i just have to accept that no one really wants me and just. live with that

can't have your cake and eat it too. in fact turns out there's no cake

paying to Bacchios and King Asmodeus

I think lesbians should get more annoying and mean

adrenaline junkie fr i love being wild and free

for clarification

you have to watch Xena: Warrior Princess for the plot (self insert lesbianism)

i think i have a gf but not exclusive now i may end up with more this weekend idk wtf is happening with the planets rn???

oh right it’s a full moon no wonder i’ve been thinking about Women all day

under my dictatorship we build pantheons for lesbian priestesses with large statues of transfems

its bpd awareness month, so to all my fellow bpd warriors; you are not a burden. you are not evil. you deserve love just as much as everyone else. feeling things so deeply every second of the day can be very mentally draining and its okay to take time to re charge. you got this. ily. 🦇

i was talking about how sm lesbians LOVE all my lip piercings esp the long spiky ones but men hate them and my cousin said its bc men don't care what women like LMFAO

lesbians want me, men fear me. as it should be

i need to stop sharing trauma bs

gotta catch up on sleep on the train bc i don't think I'll get much sleep tonight

i hate being bipolar sm its so exhausting

gonna throw caution to the wind and try regardless because why not live my dreams even if they're fantasy if we're gonna die anyways

yeah

i bet these modern helpols haven't ever read the arguments between Iamblichus and Porphyry

got chiron and venus together there too fuck

this Scorpio full moon really kicking my 8h stellium ass

weed helps a bit but not much

i don't have a reason to stay sober anymore ive been fighting for a while. don't say myself bc that doesn't work please

im stupid for thinking it could be anything more than what it is

people see me now in my nice home my nice life without knowing just 2 winters ago I'd been living out of shitty motels and trailers with no doors, sleeping under fucking bridges high enough to not care. i feel like that's what i was made for. not this. never this.

"it is what it is" i say until i spiral into madness

whatever until I'm in the ground

i don't deserve soft things i wasn't made for softness i don't know what to do with this now

people think im dramatic but the few people who do know, know im under reacting

whatever it doesn't matter anyways. it'll always end the same, and you have to just live with it

i hate that my body has only ever been through torture and assault and sickness and abuse and so much fucking pain i can't stand it. the way they kissed me. that was the first time anyone has been so...

no one wants anything more from me, not even sex. they take a look at me and only see what they want to see, but the moment they get to know me it's over.

why did i think i could ever have something so nice i feel so naive

i understand why my sister slit her throat i fight the same urge constantly

the worst part is so many people want to be with me and only two in ten years have actually tried the slightest. it's not even hard. all i wanted was for someone to try to scratch past the surface even just a little

i need to kill this rotten fucking disgusting thing inside me before it kills me

i wish i could delete all socials. i just. i never wanted to be here you know. i

i wish i wanted to live most days

no one's ever had passion like that for me before and nothing deeper. i feel like i was only made to be enjoyed on the surface but too deep and its too much

I'm a switch (sadistic/masochistic)

I detest travelling in darkness, for then I cannot see, but fall upside down; I go forth today that I may bring justice, for it is with me, and I will not be given over to your flame, you gods. (PTF)

i can't talk about it and it's killing me

i fear i will always be locked in that cage with only the comfort of the inevitably of time to care for me

that was thr first time i had ever been touched so softly and passionately and i think it ruined me

women in STEM 😍

it's like my brain won't let me feel close or happy with anyone. not just like i don't deserve it but more that it couldn't ever be for me. like i wasn't made to hold onto good things so i have to brace myself for inevitable pain

what tf is in the air why did 5 people ask me out tomorrow

it tastes like something i was never meant to have

i fear I've become that meme from mean girls where i can hear myself annoying all my friends by talking about it over and over again but i literally can't stop

but what if i want to be consumed do i still need to fear the fall