my feelings are just so inconsequential.

i think maybe im just a bad person

shouldve burned down the entire building idc

IF YOU COULD WOULD YOU ERASE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!!!!!!!!!

WHATS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN WHATS THE WORST THINT YOU CAN IMAGINE THIS WORLD IS A NASTY PLACE IM AFRAID TO GEY COMFORTABLE UNAVOIDABLE DISASTER SERIAL OVERREACTOR MY HEAD IS A NASTY PLACE

words are just words people say shit all the time and not mean it. stupid of me to believe otherwise. pretty words but was it ever supported by any sort of action. no of course not. why should they mean it. people never say what they mean.

worthless useless unwanted 😂😂😂 it’s the same shit over and over and over again.

ive been lonely my whole life this should be a walk in the park

that's not entirely fair though is it

the way this book is boring me

music does such a good job of helping me process emotions.. at least to an extent. not entirely to be sure there is... too much but. it helps to alleviate it momentarily

everyone sad lately wtf it's supposed to be MY sad time

thought "need new songs to be sad to" and then tiktok fyp said bet

"i watched you love me like i deserve it then like i deserve nothing at all you tell me you miss me then i have to beg you to call" hey so should i like kill myself open.spotify.com/track/1X9m8v...

feeling like annabel but not the being the only one good enough part but the feeling alone and being left behind parts open.spotify.com/track/1yTP2S...

is my tiktok fyp trying to tell me something

like it gets to a point 😂 i don't know if you realize but it gets to a fucking point 😂

muqing's name literally meaning "yearning affection", muqing always fighting with fengxin and feeling inferior in terms of his rship with xie lian (compared to fx's rship w xl), "i wanted to be your f-f-friend" oh muqing... you craved xl's affection so bad when you always had it

xianle trio scenes make me soooo giddy

if i had a nickel for everytime god who is a seemingly warm and caring father figure turned out to be evil all along, i'd have two nickels. which isn’t much but it's weird that it’s happened twice

the entire heavenly court always gossiping and talking shit about xie lian as if he isn't there is cooking me fr

my head hurts so bad

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well sure!

a 500k book only worth 50 points and then the actual book prices in points is twice the price in money like why are yall so stingy omg

januaries by olivie blake almost 50% off i Could just get that except... im eyeing the tgcf vol 1 to get for my bday (which will only be like. 10? or 15% off on my bday)

book prices these days suck sooo bad my god fuck inflation and fuck govt regulations cause i used to be able to get a hc copy for the price of pb prices today... and 1 hc today is worth 2 hcs back then it's so diabolical

no wonder the residents of ghost city treat xie lian like their princessjsnd i remember now they didnt only see firsthand the way hua cheng is so gentle w xie lian and so blatantly gives him special treatment but that term of endearment in front of the whole crowd

xie lian gets into his vicinity and hua cheng suddenly can’t stop smiling okayyyy loverboy

subscription system will be the death of me. just got an autopayment notif and nearly got a heart attack who told u to be taking money out of my pocket like that omg

(crazy) have y’all ever thought about swd and hx as… mirrors…. they’re so similar in so many ways if you think about it….

no truly swd is my fav tgcf character other than the obvious ones (xie lian and hua cheng) exactly bc of how determined and unapologetic he is. it’s such an admirable trait and the fact that he did horrible things and still remained That way is even more fascinating

shi wudu is the icarus character of all time. actually he out-icarus-ed icarus. he didn’t care that he’d fall harder the higher he flew, he just cared about going as high as he could

the concept of reincarnation and meeting your loved one in another life is romantic to me as a bystander, as an audience. but it’s so inconsequential to me if i were the one actually experiencing it. because i wouldn’t know would i

“neither hx nor sqx will reincarnate so once they fade away/die they will never meet again” ok sad but “swd and sqx will never see each other again”?! absolutely gut wrenching. why

qingxuan is sooo cutieful nooooo my babygirl

eh shrugs

had this banger prose cooked up in my head. soon as i got out of the shower, poof. gone

God giveth me extra money to cover the extra unexpected expenses

at this point i should just accept that im not someone whose words or actions really changes things. what i do is so insignificant to people. but who can blame me for trying regardless. cause what else can i do

need the tgcf hardcovers w the new covers so bad but they must cost like an entire house

people when the personality disorder is actually real and not a quirky funny bit

bpd delusions mixed with flu brain really just such a fantastic combo im doing so fucking great btw guys

lolllllolololol

wdym lang ying (the ghost kid) doesnt exist in the revised version.. whyever not

nothing i wasnt already used to. i'll get used to it again.

lol cause what do i care

*seductively Put your hands on me. Okay, now push me in front of a bus.

#that was always such an easy fix but lol guess i was never worth all that