Struggling to sleep even though I'm tired. Stuck awake wishing folks would reach out more.

One of the more difficult things to explain or just make known about me (mainly because no one asks) is that, while I'm not sexual, I *am* kinky. I absolutely love being trapped, immobile, and touched. A good wand while I can't move, see, talk, hear, and maybe little air, works well for me.

I forgor to upload a set I did with @justkimathings.bsky.social back in April for @iwait.club. Please enjoy this #trance set we did together: www.mixcloud.com/JereVali/bir...

Missed out on my Kaleidosky set last night? Fear not! @nikky.moe already has the set with our combined visuals uploaded to YouTube so you can still witness the wild nature of this experiment of mine~ Welcome to VIBESHAPER_01! This will become an ongoing series. www.youtube.com/watch?v=GU0M...

Getting to have some nice relaxing cuddles immediately after a DJ set is ... honestly so fucking incredible~

Robin Williams in World's Greatest Dad (2009).

Slowly realizing I'm worrying less and less about whether I'm "cool" or not and worrying more that my brain is having coherent enough thoughts for other folks to follow what I'm saying!

I don't want to get into your pants. I want to get in your bed. For cuddles.

Without stating your age, post a movie that released when you turned 18.

Sharing a little bit of the pride in my work. Though I do wish I had a better driving job, I choose to do DoorDash and Spark due to issues with sleep and energy. Would be nice to get rewarded a bit, but it does feel good to know I'm good at what I do.

I'll always be loud when it comes to my opinions and passions. I don't care if that makes me an unmarketable brand risk. There's nothing wrong with being unapologetically me, because being anything other than genuine in today's society is to be nothing worth seeing.

This account supports acts of violence against corrupt CEOs and politicians.

I am completely normal about tall, thicc, puffy, living inflatables. (No I'm not. I want to be cuddled and squished on by them a lot.)

Biggest downfall I have is that my heart is so big and still so full of love that I want to share with so many, but any time I feel hurt, it's just amplified since it becomes even more painful to try and be defensive.

Any time someone wonders why I've "unfriended" them, let them know this: I didn't unfriend them because I don't like them. It was likely due to me feeling like there was no longer meaningful connection.

Always interesting to see folks still work with the people who treated myself and others poorly, after they've listened to our stories and understood our side. Despite feeling disappointed in lack of solidarity from folks, I'd still work with those people again if they'd just apologize.

I'm back with something truly different at Kaleidosky this coming weekend! I've pre-recorded it so I can do the shader panel for my own set, but with that being the case, you already know I've put even more effort into this~ If you enjoy my stuff, you DO NOT want to miss this!

Trance with Breakbeat I might be doing it a lot more.

While I didn't get to catch all of the sets that I wanted to this year, I did my best to be there for the ones within my genre range. @otomirumusic.bsky.social, @strawbs.tv, and @andurrz.bsky.social, were definitely the favorites of what I got to hear! Y'all did amazing~

Guess it's time to get to work on an idea and demo for next year's Furality club stage.

The more I'm reached out to and asked to be around, the better I feel.

Sorry for how bi-polar my posts have been lately. A lot of internal struggle and wishing things were different. I can only hope folks forgive me and wish to move forward as much as I always try to for others.

Disconnected at the tail end and my stuff was dying, so I'll catch it all again tomorrow, but the fireworks show for @furality.org was once again AMAZING.

As much as it upsets me that I don't get reached out to, I do appreciate when folks light up and acknowledge me when I'm the one who does the approaching. I'm making my way because of them~ 💙

Number of times I've been asked if I want to hangout with anyone at Furality this year: Zero. There shouldn't be any questioning why I feel miserable all the time.

This has been a very difficult weekend for me. In some ways it's been great because of my own efforts, in others ways ... I've felt much emotional distress.

Unsure if I could consider this a "toxic trait" that I've been witnessing from myself, but it seems that I expect to be impressed a bit too much. I should feel proud for certain people to get certain opportunities, but instead I find myself thinking "that could be better".

Too much free time and no one who wants to occupy it.

I've been managing to make my own way this weekend, but I still really wish folks would reach out and offer time with them. It means a lot more when my presence is actually wanted rather than accepted.

You don't have to be a furry to interact with and enjoy the furry fandom. Just have an open mind and be kind.

Please stop being intimidated by me. I'm tiny and shy. The only things big and loud about me are my opinions, but you can shut me up easy anyway. So you should just hold me close while covering my nose and mouth. 👉👈💦

Latex. Please.

Dreamt I had an emotional support rabbit.

FREE AVATAR GIVEAWAY! Just in time for Furality Ultra, I will be giving away an avatar base! You just have to follow me, like and repost this post, to enter the raffle! You'll get the Revia + Protogen DLC, with Furality Ultra themed content! Ends 6/8 #vrchat #furry #furality

It be Pride Month. A kind reminder that I am non-binary and polyamorous. I do not like having a gender and I'm affectionate toward many folks I like often openly just because! Still on my journey of self discovery and have put other big changes out of my mind until the world become a better place~

Pride Month kicks off tomorrow! During a debate in the House of Commons during Pride Month last year, Labour MP Sir Chris Bryant made a powerful speech about the importance of Pride Month.

Sometimes I still can't help but wonder if it's a better idea for me to just hang it all up and walk away. VR, DJing, everything. I feel like I spend most of my time watching everyone else be social and friendly with each other while I sit idly and quietly nearly. Like I'm just a decoration.

I feel like I've done a lot wrong and people just won't tell me.

I tend to wonder if anyone would be interested in constructive feedback from me on their DJ sets. With 25 total years of experience, 5 of which have been very active in the VR scene, and knowledge of a wide variety of genres, I'd be willing to lend my ears, thoughts, and opinions.

It is never a bad idea to share things with me that you believe I might also be interested. Especially if it's shiny.

Despite how often I tend to feel like the leftovers in the fridge, forgotten and overlooked so often ... I'm still here, still pushing forward.

Too many people passively contributing to why I feel so invisible and forgotten on a regular basis and these people are going to also slowly be forgotten. Can only invest so much time and care into others for so long until I realize I'm getting nothing back.

Do people just *ignore* the fact that I'm non-binary? I'm going to start getting irritated.

Finally decided to use the at home IPL I've had sitting here and nuke my facial hair. If intense light pulse worked on my hands in the past, it should work on my face. I hate shaving, but I hate looking like a guy.

🧵 - This series of posts will be about how I try to prevent looking down on someone.

Something I've wanted to do a little bit lately is share a bit of my philosophy in life. I am by no means perfect. I fully understand that and live based upon that fact. I make mistakes and I always try to correct them and improve. Though I do feel my view may be useful to others at times.

If there were ever a proposition to club and throw bricks at scumbags, I'd definitely vote "Yes" on that. I'm not angry, just a little fed up of the way certain people are running this world. (Into the ground.)

I wish Discord would let me know WHO and WHERE I got a reaction from. You know, an actual USEFUL feature instead of all this absolute garbage they weigh down the app with now. Whoever is in charge of product direction at @discord.com ... please get your head out of your ass.

When I message folks to try and work with them on fun projects, but they never message me back ...

June 13th. This is going to be a fucking RIDE. It's not quite what you expect and you're not going to want to miss this~