I told my sibs that I do not ask them questions in bad faith: I ask so I can give the love they want/need in the moment. That is shit our parents did. The same parents who refused to address their mental health to improve our lives. I’m the big sister who has done 12 years in therapy *for them.*

Okay so never in my life since I started playing Pokémon in 2008 have I ever gotten a shiny. I just got my first in Pokémon Sleep and it’s a Mimikyu!

Just finished my 13th full length journal since 2018. 192 pages in 69 days. Nice. 😏

What if I had 37k and I paid off everything but my windows and then used the leftovers to build a Linux machine with a ZSA Moonlander keyboard and gave myself a toggle so I could learn DVORAK for absolutely no reason at all?

“But, Ennui, if the Aes Sedai were the most interesting part of the story, why was Mat your favorite character?” The Aes Sedai are messy academics & politicians and I eat that shit like chocolate cake. Mat Cauthon is a sad wet cat quickly running out of lives. I contain multitudes.

IMIO, Amazon didn’t actually want WoT. They wanted to do GoT numbers, and assumed another doorstopper fantasy would get the same reaction. They got off to a solid start, I enjoyed S1. But doorstopper series(es) are interminable. Can’t finish b/c it refuses to end. Too many threads; the loom breaks.

Did you know that echidnas have four penises? I have questions for the Sonic fandom.

I’ve decided it’s time to make my profiles match across my social media. New header!

Best thing about my friends is I can tell them at 9:30PM, “I love y’all. Get the fuck out of my house.” And they will laugh and leave.

This works, btw. I drank 4 bottles of water today before my first Coke Zero, and three more later. I also have this one now. For Night Water.

I bought myself a red water bottle the size of a soda bottle and I’m going train myself to drink it first every time I want a Coke Zero to see if I can increase my water intake at home.

Thank you!!!!

It was the darndest thing. After crying for two hours I realized that all of my Sims bars were in the red. I took a 30 minute shower and drank 36 oz of water and ate something and I turned back into a human person. You would think 10 years of drugs and therapy would have taught me this.

Eventually the Insomnia debuff converts into a damage multiplier.

You are so bright that sometimes people are burned by it, but that’s not on you. Do not dim your light for the comfort of others. Sunlight is a disinfectant. (Text I sent to my sister this morning)

Tell the people you love that you love them every single day. It can be a 😘 in the group chat, it doesn’t have to be a big deal.

My message of the afternoon to the group chat: “I found the 2026 trans Girl Scouts list. Got a high schooler in his last/senior year of Scouts and his first year presenting as male and it’s kicking his ass in in-person sales. Who wants cookies?”

I propose, in the face of the increasing inaccuracy of predictive text, we refer to the errors of autocorrect as “auto incorrect.”

The current point of controversy in the tight circle of people I discuss handwriting with is whether redesigning my lowercase Z to look less like a ZB/DN lowercase Y and more like a そ is clever or aesthetically offensive.

Oh my gosh (excited Southerner noises) @happybusman.bsky.social @passeriform.bsky.social — y'all are my favorite people now. Y'all and my buddies down in FL who asked me a similar follow up on Discord. This is going to be a thread, Sponsored By 'Tism and my New Year's Resolution to Be Shameless.

Sometimes I want someone to ask me about one of my special interests and let me vibrate with joyful ‘tism for 7 to 27 minutes about, IDK, why the TWSBI Go stub is my second favorite fountain pen. Ask me about the evolution of predominant forms of longhand cursive in 20th century education. 👉🏼👈🏼

My day was absolutely awesome from 7AM—7PM, whereupon perimenopause attacked me with joint pain, a hot flash, nausea, and a crippling mood swing in the middle of the Walmart. My favorite cashier came through and got us out as fast as she could— and then the period shits attacked. Good day though.

I’ve decided I’m going to have a good day today. 😌

My sister told me this morning that her boyfriend, who is an engineer, sincerely believes that aliens built the pyramids. This is why I can’t date. I would break up with someone over this.

Ice Storm: my boss at my $24/h job told me 9AM Sunday we’re closed Monday and I can use PTO, but roomie’s boss at their $12/h job told them 1h before their Sunday shift not to come in (and they know they will not be paid). This says so much about retail/food service versus white collar work.

Finished a journal in 2 months! (A5, 192p) Starting a new one just in time for February and my birthday. 💕

i think about this often

When I was about three, my mother asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. Now, what I meant was “Tall.” But what I said was “A giraffe.” 🦒

You know what’s weird? I’m not paid what a phone psychic cost in 1997. People expect me to read their minds when, per inflation, $3.99/min in 1997 is equal to $8/min, so $480/h. Hell, even not adjusted, $3.99 per minute is still $239.40/h. 10x my wage. I don’t get paid enough to be psychic.

What’s your Criterion Collection? I.e.: a song, a book, a movie, a tv show, a video game, and a board game that, when combined, encapsulate your essence so much that person who consumed all of these things would understand you better on a visceral level? Not your favorites. Your essentials.

One of the mods in one of my new stationery Discord servers gives the best compliments, I might cry!

I gotta hand it to Chappell Roan, “I heard you like magic; I’ve got a Wand and a Rabbit” is the best Queer F/F pickup line I have ever heard in my entire life.

Gag Order is the best hurt angry woman album since Jagged Little Pill. Kesha absolutely has pipes. When she turns auto tune off it’s like one of those dudes in anime taking off his weights so he can fight harder.

I was describing Final Fantasy games to my favorite shitposter on Tumblr and I finished strong with “11 was a fucking heroin addiction that almost made me fail out of college.” This is deep Ennui lore, I feel.

My roommate has referred to me coping with my podcasters all being on vacation by relistening to old episodes as “Endless #Sawbones”

This year on Bluesky I wrote 136 posts and 79 replies. I received 124 likes, whereas 2 was from my most popular post, and apparently I love saying "not" and ⏩! www.madebyolof.com/bluesky-wrap...

The irony here is that the guy (21) is left-leaning and the girl (19) is conservative. This is the one time it makes sense, and may be her first relationship with someone who sees her as a human being. Which is an example opposite the point this article is trying to make.

This Brazilian woman hates AI

Andrew Bluett’s series of Final Fantasy retrospectives is incredible and you should watch them all, also FFX is a good video game and you should play it, and if you played it already you should play it again

As a person w/a vulva and a complicated relationship to their own sexuality/queerness, I wonder how much the lack of f/f smut in fandom has to do with 1) the mortifying ordeal of being known and 2) the lack of a word for vulva that doesn’t make the author want to vomit when used in a smut context.

Absolutely love this in response to Heated Rivalry hate

I have some persistent echolalic responses that I got from tumblr: 1. I cannot read “Jesus Saves” without thinking “The rest of you take full damage.” 2. “Road work ahead.” > “I sure hope it does.” (RIP Vine) 3. “Is it just me or—“ “There are 8 billion people on this planet.”

@gdbee.bsky.social My new laptop came with a skin on it but it felt like it was missing something:

I filled out thank you cards to use as holiday cards for all my coworkers. White pen on red cardstock with red envelopes. Decorated them all with winter-themed stickers. Wrote in cursive. Personalized every message. Y’all. I swear, adults are so easy to please. ☺️