Writing about drug addiction without ever trying something harder than sedative pills is an interesting experience. Most of my writing is based on an interview with a friend who’s clean for years and still remembers how fucked up it was.

I think I’ve made a mistake trying to learn how to build story through filmmaking and then using it in prose. In 8 cases out of 10 my idea starts with a dialogue. Because truth is born through a dispute.

When designing my antagonist, the main idea behind them is style — but not their clever mind. And I think they’re going to have all the traits I hate, including pink hair.

When it’s time to promote something of mine, I will have to nuke that xtwt acc. Or close it down forever.

I’ve become controversial to the point people block me for my opinions on fictional characters. Who am I kidding though, I just annoy people 😂

Here is one of the completed image boards ("style frames") complete w BG by the great Shinji Kimura. This was the first time we ran our entire cel "pipeline" (smeared brown ink, mottled paint, soft shadows) mated with a real BG. #Tekkon #AmerBeton #anime #アニメ #西見祥示郎 #木村真二 #松本大洋 #鉄コン

The idea of some "killer app" AI-heavy game that will eventually break the taboo and 'normalize' heavy use of AI in creative products is largely BS, because almost everyone i've seen using AI has no good ideas or taste. The average AI 'short film' is like "father reconciles with son" lol

I have to make a thread of my published Ao3 fics.

I don’t understand the concept of yumeship. Why? It’s ao strange for me. When I create my own characters to ship them between each other — that’s one thing. When you’re acting like a lonely man who marries a dakimakura pillow? Nah.

I have installed an app that limits me from using xtwt and Insta at work. It helps: even my phone doesn’t uncharge so fast.

I never posted an actual link, but here it is: archiveofourown.org/works/67813166

Five years ago, in the summer of 2019, with a help of a talented illustrator and my friend twt @ kinsey_jinn I’ve launched my original project “Abo Ofo” (The Eye of the Storm). Since then there’s been a prologue ready. Meet Nur and Svart: (left -> right)

If I hyperfixate on my own OC and their story, I might write my stuff much faster this year. I mean, they do turn up in my head randomly, but I kinda need them to behave to finish the literal beginning (I don’t have a beginning since 2019).

Between two series of my original universe, this one is a bridge between the two. archiveofourown.org/works/76793741

new year new post

X/Twitter has officially added a single button that appears on EVERY image that allows users to have Gen AI change the original image in real time with prompts and then download the modified image, allowing users to blatantly mildly edit (plagiarize) artist's work & or potentially doctor photographs

So let’s say you have an opportunity to get seen, what would you choose to publish: - an old piece you wrote for a contest that won nothing - a new prequel for this piece - another fresh sequel of the same universe but with different pov and characters - a fanfic you can convert into original

I’ve watched hours and hours of videos on writing, building plot and characters and I want to say that western and asian plot structure is so obviously different ij the core. Mainly because audiences are different— they expect different things.

I don’t know how many years it will take me to publish my short stories (or to convert them into another media); but I realize all my shitposts are going with me into the future.

So I’ve joined a fic writer discord this spring and it actually helped me to write. First of all, there’s an age limit (30+), second — vast and I mean VAST amount of fandoms and I love this. Crossovers I couldn’t even imagine — this is amazing. Third — annual events with feedback.

Writing is a joke. I’m sitting here for months, trying to figure out how do I write my antagonist so that a reader would be scared of them — how to give this sense of dread and disgust. I watch hundred of videos on script, on concepts, on formulas in movies.

i constantly think about this post

No, but really, someone needs to study this: how economic recession affects themes in pop culture. Like how low birth rates affect mangakas and their hunger for money — so they start slapping shit together just to make their dead title produce money again.

Finished my crack parody shitpost fandom movie social media au fic. Yes, all of this and it’s sns. I used real magazine articles and threads where people fight with each other about pairings and melons.

