My tooth breaking was also not on my 2025 bingo card. 😭

Some Aymeric for you #ffxiv #Aymeric

Also I kinda want(ed) to try streaming in the afternoon to see if that would help with viewership at all, since streaming early mornings might not be ideal for that, but that gives the anxiety more time to build up so idk if it’s actually a good idea lol.

I’ve been wanting to stream but my anxiety around it has gotten so bad again. 😢

Had a go at making some watercolour Christmas cards. They’re definitely not perfect, but I’m happy with how they turned out! ☺️

I’m not gonna wait until the start of the new year, but one of my resolutions is definitely to find those pieces of myself that I lost somewhere along the way.

I really was such a creative arts and crafts girlie, and I’m no longer in touch with that side of myself.

My parents’ imminent move means they’re packing up their stuff and finding old relics, and it’s very confronting to read all the stories I used to write and to see how much I used to love drawing. I really feel like I’ve completely lost that creative spark, especially over the past decade or so. 😞

this is so giving lilith x aymeric to me and im gnawing at the bars of my enclosure

🥹 love this

Just got my Twitch recap and apparently I’ve streamed a grand total of 6 times this year. 😂

Periods are so crazy bc wdym I’m sobbing over this minute and a half animation??

Once again, I can't properly download the new Infinity Nikki update. 🙄 I honestly might just be done with the game until I can maybe someday get a PS5 so I can play it on that bc my god, it's just not worth the hassle on PC.

I don't know how many games make it easy to jump back in after a year or more of not playing, but in case anyone is wondering, Final Fantasy XIV is not among them.

I’m editing my old FFXIV vods from like 2 years ago atp and it’s bringing up so many different emotions and memories. I’m left wondering how it all went so terribly wrong. Like, how did we go from that to where we are now. It just still doesn’t make any sense to me. 💔

I just realised I'm going to have to stay off social media for the foreseeable because I'm not going to watch the new Stranger Things season right away. 🥲

Why is it so impossible to play Infinity Nikki on PC? 😩

i miss her so much

me trying to speed read to reach the reading goal i set myself at the start of 2025 🏃🏻‍♀️💨

Watching my first cheesy Christmas movie of the year and life is good.

I don’t feel like making multiple posts about this so have a screenshot instead. Also, I know all of this is my own fault; it’s just one big ‘woe is me’ ig.

cw mental health I’m just so tired. And I’m not talking about a lack of sleep. (Although, that too, tbh.) I’m just so exhausted, man. It’s the same shit day in, day out, and it doesn’t ever seem to get any better or easier. When will it get better?

I wish Sims 4 wasn’t so all or nothing with a lot of stuff. Like, yes, I want to enable neighbourhood stories to make the game feel more lively but that doesn’t mean EVERYTHING has to be happening ALL THE TIME.

Can random Sims STOP stealing food out of my fridge and pranking my toilet!?

My parents telling the family group chat they’re moving out of my childhood home at the end of January 2026 was not on my 2025 bingo card but here we are. 🥲

No cause wdym I dreamed about telling Keeho I couldn’t get VIP tickets for the P1Harmony concert in Amsterdam and the literal next day my friend discovers there’s suddenly 2 VIP tickets available. 😭 Keeho really said “I got you girl!” 😌

Alright who wants to 2v8 with me on DBD?

I got Xavier and Caleb’s cards.

I really want to try and push through all these negative thoughts I have surrounding streaming. Aiming to get back to it next week. Sorry for being so wishy washy with it. 🫶🏻

I'm sorry but what the actual fuck are these numbers. 💀 We were doing so well yesterday...

I almost feel more nostalgia for Digimon than I do for Pokémon. Which is strange, because I definitely watched way more of Pokémon when I was younger.

I made a mistake playing the Digimon Story Time Stranger demo because now I want the full game. 😭

bears really popped off with hibernation. i’d love to eat a bunch and then spend the coldest and darkest months of the year sleeping

First it happened with the ATEEZ signed albums, now the P1Harmony VIP tickets. 🥲 fml

Removing items from your cart while you’re literally in the payment process should be illegal btw. /hj

Time for my annual Halloween movie marathon! 🎃

I could disappear off every single social media platform and no one would bat an eye.

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother posting literally anything online.

Not gonna lie, the Infinity Nikki update feels a little overwhelming. There’s too much going on. 😭

The Love and Deepspace idol banner is insane btw. /pos

I need to choose a group for the Infinity Nikki event and it's stressing me out. I don't like making choices. 😩

iktr 😌

When my anxiety skyrockets, so does my TikTok scroll time lol.

No stream today bc I woke up in a really weird headspace. Thank you for understanding. 🧡

i’m not crying, you are 🥹

Wdym the P1Harmony ticket sale is today but no one knows anything?? 😭

Editing my old FFXIV vods is really making me miss that very specific pocket of time in my life that is so dear to me that I’ll never be able to replicate ever again. It’s so fun to look back on, and so heart shattering at the same time.

I will never meet Aymeric for the first time again and that’s honestly a tragedy.