are *looking*

Kind of a bummer I can't write a book in conversation with the book of Ezekiel since Luke Kennard kind of cornered that market, fair play

hmu if you enjoyed the Sefer Yetzirah and wanna talk about it at length

I wrote a song tonight not that anyone CARES

Keeping my business cards inside my book of Ezekiel. Hang on, let me get you my card. Whilst I've got you, can we talk about ancient religious ecstasy in the context of how we perceive "manic episodes"?

Obviously I can't sleep because I have a long train journey to London (London?!) tomorrow for the Arias, I'm gonna be presenting an award and I'm gonna be one glossy bitch

I have a new beautiful copy of the book of Ezekiel where every other page is blank for journalling your thoughts, of which I have MANY. First amongst them being EZEKIEL WOULD BE DIAGNOSED SCHIZOPHRENIC because even in the context of *receiving prophecy* (which is enough), Ezekiel was wilding out

proper cannot be arsed with a new pandemic, those are my official thoughts. not scared, just like ffs can we not

Every week on my show I use a bed called "cat from ipanema.mp3" and every week I put it back in my work folder and the computer asks me if I want to replace the existing file and I say yes, hoping the file will degrade and degrade, like Alvin Lucier's "I Am Sitting In A Room", but it does not :'(

stuff my kids ask me at bedtime

Went to the start of my journal to read just how much has changed in a year. July, 2025: "I think I'm going to cancel DuoLingo. I know the French I know".

Tyler Catastrophe is cringe, sure, but he doesn't deserve the entire internet bullying him. I absolutely hate what we do when we do this. Because we're so perfect, of course, we are allowed to bully people relentlessly. And then what? They kill themselves? What's the goal, here? Fuckin animals.

On reflection I should've known something was wrong when I was 17 and used to break apart my prozac capsules and snort them

Few months ago I went on a date with someone but I wasn't feeling the vibe so we left it there, then the other day I bumped into him and he said "Thank you" and I said "For what" and he said "The opportunity". What a fucking gent why can't you all be like that? I wish him well

Here is an article on my substack about it being totally fine to recover without attending 12 Step Meetings and why getting the ick from AA is valid scouttzofiya.substack.com/p/when-aa-do...

A few years ago I was in hospital and the psychiatrist there said to me, "I don't think you have a personality disorder. I think you are experiencing a dark night of the soul" and I'll never forget that. I think he was right

Somehow me going to prison was much more predictable than me becoming a gamer

I think you guys really slept on Friends From College

My upswing seems to have come to a crashing end. But look at that person there, someone who looks exactly like me. I just know that for them, dancing was way more than enjoying the music. They became the music. They *were* music.

Really enjoyed working with @audioacademyuk.bsky.social yesterday for their very informative and useful Foot in the Door event, I was there to host the panel but secretly I was making mental notes because everyone was saying such useful things about *the industry*

Night out supporting my bestie out of obligation and nothing else* *Because their band is objectively amazing and the after party was always gonna be sick af

I cannot emphasise enough the importance of working through mental health stuff physically. Last night I knew I needed to dance, I had knotty MH stuff I was going through, and I needed to move around and experience music in my body and dance it all out, and it was so cathartic

girls only want one thing and it's a handbag large enough to accommodate their steam deck

downloaded Layers of Fear, a game about an artist losing their mind whilst trying to complete their greatest work, my only concern is I just won't find it relatable

Look I think we should all just calm down now

Got my ticket, accommodation and travel all sorted today for the #Arias2026 yessss come on lads! Please nobody wear a green velvet suit, only one person is allowed to do that and I have bagsied it

If you wanna know what's gonna happen if Reform win, go back and watch Years and Years on iPlayer