i have the loveliest sweetest, cutest relationship that is so full of love and warmth and mutual care and consideration, the kind of thing both me and her had either only ever dreamed of or started to give up hope for finding. Shit is so bad in so many ways but my relationship with her is the best

some people are so online, so poisoned by internet usage and discourse scrambling their brains on here for hours a day that I genuinely find it hard to or in some cases can't understand what they're talking about. Referring to online-only niche heated discourse as if it is universal is concerning

I really just can't care about celebrities and if they die. Like legitimately things have been so incredibly dire and I just can't care tbh. Like the entire neoliberal world order is on fire and mostly gone and fascism is tightening its grip even more around the world. Brutal times

tbh I'm so over the abusive parent apologia as if I'd not welcome my parents into my life if they demonstrated any effort to change, any prolonged effort to even take account for it. Hell if they'd even help me not live in horrible poverty and bad conditions we could go from there. They don't lol

i really wish passing didn't matter, that hair didn't matter, that wardrobe and having any money for stuff like haircuts didn't matter but it so does. poverty as a trans woman is such an impossible spiral to pull out of at times+especially when said poverty can limit your job opportunities it's hell

being poor your whole life really does wear on you I have to say. like god I swear even though I now know how little distance $1000 can get you it'd help my life so much. Hell even $100 is a big deal at this point. Nobody told me how hard it'd be to find basic work as a trans woman I have to say

it is insane how much better my life would be if I just had a job and had my car in a secure spot. SNAP would help but those two would singlehandedly help me so so much. Can't wait to move back to MA near my girlfriend and finally be out of this unemployment+conservative hellish limbo

my car is still buried up to and almost over the wheels of my car, the street still isn't cleared. Genuinely insane amount of snow i'm surprised it actually snowed as much as it did. tbh I think if I weren't so poor I wouldn't hate the snow but goddamn it's a pain. If only we had public transit 😔

it's so so fucking cold goddamn. Really brutal weather it's been a long time since I've felt a northeast winter this bad and I've lived in the northeast my whole life. It's hard to even think when it's this cold much less get anything done. Winters are so brutal when all you've ever known is poverty

genuinely im trying to handle the level of stress and devastating poverty, overwhelming dread this economy provides and of course the horrific news that continues in the US. Trying to manage it so it doesn't hurt my relationship bc god if I dwell on it too long I start to collapse in on myself

i have to say as someone who never watched Modern Family and find a lot of sitcoms very poorly aged+tough to appreciate as well now, Modern Family is pretty all around lovely. Funny and touching and well written. Was not expecting the show to be as nuanced and well done as it is. I really like it

i am one of the "trans women who are really good at video games" and yeah that can be a thing but also trans women have some great taste in video games in general, like far far better than the average public. It's kind of insane how specifically good and consistent that's shown to be online

i have to say Bluesky and particularly trans women on here talking about, playing and developing games has made me so in-tune with exciting new games well before they blow up. There's so many other trans women on here who have great taste and post about games that so good and so small at first

i love my eyebrow piercing, I do. But if you're considering getting one and already carry a lot of tension in your brow+have sinus issues that can cause uncomfortable pressure in your forehead+brow I'd advise that the eyebrow piercing does make it worse in my experience. Like it is a thing tbh

This is kind of silly sounding but I saw a tiktok that was letting all women know that if you get a boob job that you'll have to wear a bra all the time, even for shape. And god like I'm sorry but that has actually shaken my commitment to a BA immensely. I'm re-commited to natural growth lol

if they just, for fucks sake, make Fable II playable on PC and maybe even PS5 I'd forgive Xbox's many transgressions. But because they are Xbox I know they will never do that. God it's wild to grow up adoring the Xbox 360 just to see Microsoft destroy everything bit of goodwill possible

I genuinely feel like growing up in a conservative ~95% white (fuck you mom) town and being white in general has severely limited my ability to have perspective. Thank god for college and the internet providing education but some days I still feel limited in my understanding, I really hate it

I can't wait to be 30 tbh, my 20's have been a kind of hell that, while necessary in some ways, I really want to move on from. Genuinely 20-25 was the worst pain I've ever experienced every single day before transitioning+before good therapy. And it's been tough at times after. Can't wait to be 30

im gonna say this to the white trans women and just remind us to stop doing white women shit in america. Like this fight has always been intersectional and you have to remember and embody that. Our struggle is one of many brutal and at time fatal fights raging all around us. It's vital

when the conditions of my life stop being survival and matters of life or death I can have some space to chill out, to be 'fun' and enjoy things that exist beyond the hardest struggles. But that hasn't been my life so far. I think the future will be good, I'm moving to live with my girlfriend soon

sure there are a ton of trans women I don't vibe with on a deep level, but that's just a person thing tbh. I think there SHOULD BE more solidarity between trans women that don't even get along personally. idgaf if I don't like you personally, we share an intersectional struggle for our very lives

i get it I do but you have to cut the self hating internalized transphobia shit as a trans woman. Fuck that. You have to be real to who you are and we'll never fully fit the mold of what rigid cis gender norms want. It has to be something you actively don't entertain. No self hating allowed

tbh I've felt so weird at times liking having a dick. I think the ways other people view it are weird but I just like it in a nice way. My girlfriend likes it too and idk, there's nothing wrong with it but I'm made to feel there's always an issue with it. I really don't think there has to be

if they allow us to make private accounts I will post pictures, especially if they let you remove followers too. Like tbh I like it but god I just can't take being perceived and grossly objectified by men. I wish I could not care about that but it affects me so negatively I fucking hate men tbh

