I got another dnd session today eeeek!!!!

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Plans for the rest of the day: -go to remaining classes -eat dinner -follow up on extracurricular stuff -finish shared notes + readings for tomorrow -do at least 30 min of exercise - shower - wind down/sleep relatively early

Me + my support Diet Pepsi against the world today

In unhinged news, I got a 2nd scale because I am paranoid that my 1st scale is inaccurate (my brain is saur fine and logical 🙂‍↕️)

My arm is still bruised up from my blood draw grrrrrr (ignore how big my arm looks from this angle pls and thanks)

Went on my first run in awhile yipee!!

Uhhh my doc says I got high cholesterol. Yeah, I really do got to stop my junkorexic tendencies. I am also mildly vitamin d deficient and have low iron but I am unsurprised

Feeling like this since my blood draw this morning 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

I’ve been such a cry baby recently like everything has been making me cry like I’ll watch a happy clip and start tearing up

Can’t believe it’s already October. I need to lock in so serious both academically and weight loss wise

Having some brunch before I lock into writing my essay and god I love egg and toast ( I will be adding hot sauce)

Literally lied through my teeth at the doctor’s appointment about how I no longer struggle with disordered eating

I need to stick to some kind of diet and exercise plan that isn’t plan on starving and then eating and panicking which leads to a b/p and then not having any energy to move

Can I pls stop losing the same 1-2kg pls god????

I am playing D&D next week for the first time and I’m so excited like I have been writing up so much for my character even though it it supposed to be a one-shot campaign

I’m sooo eepy but I have to finish class readings for tomorrow. I made some earl grey/having a bit of dark choco in order to stay awake

I will be b/p'ing but I am timing my order so that I will finish cleaning my apartment which has been stressing me out. The math is mathing truly

finally started watching the summer hikaru died and literally started crying within the first 10 minutes MY SHAYLAS

Got a new stepper so I have no excuse to not workout on days where I have no energy to leave my apartment

the dependent bond i have with dr pepper blackberry zero sugar soda is unreal like if they discontinued it or I couldn't find it at my local store then I would fall to my knees

had a dream of being cuddled and hugged by a group of people idk but felt like were friends and I woke up bereft. I love physical contact but hate meeting people (ahhhuehgeioahgpai ghhirwhgpi)

Class made me so sleepy until my brain locked or the copious amounts of caffeine (energy drink + coffee + diet soda) hit which is great since I have 4 more hours of class

idk I feel like I can't be myself around the people in law school. I'm a pretty weird and nerdy person and I've yet to find anyone who matches my vibes. Also, there are so many conservatives or people who don't gaf about the things that are really important to me (a poc from a low income family)

listening to an audiobook that pisses me off but i'm like 70% through so I gotta power through. I love historical romance but god sometimes the genre/tropes can produce such bottom tier material

Mornings are now filled with contract law and my new crippling addition to rockstar energy

Law school is kicking my ass but I’m having fun (?). I just have not figured out the grind vs living balance

Cried to mitski like 3 times this week which means depression is probably back but also skinny era might also be back since all binge urges have died

Washed my hair and I’m like am I going bald or is this my normal shedding ( balding paranoia is so real in fact)

Recently been watching lots of Resident Evil 2, 7, and 8 play throughs even tho I hate zombie related media (deeply scares me) because the plot and Leon Kennedy compels me to

ahhhhhh law school orientation starts today. I went on my morning run and now I'm watching RE2 gameplay just to avoid the panic of meeting a bunch of new people. God, I hate being perceived (ironic as someone who wants to be a lawyer but hey) 😭

Y'all I've recently gotten back into Pokemon GO like it is saur fun especially since they've added more features since I last played in like 2019 and it motivates me to go outside instead of bed rotting.

I can feel my period coming. I keep crying at everything, my weight is up, and I am convinced that all my friends despise me.

I did indeed buy a bunch of new clothes because retail therapy feels great until I look at my bank statement but I am calling this back to school shopping fr

this has been me with everything lately

uhhhh I have had back to back food related plans for the past couple days where I have been eating so today is a reset day/I'll be back to my accountability thread (I most definitely gained a bit of weight yikes)

Sleep schedule is in shambles rn 😔

Woke up from a heinously long mid day nap and now I’m off to go grocery shopping

July was truly about losing all the vacation weight gain but now August shall be about getting as close to my lw (110.2lbs) as possible before law school officially starts.

straightened my hair but it is humid as hell out/literally sweating my hair out as I straightened it

y'all I am gonna read tokyo ghoul again. the way that I relate to ken kaneki is unreal like only diva who gets me fr

feeling kinda insane today like in my head I am convinced all my friends do secretly hate me/don't care for me which caused me to b/p but then at the same time I've fully swung to I don't care/feel like I am the hottest person alive

uhhhhhh why am I kinda obsessed w/ cynthia erivo's new album ?????

Literally have been kinda of obsessed w/ body checking (my camera roll is filled w/ just pics from various angles) since I can’t tell what I look like anymore like I feel huge but also some parts of me look small but then I’ll change the angle slightly and then want to kms 😞😥😥😥

B/p cycle has had me in a chokehold like I truly got no other coping mechanisms huh 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

after my work day, I'm going to load up the switch and start the next route of the otome game I'm playing (cafe enchante)

This is my last week at my shitty job!!! Yipeeeeeee. I started law school in three-ish weeks so it's gonna be great to just relax (+ lock in to being skinny b4 law school)