As a Californian, seeing all the posts about the wildfires: Get out your covid mask, friend. Smoke particles are large enough that even cloth masks help.

Probably bad that I find myself wanting, more and more, to spend my waking hours.. not awake. I just want time to pass until the next interesting thing that I'm looking forward to.

It's important to remember that as a rule, every human life has worth and value. And it's important to remember that there are exceptions to every rule.

Seems like every day Texas comes up with a new way to make me hate living here.

I don't kickstart much, but I kickstart this. I bought a pile of pins from this dude a couple years ago when I had Covid, and I think he hits the sweet spot for "iconic for Apple Nerds, just kind of neat for normal people." www.kickstarter.com/projects/str...

Haaaank why are you doing such cool things all the time

Fascinating to watch the way I am eroding. Short temper. Forgetfulness. Making mistakes. Depression. Even less motivation than usual. New Achievement: This morning I accidentally took my nighttime meds again instead of my morning meds. Reward: Face tingling and increased pulse rate!

@momfriend64.northsky.social 4x3.fun not only is better than the NYT, but it's also better than the NYT

Also how the fuck was that three years ago. I still feel like I'll never get to do that again. But also sort of like I would really like to. And also sort of like I don't actually NEED to (yet?), so I guess I'm doing better.

Neat how an antidepressant can just.. stop working after like 15 months. Neat how upping the dose immediately brings back the side effects just like the initial ramp up. (Here I am using "neat" as a synonym for "shitty.")

Explain your @ StereoVenom is an anagram of my name, simple. My regular s/n is Stave. Like 25 years ago on IRC, one of my friends typoed "Steve" as "Stave." I lol'd, called him an idiot, and typed `/nick Stave` to make fun of him. It was available, so I registered it. Apparently forever.

Got a local weatherlady to yell at me for complaining about the emergency alerts last night. But seriously, I don't need an "it hasn't stopped raining so the flood hasn't stopped flooding" alert every three hours. I know. I am aware. The first alert was sufficient. I can tell it's still raining.

If you aren't sure if your antidepressants are working, I wonder if that means you can be sure they're not working. I don't feel like doing things. Like the world sucks, it can't be fixed, and my ability to enjoy it is extremely damaged by how bad it is. I probably need a vacation.

Randomly browsing TikTok livestreams, I found someone doing riddles. I actually wound up ending the stream with this gem. One of my prouder moments on the internet.

I was feeling like my appetite had finally returned to normal, but now I'm on a work trip and food is free and restaurants don't know what portion sizes are and I don't want to eat a goddamn thing because it's all going to be too much. Fucking Topamax.

I don't really think of myself as a wordsmith, despite being a published lyricist a few times. But I AM pretty proud of describing @jococruise.bsky.social as a place where "I revel in being surrounded by the joy of unrestrained diversity." (also proud to be quoted in their reels, lol)

The more I'm forced to use AI at work, the more I dread the inevitable consequences. It makes me not care about my code. Sure, the program works. But the code isn't going to be elegant, maintainable, readable, or any of the things that make code *good*. And nobody will notice until it's too late.

There's only one right answer. www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGzH...

New Shoes - Paolo Nutini Down On The Beat - Viktus & Ren Bled for Days - Static X Code Monkey - Jonathan Coulton Moar Ghosts 'N Stuff - Deadmau5 Duality - Slipknot Rascal King (Live) - Mighty Mighty Bosstones No Trouble - The Weepies Cheese - Stray Kids Fasten your Seatbelts - Pendulum

I can't believe I have to say this, but if you take the number 600 and reduce it to 10, there is absolutely no way to call that a 600% reduction. It's a 98.34% reduction. 98.34% of 600 is 590. To say otherwise is to be a fucking idiot that doesn't know what he's talking about.

A neat relevant fact is that the "ting!" alert noise on an Apple watch is the sound an empty Apple watch casing being hit with a xylophone mallet.

1. Get the kids addicted to free ChatGPT, by letting it do their homework for them. 2. The kids become adults, who don't know how to think, and are addicted to ChatGPT. 3. Start charging for ChatGPT.

I know a "moon hoax" guy. I finally figured out why it bothers me so much. It's because when faced with something he doesn't understand, he'd rather deny its reality than try to understand it. And also, have you SEEN an NRHO path? Holy shit that's cool! How can you choose to pretend that's fake?!

I am known to love technology and embrace the future. I always want the latest gadgets and coolest toys. The latest OS update is older than what I run. I still fucking hate AI and refuse to use it or integrate it into my daily workflow. Stupid clankers.

Today's wheel of emotions: - Excitement: moon flyby - Disgust: genocidal tweets - Apathy: work meetings I can feel myself emotionally disengaging from the world, nothing makes sense anymore. It's too insane to be attached to. Shrinking my sphere even more, it's just me and my loved ones now.