im so lucky in so many ways not least of which is having a loving incredible girlfriend who shows continual maturity and care+communicates so well. Also I finally have a way out of this hellhole ive been in a year now. I've gotten so much hotter again since I've been with her. Genuinely so lucky

idgaf anymore tbh I can't wait to get out of this bigoted hellhole. I can be so so hot here and still get so much shit. it's getting scary out here I genuinely get people dead stopped in the grocery store ready to confront me now. Fuck these bigoted ass losers I'm just done with here tbh

idk why I have this page anymore at this point but I hope it serves some purpose? At one point this felt like the only safe social media to post on but idk these days, and tbh there are pockets of this site I don't feel good with especially because I engage v little with it these days, it stands out

i feel like infantilization of all types is genuinely something I've just seen in my life as pretty harmful. A woman I was with acted infantilizing toward me and it affected me for a while. I just find infantilization really off putting and I just am not comfortable with it tbh

to be honest I find it so troubling how long ago the shot was called for the moment of american fascism we now exist under. Under Clinton, under Bush and Obama. Neoliberal 'order' paved the unjust bloodied path to make way for fascism and the re-emergence of nazism to this degree. Horrifying

the United States has an entirely right wing system, fully solidified. Congress, 'liberal' companies like CNN+MSNBC and other news media. Democrats are complying with far right fascists without hesitation. The entire country has been swallowed by the right wing death spiral we find ourselves in

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Finishing up season 2 of Severance and oh my god thank god Tramell Tillman was not only nominated for his performance as Millchick in Severance but he so deserved the win. Incredible performance. It really says a lot that he's the first black actor to win an emmy in Best Supporting for Drama though

this sounds very silly and I don't like that this is necessarily related to being trans but Fallout has been a huge part of my life. Me and my brother practically worshipped the games growing up. I've come to hate the Brotherhood. There's so much political substance to bite into with Fallout

there's a ton of other stuff that has to be set up first, stable housing and finding work finally after being (mostly) unemployed for about a year but I really need 3 more laser sessions with an alexandrite laser and a breast augmentation. When I have those I'll be unstoppable, a force of nature

if gavin newsom is the main candidate for 2028 this country is done for. He's just a fascist-lite and we needed to re-calibrate to the left at least before Obama but especially after. Obama was a part of a huge shift to the right he had varying degrees of culpability in that we need to fix

if the world weren't so misogynistic and run by men who can't even begin to understand let alone fully empathize with women's lives we would have way more gay media. We'd have unendingly yearning gay women Kingdom Hearts and it'd be way better. We're still so behind as gay women

I find it not great how progesterone is thought of in HRT regimens. For starters, you're meant to have progesterone in your body to balance out estrogen, I had insomnia and awful sleep before progesterone. But also, I feel so normal and centered than when I have my 200mg of prog. It's necessary

i've yet to meet another trans woman that doesn't eventually want bottom surgery even if they like what they have for the moment, and like. Idk. That would be fine but it's always framed like having and liking having a dick is incompatible with being at your core a woman. I disagree a lot with that

if you need a quick rundown of how fucked america has been for decades this article was written in 2017 and literally everything has gotten much, much worse in the economy since then. we kind of live in hell www.usnews.com/news/economy...

born too young for instagram and too old for discord. truly I am lost in the sands of time between generations. Not a millennial or a gen z woman but something else, something far more sinister

genuinely i so got used and treated like shit by too many women that didn't and/or couldn't care about me as a person before I met my girlfriend. it was the exact time I decided to never settle for that again that we started dating and now i'm treated so so well by her, she loves me beyond anything

kink is fine, and maybe it's just because im demisexual to a degree I didn't realize before being with my girlfriend but like. I think the whole loving intimacy part preceding kink and kink being wrapped around that mutual care is the only way I like it tbh. I don't care for it much on its own

i mean this as someone who has watched so much SNL and has watched 'bad' periods of the show but genuinely it's so, so bad right now. They used to have a solid 3-4 people who could solo carry a sketch and they don't have a single person like that. The talent is so much lower at the moment

it's a shame i'd so love a Switch 2 solely so I can play Pokemon Legends Arceus at a stable framerate but being broke as shit and without a job despite applying for the past year makes that not possible. Of course poverty has been way worse for a ton of reasons but I want a switch 2 :(

I really don't like how much transitioning gets monitored and at times soft policed. It took a bit of transition but I think women with deep and non-conventionally passing or feminine voices are the best and I love it for myself. Sometimes the transition 'help' feels like conformity or shaming tbh

it's been so good to be away from the internet in general and especially with the love of my life girlfriend living with her the past month. Feels a lot more how life should be, i've been so happy and god i love her so much, and she adores me too. Some much-needed bliss ☺️

i was a kind sweetheart slut and honestly? I got taken taken for granted and not treated well. So I'm happy to be done being a slut for anyone other than my girlfriend. Not because being a slut isn't cool, it so is. A lot of people just suck and want to take from you and not give anything back

it's amazing how great things have been with my girlfriend despite america being in a horrific state, me not able to find a job for the past 11 months despite applying constantly. I really was in survival mode since January it's so nice to have room to be a person and breathe again with her

I've been basically just living with my girlfriend now for almost 2 weeks(?) at her place and it's been a different kind of nice. I'm very averse to U-Hauling type behavior typically but I truly think I might have met my wife in her so it's been great, and sweet and cute, lovely beyond words

it might seem trite but wow when you have arguments/disagreements with an amazing partner it can truly bring you to such a beautiful place when you work it out. It feels like a level of being seen and heard and having an ability to be open that feels incredible. I love my girlfriend so so so much