Some people just seem to want to eliminate all potential sources of discomfort, no matter how small or innocuous, from their lives. Fiction allows you to model experiencing big emotions in a safe controlled setting, and I just don't think any good comes of avoiding that to this degree

I plan to do this “50SOG” thing and write a fic like this is my original work. And then change names back to the characters of the original.

I think my friend shamed me for not using AI? The exact phrase was “well, I don’t judge you for not using AI because you’re not making regular money with your photos”. Like yeah, it’s not my day-to-day job, but I also don’t want to pay Adobe. Fuck them.

LOVED this episode pointing out the genuine truths along with concerns and the issue of unsustainability of gen AI: The more AI slop spammed online to poison repositories the faster it sabotages itself & implodes. "It is literally AI incest- it's inbreeding" youtu.be/idOmriv7ylo?...

Got myself two new pretty notebooks for writing down my thoughts. Sometimes I would lost in my own plot and writing down everything on the paper helps to see the bigger picture. That’s why it’s very important to learn how to write from the very young age — it helps the brain to learn.

Spent about an hour writing a speech. The speech is fictional for fanfiction, but it’s a public speech nonetheless.

2000 words in a day and it’s a crossover fic. And it’s after I’ve put about another 2k words of new lore for another series of short stories.

At first you choose online communities instead of offline parties. Then tech bros encourage you to use their AI (a statistical mode on drugs) for self-help, instead of going to a real therapist. We’re doomed.

My notes on Palahniuk’s book are about 16 pages at the moment. I’ve finished 2/3 of the text. It’s genuinely engaging because I can relate to a lot of things.

I can neither pay for a book nor for a subscription (card declined). So this will be stored here, out on the open. I’m not ashamed. #chuckpalahniuk #piracy open.substack.com/pub/m45tau/p...

I love Puccini’s “Turandot”. I’ve spent about seven years obsessed and looking for a perfect model for a themed photoshoot. In the original story Turandot gives up her cruel play and gives up to marry a prince. Puccini’s opera was never finished. She might’ve killed him on the wedding day.

Five minutes of shame or five minutes of glory, who cares.

Piracy is closely tied to censorship but y’all not ready to talk about it.

A wonderful person made me aware of this article circa 1997-2001 about Slash, Fanfiction, Feminism and Fandom! While it is a thesis, it still contains highly valuable knowledge relating to pre-2000s fandom, such as history, terms, censorship, & pro/anti-porn arguments! summit.sfu.ca/_flysystem/f...

Talks about piracy are inevitable. Western people cannot comprehend how anyone wouldn’t pay for something because for them everything (or most things) are available to buy. They rarely get into this trouble: maybe only obscure asian media fans would know what’s a regional limit is.

I am a firm believer that the best heterosexual couple is the one, where woman is stronger than a man. Be it physically or spiritually. The best position for a man in this case to smile and agree to any madness a queen wants.

There’s a dilemma: I’m very anxious that I can’t write long stories, but I also feel helpless when the story grows exponentially because there’s a lot of unanswered questions.

Chuck Palahniuk would perfectly fit into Ao3 crowd.

I am a firm believer of a concept that if the characters can’t be together no matter how much they fight the fate, they should die and it will be merciful.

Did an awful thing and made a plan of 5 more novels when I haven’t finished writing previous 5. Ah, well.

Today I’ve realized I have two characters with… let’s say interesting names which didn’t have any second meaning — when they should have had. So now they have second meaning, a dedication to destroyed plot. Now I put this message of frustration into them. Now they will have faces.

These days I’m making myself finish the stuff I’ve abandoned years ago. I need to get it off my system.

On days like these I just want to work on my books. But I’m not an acclaimed author yet, no one waits a book from me. No one pays me for it.

I realize I didn’t actually finish that “list of books that influenced you”. I got distracted, but there’s also something else.

“I should write this.” 10am — Don’t write 17pm — Don’t write 1am — It’s time to write (I have to get up at 7am)