Kind of feels like im speedrunning my whole life falling apart with my health bullshit and a bunch of people being laid off from my job (with more layoffs likely to come)

Deianira Ever-Sinking

Felt good enough to actually make dinner for the first time in awhile! Made pasta and chicken in a (non-alcoholic) white wine butter cream sauce. It was so tasty

Does anyone want a picture of my brain when i get my mri results back?

PSA: I promise im not ghosting any of my friends. Im just having debilitating neurological stuff and having trouble functioning

Day one learning to skate as an adult: stood in my skates for a few minutes too scared to move. Did some balance drills in my skates. Practiced standing from sitting on the ground. Got comfortable moving a little. Reminded myself a million times to bend my knees and keep my ass out. Fall count: 1

How you know the hyperfixation is real: Turned down an opportunity for crazy T4T sex to watch womens hockey tomorrow night

I cant believe my friends made me care about sports. I have watched a total of 3 PWHL games and i cannot stop thinking about or talking about hockey. Help.

Sailor Laverne is Boston Fleet playoff ready 🫡 ⚓️

Just in case any vampires are listening, i've had 3 seperate people in my life tell me that my blood tastes good

I know im like 5 years too late to the game but Hadestown really hit me. Loving someone so much that you would walk to the ends of the earth and beyond to ensure their safety but letting doubt in yourself and the world destroy the relationship and yourself? Doesnt strike close to home or anything

Saw Hadestown on Broadway and i have learned that i am not immune to sad pathetic loverboy propaganda

I found my first gray hair today. Everyone say yipee

I think i manage well 99% of the time but oh my god it sucks having uncontrolled chronic pain. Theres no good treatment for the underlying cause of my pain, non opiate pain medications straight up do not work, and i refuse to take opiates (personal choice based off addiction family history/ risk)

Boyfriend made dinner so now im having salmon risotto and non alchoholic wine while playing DnD in the dog bed. Bless my puppy life

My boyfriend keeps telling me im the second smartest dog. Every time i ask him who the smartest dog is....he says Scrappy Doo! :(

Sleeping in a human dog bed is surprisingly the secret to not dislocating one of my joints in the middle of the night. Dog affirming AND practical

Its an interesting to be in a place where i definitely do not pass as a man, but im also almost never assumed to be a cis woman in queer spaces.

A frozen lake can and will save you.

Made an extremely frivilous purchase in vermont. Spent $15 on a bottle of apple juice. Hate to admit it is the best damn juice i have ever tasted

The abdonment trauma goes hard at 3AM after a series of nightmares. I play it cool 99% of the time because my PTSD isn't anyone elses problem, but I am so tired of feeling so disconnected from people and community and just scared all the time. Shit sucks.

Me: i am so good at casual connections Also me: develops a crush in 0.5 seconds flat

Mourning a tea house that closed years ago (that i fully did not appreciate at the time it was open) because i cant get a good pot of tea anywere now.

One day im gonna write a whole thing about the relationship between chronic pain and being a masochist but thats for another day

I love when people get so into it they just bite wherever they can reach. Like the pure desperation to consume and as close as physically possible. Like we're gonna laugh later that you bit my cheek but in the moment? When that was just the closest piece of flesh to sink your teeth into? Hot

I do not have Game of Thrones or the expanded stories of that universe autism but i have been captivated by the faggy deer man in the newest show.

Its a real shame im back in my slut era because i really want a triangle or VCH piercing and dont want to have to take a 6 week break from activities.

Enough with this casual shit, i need to be chased through the woods and hunted down like an animal

Okay, so the primary difference with Luge and Skeleton are the riding positions, right? And we have doubles luge but not doubles skeleton. Hear me out. Combination luge/skeleton doubles. 69

You know my brain is broken because i saw a combination knife and lighter and my first thought was "oh. Erotic"

Sometimes women are so beautiful you start thanking gods you dont believe in

I do love that more places are prioritizing well made mocktails/NA beverages. I love a mocktail. Make fun of me all you want but i will happily spend $9 on fancy juice.

You know i need to get out of Connecticut when every other profile on Feeld is a pleasure dom with "finance" listed an interest in their profile

Realizing i have vastly overestimated someones interest in me and now must crawl in a hole to wait out my embarrassment

Im sorry to all the people who know me irl who see me hornypost on main.

I confess things on my bluesky i wouldnt confess with a gun to my head

Im sadly one hot woman with a foot fetish away from taking feet off my hard limits list at all times

Y'all i might have manifested a little too close to the sun given that there are 3 women currently down horrendous for me. Only time will tell if any of this will destroy me emotionally though

Restarting my testosterone prescription soon so hope my partners are ready for me to be even more unhinged and feral

Tying up three muzzled puppygirls together. Cerberus

Sees a sign for sign for dog grooming and starts wagging my tail. Oh....you mean its just haircuts for dogs....? Nevermind

Need one of those dog collars that just says "nervous"

Body study I always welcome critical feedback on all my art

"Bluesky is great for artists" - then why do i have to appeal content warnings bluesky automatically puts on what i post? It always puts the sexually explicit tag even though i already add the artistic nudity and they claim the sexually excplicit tag is not meant for art

I think my least favorite part of developing feelings for someone is the temporary insanity that comes along with it

After a year of drawing only bones, i return to flesh. Was inspired by an artist i have fallen in love with to make a shift. A little clumsy but enioying the process

Will never get over someone asking my father if im his daughter and his response being "No, shes my son".

Everybody thinks 'https://' stands for 'hypertext transfer protocol secure' but it actually stands for 'head to this place, sucka' followed by a colon and two laser sounds

The kind of gender dysphoria thats just being sad about not having fluffy ears and a tail