Also: There was a Canadian bear, The poor thing completely lacked hair. With winters so cold, NEVER GONNA GIVE YOU UP Oh shit, Limerick Rolled.

Some poems are good, Some poems are not, Because they don't rhyme, The way that they... imply.

Don't get me wrong, I fucking hate Austin's 300 days of summer. But mornings like this also remind me how much I fucking hate being cold. Why couldn't I just be happy living where it's 73 and sunny every day? Why did I have to leave that?

I usually bend over backwards to avoid confrontation. I hate the feeling of adrenaline and the fear that I'm making things worse. I've been confronted entirely too much this week. I'm running out of fucks, and it's kind of liberating. Consequences might suck though. Gonna have to wait and see.

Hahaha nevermind, irritability is a side effect of Topamax. Guess I just have to actively try to be more chill.

I probably had a lot to do this weekend. I did not do it, I played a stupid video game for hours on end. I didn't do it last weekend. Drove to and from my newly dead grandma's apartment instead. Probably won't do it next weekend either. Maybe I don't have a lot to do after all.

I will never miss an opportunity to repost one of my favorite jokes.

A strange twist that BlueSky, the most public of my online presences, feels the most void-screamy. Anyway, my grandma is dying in the next few days and I'm not looking forward to processing grief again. Fuckin' hate processing grief. Wish my short term "ignoring grief" strategy could work forever.

Me: "I don't get mad easily, I am a very calm and level headed person." Also me: *Regularly* loses his temper in team meetings with that one guy who's always condescending and disrespectful.

I'm actually a dirty liar, I'm only now getting around to doubling how much I pay @dropout.tv to upgrade to Superfan - I didn't have the energy to migrate my Apple subscription to a real one a month ago. But I'll be damned if Dropout Support isn't bending over backwards to help me do it today. <3

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I can feel the depression coming back, and I don't like it. Don't like that it's coming back, that I recognize it, that I can't point to a specific reason other than the general world being shitty... don't like it one bit.

I'm pretty proud of my little soldering project. It's literally a "learn soldering project," but it's been a hot minute since I learned a new skill. Coming up next, swapping the drifty joysticks in my PS5 controller. 😬

I've had a little plastic skull stuck to the top of my monitor for probably 25 years. Cat fucking ate it last night. I'm surprised by how smad I am. (I don't have proof he ate it. But he was upstairs fucking with my desk, it's gone, and I can't find it. Put two and two together.)

I didn't announce any resolutions this year, but I made a bunch of them. One was "no doomscrolling in bed." And then today I woke up to news that 45 bombed Venezuela and kidnapped their president? How am I supposed to casualscroll in the face of THAT? Fucking couldn't even make it three days

Everywhere we go. Turns out it's kind of nice to not get sick all the time, what a fucking concept. And it isn't even hard! I don't get why otherwise healthy and able adults are losing their minds over masking. #oneofthetwo #bothofthetwo

Ooh look what I found. Something to practice soldering on? Haha no, all the repairs I'm interested in don't involve soldering. Oops. Maybe I'll go find a Game Boy or Game Gear...

So, my migraine preventative, Topamax, is an appetite suppressant. Yay, I'm losing weight. But yikes, this probably isn't a healthy rate. I am obsessing a little over the scale numbers. I know this is potentially dangerous. But so is uncontrolled weight loss, so.. y'know. Potato potato.

I beat Hades (the boss, not the game) for the first time last night, attempt 36. No THC was involved. But an extremely lucky set of boons (Scintillating Feast) and Well of Charon perks (Braid of Atlas) were!

In an era where I'm canceling streaming services left and right because they're being shitty greedy shits.. I am also upgrading to @dropout.tv 's Superfan "An Optional Way To Give Us More Money" tier. Because they are like this.

I was super fired up about my project, I was loving it, I was a juggernaut of productivity and code. And now? I haven't written a single line in a week. Because management did something stupid and made me mad. It would be funny if I wasn't so frustrated about the whole thing.

First off, let me be clear that forming parasocial relationships with internet strangers is weird, don't do it. But yes, I also wish that I had more friends like Astrid. For example, my wife @valuemeal2.bsky.social and I wrote a song together about how fucking cool Pluto is. youtu.be/-COAemfP1YU

If you don't wake up at 3am thinking "I should get my friend a smudge pot so he can use waste oil to keep his mini split working in freezing weather," are you really even taking care of your friends? My OP brain can be just super dumb sometimes.

When I got this project at work, I immediately knew it was dangerous. Interesting, challenging, uniquely suited to my skill set... a perfect trap. I almost forgot to eat again today. But man.. I'm getting to flex at work, and total strangers are in awe of what I am doing. Feelsgoodman.

Huh. I uh.. completely forgot to eat today. Oops? However, I did manage to do two weeks' worth of work in about twelve straight hours, and .. enjoyed it? Whaaaat