Whatever happens, I’m always going to uphold what I’ve learned as far as being a businesswoman goes, with strong ethics and honest work at the forefront.

Writing is a definite and therapeutic for me. There’s a growing list of topics I could talk about and while I’m no longer making any solid guesses, I’m being realistic when I say that I’m a little optimistic even though I’m burnt out among other things. I’m of course still going to be cautious.

I have to get my fiancé to Alabama for a list of reasons, his health being the top priority. Even though it’s not as I imagined, I realize that my company is off the ground despite having a few things in the beginning phases. I’m definitely going to be a content creator when I get the equipment.

Regardless of how I’m feeling, I’m still going to keep working because of all the reasons that I need to. This year has been more of a roller coaster than anything & I’m grateful that it’s not as bad as when my dad passed away but I’m facing the holidays with more cynicism than the usual joy.

The Ko-Fi will have scenes from the spicy fantasy I’m working on. What I share will be safe for all adults to read. I’m going to keep the give send go open because it’s for my fiancé but now I’m dealing with a doctor bill from when I had food poisoning.

I’m still writing and doing as much creative work as I can for my company but I’m burnt out among other things. I’m seeing that there’s not really any point to posting writing blurbs because there’s minimal to no traction on them.

The creative work will continue no matter what because it’s my passion, especially writing but I’m feeling burnt out again among other things. My posts will continue to be more random until I’m at the point where I can do more writing posts again.

I still plan to be active here and I might do creative posts again at some point but for now there’s just no point.

I’m always going to be writing and doing creative work but it’s currently very frustrating because I need a lot of help and the things that I post about my work get very minimal traction. The things that I repost get more traction.

Modern censorship is a seriously insane thing though because of overblown sensitivities and the nonsense trends of cancel culture. I’ll be respectful because I need my company to be successful but I’m still going to be myself. Writing is my main passion, including intense themes.

When I get to the historical fiction I want to write, it’ll be more daunting but there will be two versions of it because of the themes involved. It’s part of the reason why I’m an indie writer who’s taking on the task of building a creative company.

I include intense themes in my work including language. Trigger warnings are annoying but I’ll use them because I don’t want to force anyone to read something they’re uncomfortable with and I don’t condone the intense themes.

I admit that I occasionally look at TikTok but I’m very iffy about how I’ll handle being part of BookTok when I get to that point for a number of reasons. One of the main reasons being the pointless ways certain words are censored.

I’m used to being criticized, my honest opinions will sometimes be harsh and my favorite kind of humor is dry, especially sarcasm. I’ll still only and always use platforms in good ways and not to play the victim for the bad things I’ve experienced.

As much as I’m looking forward to content creation with my fiancé, I have to say that it’s an insane mess to get into. I struggle with how I feel about myself more often than not but that’s what I’m going to be however my work as a content creator begins; just Nina Siren.

Not done working on the spicy fantasy but taking a little break to watch things on YouTube and my thoughts are going through different creative things.

Of course for Monster Mash I had to use a vintage dance gif.

There were also tweets I made sharing the music as I played it and things that may be interesting. Like the skeleton in Ghost isn’t just a general effect in the video. Also I never noticed that the Family is more Regency era than Medieval except for the jesters.

Michael Jackson (Thriller and Ghost), Monster Mash, I put a spell on you, Sally’s song (Amy Lee version), and This is Halloween. I accidentally forgot the best classical scary song; A night on Bald Mountain. I’ll listen to that in the morning. If anyone has any scary songs, comments are appreciated.

After the spicy fantasy, my focus will be on a spooky story. It’s going to be after October when I write it but I don’t see that as a problem because I say there’s nothing wrong with enjoying horror outside of October. It’s going to be about a vacation going wrong during a stop in a small town.

The spicy fantasy is going nicely, I added a little more drama to it for one of the other main characters. I won’t make any guesses about when because I might get caught up in more research but it’ll be on the Ko-Fi in the near future.

Things are currently pleasant. While talking to my fiancé and working on writing, I made up for lost time with scary themed music. Between the bad experience of food poisoning, worse stress and worrying about a number of things, I haven’t had much opportunity to make the most of my favorite month.

