I was once described by a virulent zionist as "famously, the only tumblr tankie with a job" which, while a fucked up thing to say, is really funny to me. imagine if anyone knew where I worked.

I don't really have a marketing team or anything, and social media has been cataclysmic for my psyche, so word of mouth is a huge help for me. here's the title poem. pulling punches is against my artistic code of conduct. trans is potent and trans is revolutionary.

unfortunately my second book launched immediately before I was sent to the mental hospital which means I wasn't really able to follow up on giving it momentum. if you've connected with my poetry, especially my trans poetry, consider picking up my newest collection!

I make AMVs btw... if you even care... b-baka...

nobody has clicked on my frankly *criminally* underpriced MTG EDH deck listings on FB Marketplace. this as a definitive indicator that we are in a recession. if magic the gathering players don't have a few hundred dollars to impulse drop on a ridiculously "cheap" EDH deck are we even a real country?

"Fuckass" is actually a JADE HARLEY word FAR MORE than it is a Karkat Vantas word and you would KNOW THAT if you READ THE FFFUCKI-

meme I made in 2022

a lot of things about my life made a lot more sense after I got diagnosed with a schizospectrum disorder

the world needs more hackish zines about American nostalgia. it's absolutely critical that you make a hackish, self-important zine about American nostalgia for the 1990s. this is the only thing that can save humanity. listen to me. I'm an angel and I'm talking to you through the walls.

As the kids say, “it’s fuckin peak”

after intensive outpatient therapy I can unfortunately conclude: 1) they were definitely on to something with the whole Mindfulness thing 2) being blindingly angry all the time in fact sucks for everyone involved and is actually terrible despite what you may have told yourself for decades

sunrise addicts will be like "bro did you see the sunrise today it was beautiful" and "just one more sunrise bro" and "you should come with me to go for a walk in the sunrise it's such a mindful experience" (I'm sunrise addicts)

tgirl named lacy (short for "laceration")

astronomical twilight: underrated experience

Worship intellectual property less. Decolonize your mind, you pathetic petit bourgeois aspirationalist.

i think if you make a video game and you feel the need to put in the Mysterious Ancient Temple That Is Completely Abstracted From The Social Role Of A Temple for no fucking reason you need to be smacked. it's a tired, dried up settler colonial trope and it serves no purpose but it's everywhere.

If you haven't read my article about the gender ternary yet, you should give it a go.

none of you people seem to really understand what the shit with carney and china entails like. at all. think critically!!!

the one thing i miss tumblr for is that people on there would sometimes understand what IFHYP was about. imagine putting that shit out on bluesky. HA. can you imagine. I'd be gutted alive.

I'm making cutting edge work in a different subpersona but I can't publish it here because I'll be eaten alive by reactionary fools who fancy themselves progressive crusaders. however just know it's out there somewhere.

<It is an act of love to say, comrade, chin up, there is still hope, and you are better than this.> <I love you.> <There is still hope.> <The future comes hither unchallenged.> <Come, let us face it with claw and fang.> <Let us break this future into one which you would give to your children.>

I DON’T WANT TO DIE WITHOUT EVER HAVING WORN A DRESS I DON’T WANT TO DIE WITHOUT HAVING BEEN TOUCHED WITH KINDNESS I DON’T WANT TO DIE WITHOUT HAVING EATEN A GOOD BAGEL I DON’T WANT TO DIE WITHOUT HAVING KEPT A REAL PROMISE GROWN WITH MY OWN CALLOUSED HANDS REGRETS by NORA HIKARI

I think maybe girl is inevitable. If a sufficient force of repression is applied to separate a girl from her body, another girl and another body will manifest in the empty space. On a reflective plane the girl facing me speaks: not-girl is a kind of metastable.

The catty decade-transitioned doll impulse to just go “don’t be a fucking pussy about it” when a girl is waffling about the pros & cons of transition. “What if I regret it? What if people treat me differently?” You won’t regret and people will treat you worse. So? Are you gonna be a pussy about it?

