Always the people who found it easiest to say they want me to “be happy” have been the ones who have done the most to ensure the opposite result.

My greatest fear is ever being caught being that kind of inept deadweight burden on other people. My aspiration is to be the kind of effective and helpful person who people can sincerely say they benefit from having around. That is why I think and learn and pay attention and strive to improve.

Tried to get a thing done early today and for that good deed had my time wasted for 4 hours through inexplicable technical trouble and the incompetence of every individual employed with fixing it 😳

What has always marked me exceptional is that I do not need to Personally Want To Do Well at something or have any Self-Serving Goal or Motivation in order to care enough to put in the bare minimum effort to do what I see as Necessary.

Rule that always seems to apply to almost everything I do in life is that the more Effort I put in for the sake of Doing Well at something, the worse I do at it vs when I tackle things using my baseline intuition and ability and minimal intentional effort...I do exceptionally well.

Today's special meal was barley rice bibimbap...I love barley rice 🥰

Time to post it again.

The solution was to start recognizing and rejecting shiny distractions for what they are: worthless, poisonous, weakening, demoralizing, never delivering any real satisfaction, providing the fleeting illusion and conviction of joy but never improving my life in any real way.

Spending every day working, eating, working out, reading, studying... 🥣🐻📖

Was at fancy KR restaurant that provides unlimited refills on side dishes & special rice in a big bowl to scoop into a smaller serving bowl by end of meal (many refills later) I had the big bowl on my lap digging up every last grain of rice…made service staff laugh asking if I’d like more rice 😅

Making major overhauls on the Siren’s story… Kind of a headache because I want to keep most of the established plot framework intact, but need to restructure the World and systems within the story, and entirely change the backgrounds of a couple of major characters—particularly the protagonist.

Strawberries & cream croissant sandwich 🥰🍓🥐

Now on my way to work out 💪🏾🐻

On my way to practice forgetfulness again 😠💞 menu undecided

Generally my reaction on taking a bite of something that would be averagely sweet to a western person

Was sleep deprived and mildly suffering today but getting some (unsweetened) hot chocolate with coconut milk cardamom and pumpkin spice + a chocolate covered chocolate madeleine in me made everything good again ☕️🍫

Realized the degree to which food has taken over as my dominant interest in life can be explained by I'm doing what She's doing.

Realized the degree to which food has taken over as my dominant interest in life can be explained by I'm doing what She's doing.

I went and tried a zaru soba in a KR soba restaurant for the first time in many years, and it was a little sweet but not Excessively sweet 😭 They also said if I come at less busy times they can specially make unsweetened tsuyu for me 🥺💓

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When I find a single place in Korea that does zaru soba but doesn’t make the tsuyu disgustingly sweet (it’s not supposed to be sweet at all) I will finally know peace

Between Factory and Worldbuilder. I have easily hundreds of characters and they all belong to complete narratives (at least 12 different complete-plot narratives that I can recall without effort) within different expansive, fleshed-out worlds, each with their own world logic.

Between Factory and Worldbuilder. I have easily hundreds of characters and they all belong to complete narratives (at least 12 different complete-plot narratives that I can recall without effort) within different expansive, fleshed-out worlds, each with their own world logic.

Lemon cream cake…🍋

서틴 이메레스🐙 사실 셋 다 아무 생각없을거같늠 ㅋㅋ

More happy and gratified every day with the profound improvements to physique, skin, and general sense of well-being I've been experiencing.

🧁🐠💕

Always get every iteration of Sherlock Holmes on the list, but “Elementary” Holmes is always highest: youtu.be/Se2MiSCTDZM

Take the fictional characters quiz and post the first four you know: openpsychometrics.org/tests/charac... Theme is less discernible this time around.

I've seen some vocally anti-AI people recently make an anti-AI post and be surprised there are still pro-AI people following them, and I can explain this; most pro-AI people think they are somehow the exception. the way THEY are using it, SURELY you would take no issue! well, we do. so fuck off.

Take the fictional characters quiz and post the first four you know: openpsychometrics.org/tests/charac... Theme is less discernible this time around.

New character!! I made an albino drow fashion model. Her name is Cici and sunlight is her worst enemy. #oc #art

Unrelated to anything:

You’re right—expecting a couple of grown adults to be able to communicate frankly to come to any kind of understanding about serious personal conflict is Just Asking Too Much.

If other people can be viewed as “kind” and “good” while never taking responsibility for anything and never apologizing for anything and ignoring every ethical criticism hoping people will just get tired of communicating and forget about it why should I act any different?

Sometimes it happens that I apologize to a person because I genuinely erred on something but after the relationship recovers I increasingly wish I HADN’T handled it that well—because they are very irritating and more burdensome than their worth.

Thinking about this amazing rose I smelled in somebody’s garden…

My hobby is taking walks in flower and tree-rich areas sniffing and taking pictures of wildflowers and other people’s gardens and prize roses

Thinking about this amazing rose I smelled in somebody’s garden…

just her ❤️‍🩹 #lapinoc

Killing blow came from those two monsters with their clumsy narrative justifying being a zero-effort piece of shit where people should just be naturally gifted masters at things with no effort, or else be content with their lot and depend on others to save them and compensate for their failings.

While demonizing people who work hard to do better for themselves, portraying all of them as stupid, misguided, ridiculous, irrational. Faux-egalitarian bullshit that ridicules and alienates the people who have never been able to take comfort and ease for granted,

who have never just had anything Magically Work Out for them just by “being Nice,” from whom Excellence is not some unnecessary gratuitous pursuit they seek for the sake of narcissistic pride when they can just live happily without it—

For many of us it’s the bare fucking minimum requirement we’re obligated to attain to access any basic respect, safety and stability in a world that is actively hostile to us and always will be. Where we are guaranteed Nothing, can expect to rely on No One.

But they’re not interested in hearing about that—they don’t care. To White people Left OR Right their OWN perspective is always supreme—the only one that truly matters—and everyone else’s is trivial and unwarranted and ridiculous.

It's always the most evil and monstrous people on earth who live most blissfully oblivious to the damage they cause. You think evil people go around cackling and rubbing their hands like "I'm going to be SO evil, I'm going to hurt SO many people"?

People who do evil think they're driven by moral and righteous causes. Every asshole thinks they're Dumbo and not his tormentors. Every monster thinks they're the hero. They are convinced everything they do is basically justified—that the people they hurt are just necessary casualties of doing good

or they believe that they didn't actually hurt anyone that bad and those people who say they did are ridiculous and unfair. That is why you can never get rid of evil. All the evil people believe they are the good guys. All the monsters portray themselves as the heroes and they genuinely BELIEVE it.

I want tteokbokki...can't remember the last time I had proper tteokbokki

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