I’ll end the series of posts here but whatever path my company takes as it grows, it’s only going to be more genuine than anything and at best, it’s taken me so many years to get to that point. At worst, anxiety takes control but even then, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I wasn’t honest.

As an aspiring content creator, I’ll have to get used to my voice and being on camera. Currently, I rather be behind one taking photos but I see myself making gaming videos and talking about trending topics with my fiancé.

As a writer, I’ll only be genuine as my work will never be AI generated, I won’t do collaborative work until I’m able to give the person I work with every cent I owe them and I have a lot of anxiety to work through as I continue to put my work online.

I’m no longer foolishly optimistic but among my sarcasm and occasional cynicism, I rather see people be successful, especially if I take the time to learn more about them and see that they’re true to what they present to others.

Apologies but this will be a lengthy series of posts. There are still days where I don’t like myself but I have too much work to do and as I’ve said before, it’s the difference between being a good person and playing the victim. I’ll never play the victim, not even on my worst days.

It’s something that I’ve struggled with more than anything. When I was a kid, I was foolishly optimistic. I just wanted to be happy and a good person. I still want to be a good person but I’ve learned about my version of what it means to be real.

I can’t do them here because the people I want to mention aren’t on this platform as far as I know but I can say something that hopefully won’t be too much of a long tangent but I want to make a few posts about the realness of my company and content creation.

Got a good cup of coffee, my fiancé on the phone and I’m compiling work for the spicy fantasy in a journal as well as looking through my phone notes.

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Been doing more brainstorming than writing even though creative work will be done. I’m just more frustrated as I try to get my head clear. On a good note, I had a very welcomed visitor earlier.

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This week has been a mess among other things but today is officially a writing day with the spicy fantasy. I’m not making any guesses about when I’ll send it to my fiancé to post on Ko-Fi but it will be done in the near future. I just have a little more research left.

Ended up at a sort of frustrating stalemate today because of how the week turned out to be but my only choice is to turn everything I’m feeling into focus. In someway. I should be sleeping but I can’t really relax, all I know is that I’ll be making use of this quote.

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I didn’t mean to make this into a multiple post tangent but seriously! The things that are gaining popularity are terrible and it’s time out for that because genuinely good people and content need to be at the forefront again.

My past has a lot of things that I could easily use as fuel for playing the victim but I’d only hate myself more if I tried to do that so instead I do my best to use the things I’ve been through as a lesson learned. I want to use what I’ve been through to help others.

Whether it’s my company or my life, I’ll always stand by doing my best to be a genuinely good person and it doesn’t always just have to do with being an optimistic person. Being petty to other women would get me nowhere.

A little bit of kindness goes a very long way. As long as it’s nothing dangerous to themselves or others, there’s nothing wrong with a person just being true to who they are. This over-sensitivity to things is beyond ridiculous.

I know I’ve said it before but now it’s more than necessary that I say it again. People like @itsjessandart.bsky.social, @askaubry.com, @bookspotlight.bsky.social and so on are the people who need clout because they’re genuinely good people. I can name many other people as well.

If a person has a different opinion than mine then they just have a different opinion. The only thing I can do is respect that and move on with my life if they don’t believe in something that I believe in. I’d only make myself look bad if I get angry at different opinions.

I write a wide range of things since I’m a fantasy writer but there’s a very specific way I’ll have my work be because of the fact that ethics and consideration of others still exists.

I really wish that my company could get traction sooner than later because of all the things I want to say regardless of how my true nature is. I’m extremely self conscious, beyond worse for wear and my anxiety is through the roof but I’ll never let those things be how I get clout.

It’s insane how much basic things need to be reiterated but there’s been too many excuses for bad behavior among other things increasing too much. Things that used to have strong meanings and now a joke, there’s too much delight in tearing other people down for clout and so on.

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Last night, I had to drive myself to the hospital. I didn’t have to be admitted but I did have to get fluids, tests and medication for food poisoning. I’m almost back to feeling completely better and will be fully back to writing soon.

Not very many updates, still on a roll with writing but just at a slower pace because I’m recovering from a little food poisoning yesterday.