"Just fucking transition already" in all its forms is necessary counterculture to the endless fucking eggslop that litters the trans internet. "When you wish you were a–" you are one. Transition about it. Quit romanticising the closet.

A gender ternary analysis of Ke$ha’s JOYRIDE

Lots of white people would learn the words “sinophobia” and “orientalism” for the first time probably

[THE FUTURE IS DARK. LET US LIGHT THE WAY WITH THE BURNING DOWN OF THE OLD ORDER USING THE FLAMES OF OUR FUNERAL PYRES. LET'S BURST LIKE FUCKING STARS.] www.gameoverbooks.com/store/p/the-...

I don't think imperialism is bad because it eventually hurts the citizens of the imperial core. it's a stunning proposition, I know, but perhaps we should consider that other people outside of the Core are also human beings.

idk personally I think it's in extremely poor taste to attempt to harvest engagement for your writersona off of a woman being murdered by fascists. if it were me I would simply not do that.

Good heavens, clench your teeth, or something

[visibly sweating] hahaha… well if you were a real man, you’d wear this maid outfit with thigh highs and garters to prove it. and whimper really loud while I bite you . .. . you know, to prove how tough you are…. hold still

guys who try to look hard while wearing rick sanchez hoodies or demon slayer or whatever are so funny to me. like thats a shirt of your favorite cartoon character looking hard. spongebob squarepants playing basketball graphic tee ass outfit.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the annoying orientalists, against the white girls named lain and "LCL" from evangelion, against the white boys named komaeda and deku, against the guys in a "Chinese time in their life", against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.

my tinfoil hat conspiracy is that the reason both the PRC and the US are locked in a process of dumping massive resources into AI tech, and why the PRC is specifically going about it in a kind of bubble-popping-economic-warfare way, is that AI isn't for anything advertised. it's for cyberweapons.

finally picked up my ng+2 Elden ring char again after 12 halting attempts at new ng runs for the past 2 years. I love you level 218 dex/arcane gross girl build... I missed you... I missed my inventory full of everything I could possibly need... let's become the lord of frenzied flame together....

"these SS troopers aren't sufficiently trained against violent excess. why, they might be a danger to even a legitimate member of the ubermensch! can you fucking imagine??" boy, what the fuck do you think ICE agents are *for*? the entire apparatus must be overturned and destroyed. USA DELENDA EST.

I've been up to making vocaloid covers again

I’ve been on medical leave for two months and today is my first day back at work. Wish me luck.

People tell me every now and again that they talk about the gender ternary with their friends. If you google “Sizhens football” it’ll offer you an AI summary of a post I made about how football is a bloodsport. Uhhh… I did a bit with an ex about pretending she dumped me for hating D&D that got big.

I miss when twitter wasn’t awful (delusional)

I dont believe in an essential gender or sexuality and I think there was a like solid 45% chance that instead of ending up as a transgender lesbian, I made like 2 different choices in high school and grew up to be a gym rat gayboy who cites Foucault at the function & has a meticulously groomed beard

I think that meeting my wife on Twitter because I posted so good means I’ve officially won at posting on like a spiritual level.

This website kind of smells like a 2015 Barnes and Noble crossed with an NPR bumper sticker…

Things you say when your doll friend got done absolutely fucking foul by her vaginoplastist

Got too high on an edible and when I went back to IOP the next day I was still kind of high and had to navigate being in Group Therapy while high. Nightmare. The words “reincarnated Maoist guerrilla” and “the unjust political oppression of furries” were said.

Discussing with my wife the distinction in feeling between describing AI content as “slop” vs “sludge.” “I feel like slop implies a kind of chunky, unfiltered, pre-digested shape. Like the accumulated semi-liquid part of trash. AI sludge is a concentrated, distilled, homogenous, cultural byproduct.”

Undergoing an aggressive metamorphosis (trying to translating being a Prolific Poster to just journaling my thoughts privately)