My thoughts on the snap benefits being in jeopardy is that a lot of well meaning people have no real idea of what food insecurity is like. People don’t need your leftovers and warm meals right now — they need it in the middle to end of November. And they need more than one meal - money is needed.

I kinda of forgot about Bluesky for awhile because only 5 people repost the same stuff as on other platforms. Not much incentive to get original content or special content or whatever.

A precious haul

Someone stocked it today

Several times today I was convinced nit was Saturday. I am going to take it as a good sign that taking off Thursday induced that feeling. Maybe it will make the long weekend feel like a week. Happy Mitchell Red Cloud Jr Day!

Having one of those days where I wonder what I would be doing in alternate universes and where those key fork incidents would have been.

Treasure yesterday.

Wow. I have a senior and a junior now. The latter’s D’s are hanging on by a thread. Just gotta wait until Friday for the final results. Breathe in. Everything that could be done has been done.

Finally — the last day of school and now we wait with bated breath to see if she passes. Tomorrow I can start to recover and rest for the summer. What will I do? Not sure but apparently I should start referring to myself as a “creative,” and double down on writing.

Little free treasure offering today includes free Culver’s ice cream and a piggy bank with exotic coins.

It is the last Friday of school and there are still three more to go. Wtf. Kids are home today because one is sick and the other is sick of school. Actually we all are.

Now for all the rain. In other news, I got my little free treasure library up and it’s already got customers! Someone even put in some mixels- which was cool.

Sometimes I wish I was a chimes outside kinda person.

All your base are belong to us.

The thing that sucks about lunch being offered at academic functions is that now it is always a taco bar. It’s the cheapest thing that satisfies gluten free, vegetarian, lactose free people. And you gotta be accommodating.

I have a 504 meeting with the school this morning —5 weeks before the end of the semester.

Finally feel better. And there is no good creamer (sweet Italian cream) and I have to drink my coffee with sugar and milk like a commoner. The kid finally got D’s yesterday and realized how impossible it is to learn math without being in the class and there is little chance of that happening.

Being sick makes me crabby. I decided (and did) that anyone who posts that they are cleaning up their list (in this case on FB) and that it is “nothing personal” — gets immediately unfriended by me. You can’t fire me - I quit!

Ugh. Prom is tomorrow and graduation hoopla is next week and I think I got a cold. Wah :( — fingers crossed it’s “allergies.”

Daughter was denied the php program because they didn’t think she would be a good fit (too antisocial). Which makes me think those places are just for neurotypical kids that they know they might have a chance helping. Sigh.

Neighbor next door got some lumber delivered so now we are playing “what are they gonna do?”

The office Jasmine is blooming and the smell is incredible.

The vice prez is so toxic he killed the pope. Also always weird when it’s like right after or on Easter. Does this mean the jubilee is not happening?

I have to find a place to hide the teens Easter baskets. I remember when they were little I would just put them on the couch and hide it behind a pillow and it would take them hours to find it.

My newest life hack is a bit of cardamom in my coffee. Delicious.

It’s gonna be hilarious to see people of all ages sporting New Balance shoes.

About half way through watching how the Ghoul got to where he is. (Aka to Fallout from White Lotus)

I finally made it back to the office and am able to tcb on some computer stuff with the capable hands of IT. I am also grateful today — that attending meetings all day counts as meaningful work.

Just when I think it might be a tad better - Monday rolls around and I ask if she can try afternoon school. Just going to the building and it is a big fat NOPE - along with all the shitty things that depressed angry people say. So “rotting in bed” (her words) are the plan for the day.

Played trivia today and we won! My contribution was the answer The Harlem Globetrotters- based on my extensive knowledge of Scooby Doo

I now believe the school refusal is a direct result of ptsd from being autistic in a system that does not support that (aka primary school). Now we know, and next is turn that live wire response into a memory. Refile. Also, I wonder if residential boarding school trauma is residing in her genes.

Really crappy day with some ups and a lot of downs and just when I thought it couldn’t get worse the communists came (aka the red party …aka well you know.). I am so over perimenopause and the stupid patriarchy that allows this bullshit to continue. Metamorphosis shouldn’t have to be this crappy.

It’s world Autism recognition day. I wish I had known how autism presents differently in females earlier. Then maybe we would have been able to help daughter much sooner and maybe would have decreased rhe misery, depression, and anxiety that we struggle so hard with now.

Today is definitely a one hour at a time kinda day. Also I think what I dislike about most social media is that so many people just republish things, over and over and over. No original thoughts, insights or anything. Yes, I do miss the heyday of LJ and blogs.

Trying to have a cleaning day to at least have a house ready for Monday reality. I think I will just write a bullet list of …let’s say 25 things and call it good. Already have things like 1. Load and run dishwasher 2. Empty suitcases and put away. 3 go through collected mail — and it’s only 11

Been spring breaking and I don’t know if I am ready yet for the real world.

My honey did my taxes for me and helped my daughter file for the first time while I made scones! Hurray! And he did the FreeTaxUSA which was $14.99 versus the bloated TurboTax price of $118. Wow.

Thank goodness I have good neighbors with a garage and tv and while we are not watching anything we are still hanging out. I really needed a night out that was close to home. Things are tough.

I laughed way too hard at this! Geology jokes are the best!!!

In the Hoocąk way, when we’re born, we already have purpose. We don’t have to figure out who we are.

Probably shouldn’t have had that Red Bull at 6:00. But I like that pink version!

Sometimes I get so *mad* at my friends who have older or same age kids that are going through seriously difficult times with their severely depressed anxious teens and kids and not talking about it. This is so fucking isolating and hard.

Ugh. Severance. It’s brutal watching this pretentious, film student crap. It’s weird now for weird’s sake. I finally broke down and read internet theories and will watch the finale - but only so I might finally severe this relationship.

Took a Sunday afternoon caffeine nap and it was nice.

Needed a serious reset — so I find myself at a video rewind night at the local club. They show the video while playing the music loud.

I got caught in Wiiha's storm. I managed to get her to school today but who knows for how long. I got another medication yesterday that might help with acute anxiety attacks, so fingers crossed. I hate that she hates school so much and that we are knocking on the door of school refusal.

I bought myself AstroBot and deleted Cyberpunk 2077 because - well I don’t want that level of grit and human deprivation right now. I am happy with my decision.

Amazing - Wiiha got into the STEM program for attending the local community college for her junior and senior year. Hopefully the smaller class size, more independent and less crazy environment will help her finish school.

Couple shots of the Wisconsin Stand Up for Science rally.