Patiently waiting for twink death so I no longer look like a disgusting skinny kid

Fun story about this: There was a guy I had talked to off and on on the Birdsite that was EXACTLY like this. When we finally crossed paths in person he told me “I recognize you, you’re the guy that replies to everyone’s posts and never shows their face.”

Because I haven't posted in awhile

Learned about the category of propaganda that is the Glittering Generality and now every problem I have with the Leather Somebody Industrial Complex™️ makes so much more sense

Lukewarm take most likely, but I don’t think we’ll ever see an IML winner even close to Coulter Thomas’s age (23) again. Combination of the new explicit “only compete once” rule, and the fact that I genuinely believe Leather doesn’t take anyone under 30 seriously.

Bonus #MuircapMonday video after the cigar social. Includes leather creaking, if that’s your thing.

I made a mess. (I've got over 12 minutes of video but can only upload so much. 🤷‍♂️)

Ok real talk why am I seeing so much “It’s not just ___, it’s ___” literally EVERYWHERE. I’m not willing to say that it’s all just AI writing, although at this point who knows.

And at last, after dealing with a god awful humidor (probably because I didn’t season it whoops) that could never hold humidity for more than a week and a half. Beautiful, but won’t hold my 990s. 9/10

Ok this whole slideshow is a trip (yes there’s more, like, 10 more slides of this) but I feel like word vomiting and I don’t want to try and seek out the set in full. Time for a thread no one will read lol

Morning boys

Important Read

Far be it from me to talk about age, but I find it EXCEPTIONALLY telling that the only time anyone talks about folks under the age of 30 in our community, it’s “Hurr durr they shouldn’t bring their girlfriends to the bar” by the generations I’m told are worthy of my respect. Like, come the FUCK on

Somehow jokes about how awful mid-20s men are are more demoralizing coming from a Sister of Perpetual Indulgence compared to a Leatherman. Happy Easter I guess

Moments like this are a major reason I have very little desire to get back to Smokeout. Which is a shame because I know people thatre actively there right now. No single event kicked my body dysmorphia into a tailspin quite like it. After a decade of wanting to go, I learned I wasn’t man enough.

Remembering that one guy at Smokeout that said “I recognize you, you’re the guy on Twitter that replies to everyone and never shows their face” …after I had confided in him that I was dealing with the fallout of having my printed out Twitter nudes snail mailed to my biological Dad.

“what it means to be made of you but not enough for you” 📸 @yakumrunt.bsky.social Jacket @nastypig.bsky.social Patches @feralpunkx.bsky.social & Bird ov Prey Stitching: Kurt at Twin Cities Leather

How many more pounds do I need to gain to be seen as a real man? How many more fundraising dollars or hosted events to my name do I need to be seen as a real leader? How many more gashes do I need in my back for it to be made crystal clear that this shit isn’t just dress up for me?

What I love about SM is unlike the platitudes I got told during my title year (and after,) marks aren’t riddles. Being told I matter or that I’m valued in the community only means so much when their behavior betrays them, or they have no evidence. But marks actually indicate something happened.

Have a morning wood morning....and hunting

Got it. At this point I need someone to put me out of my misery because clearly this shit won’t get better any time soon

As Beyoncé once said, “Let me upgrade you Audemars Piguet you Switch your neck ties to purple labels”

Still think about the time one of my IML judges started fondling my beard at a bar literally a month before I was supposed to stand across a table from them and tell them why I matter. I wouldn’t have been opposed in literally any other context but like… I dunno it felt weird.

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It’s funny. I’m not particularly shy about how I feel about my age. And I’ve had a few recent conversations that I wish to vamp on a little bit. (Boot and Bauer pic for attention.)

Shower beer with Dad.

What are you doing down there boy?

Happy #muircapmonday, that day the new gear arrived edition.

Check in day with my coach

TGIF

Another check-in with the coach

Happy Saturday men

A thick dad with a thick dad butt

I mean.. who doesn’t get excited to #FLEXfriday?

I’m good, sweetie. The better question is why I should give a damn about you taking me seriously? Who even are you lmao

Don’t think I ever showed my chaps from the back. I should change that.

One of you lucky bastards is going to win this jockstrap.* #prizepackage #mealcombo #bookbuddies #entertowin #booksandjocks *But you must know how to read.

Thinking about the time I was transvestigated by a trans man. I don’t mean that as a put-down by the way because 1) it wasn’t meant as a dig and 2) the situation was genuinely hilarious.

For starters, I appreciate the honesty. But also, and I say this with as much respect as I can muster, no ❤️ I’ve wanted this shit for too long to give up. And for all my bitching I know damn well I’m not some wannabe.

I’ve seen so much shit about “Growing Older in Kink.” Bold to assume I’m going to last that long. Or should last that long.

At this point I’m low key convinced I’ll never be man enough, or enough to be seen as a somebody. Wish I could be like 50-something because then maybe I’d be actually seen as a real man

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God this man is hot