I’m mostly moved in now but awful things just keep happening and keep piling up. every day I wake up and hope it’ll be a good day and each day I’m wrong. I started a gfm but there’s been 0 donations so far. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do.

as you probably all know I’ve been having a rough time of it lately and many of my problems have been financial. I want to have good days ahead and get things together, so to help with that I’m starting a gfm to help with recent bills.

final fantasy games always make me feel meditative and inteosoective

I’ve been walking around outside

lost my job on Monday. had to leave my old place on Wednesday. stayed with a very kind local from tumblr. moved into a new apartment today. I have no income and am in financial ruin. I’m terrified. might start a gfm soon but I hate how much a leech I am and idk if it’ll work.

please help her things are bad

I will endure.

happy Mother’s Day on.soundcloud.com/vU7bPMTUsa9g...

last Scott the woz estrogen injection in this apartment before my lease is up. don’t know where I’ll be for the next one but at least I know I’ll be somewhere. but I just feel so scared and awful. I just wanna die. I hate all of this.

thinking about this again. 10 more “best” songs black kray - daydre4m beach boys - surfs up bloc party - this modern love Bladee - deletee Ecco2k - peroxide the Veronica’s - untouched hixxy - more & more Alice deejay - better off alone fftl - populace in two ismfof - things that rhyme with orange

I am in one of the most frightening periods of my life. my lease is up on the 13th. I have no apartment cuz I don’t get my second paycheck until Wednesday. Haven’t even packed but I don’t have boxes and everywhere I go has none. Scott the woz estrogen injection.

play that haunting music, white boy

no particular order the postal service - such great heights lil b - I’m god 100 gecs - 745 sticky black kray - princess cuts mah wrist csh - famous prophets prince - I could never take the place of your man SOPHIE - is it cold in the water the microphones - the moon

life or death for bunny girl

somehow got a job as a janitor in an apartment building that I started on Wednesday. the process of getting it was honestly really deceptive and coercive and I doubt it will last. but for now I have a job, I’m off for the weekend, and I’m injecting my estrogen with Scott the woz

he’s watching the simpsons

I was a tryhard 12 year old that somehow found switchblade symphony through watching goth fashion/vlogging YouTubers (mostly kazlovesbats) and got fixated on the song butterfly

caught his ass

xitter rly liked this snippet from a recent demo, I hope u all enjoy it too

things are really fucking bad. I don’t know how I’m going to survive. I’m scared all the time. injecting my estrogen again with Scott the woz

:(

for some reason the electricity went out in my apartment and only my apartment. the entire rest of the building is fine. management still hasn’t sent maintenance to fix it. REALLY hoping it gets done by the end of today.

have you seen this beautiful young man?

still no job. only can be in this apartment until the end of the month and nowhere to go afterwards. everything that could’ve gone wrong today went wrong but at least I got my estrogen to inject with Scott the woz

how do ppl be social when they’re around strangers how is that even possible

so rather than throwing out the old nearly empty vial I accidentally threw out my brand new vial of estrogen last week and only realized it today. barely squeezed out 2ml from this vial for my estrogen injection with Scott the woz today. things are going really bad for me lately.

I need to get a group together and watch the 1991 super mario bros movie

younger oomfs have u watched the melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya ?

no matter what happens tomorrow I rly do hope that I get out of the house and do something that pulls me out of the death spiral. at least for a little bit.

had some old guy shout out his truck calling me a fag as he drove past me walking down the street and then later some lady leaned out her car and shouted something about god at me. bad day to be me I guess.

I am teaching my army of zoomers to do the “hare hare yukai” dance and they keep asking if it’s from a “diddyblud anime”. I hate them so much.

maybe I’ll finally mod my 3DS

not to be all “thing, Japan” but fuck this album is good

where is John Money I just wanna talk I swear

it’s worth noting that the average podcaster / journalist / media personality is usually somebody whose pretty well off financially and generally lives in a completely different world from their readers / listeners / etc

we can’t seem to fit together cuz our hearts don’t match 💞❤️‍🩹 u can’t put me back together cuz my parts don’t match 💔💔

pitched up vocals in the big 26

FEET

had a very nice estrogen injection today with Scott the woz and the AVGN! it’s still a pretty difficult and scary time for me financially and wrt housing but I hope things work out ok for me.

walking around in all black with boots with all the straps and zippers and a big army jacket and then I open my mouth and I sound like fluttershy

I am rather enjoying this frank zappa album

the high just won’t go down

found this controller with him in his bed. is he a gamer?

very rough week. my roommate moved out and my work assignment was ended early so I’m out of a job for the time being. still gotta do my weekly injection, and still gotta do it with Scott the woz.

whyyy is it so hard to find shoes my size at thrift stores T~T

I’ve been revisiting blank banshee a bit lately and I’m a bit surprised at how well those first two albums have aged. they might even sound better to my contemporary ears than they did back at the time of their release

the sadness of endings. the fear and uncertainty of change.

learning a reed instrument and now I get why Dizzy Gillespie’s cheeks Did That

lost my job today but hey now I can paint my nails again !