sj trying to get lqg to leave him alone and accidently revealing that his shizun on qing jing sexually abused him bc he thought lqg knew already, thought almost everyone knew and that's part of why people didnt like him.

shen jiu as the sickly little brother between him and sy

yqy affected by an aphrodisiac poison while on a mission with sj. hard against sj's ass murmuring adoring nonsense into sj's ear and sj IS having some sort of trauma response about it.

wanted to draw tonight but i feel a bit rusty so i don't think i'll be able to draw what i want to but here is a half dressed shen jiu. i HAVE been oiling him up in my head recently. demolishing that twink in my minds eye.

Posted a new fic. It's going to be Mon-Wed-Fri updates for the next month. We're talking heavy Shen Jiu angst and some very messy relationships. archiveofourown.org/works/801456...

This fic is done now btw and it’s 30k words. Will be posting soon.

Xiu Ya being able to tell the difference instantly because Shen Jiu has really high support needs and relies on his sword for qi regulation and to stop spiraling thoughts while Shen Yuan is just normal.

Mu Qingfang looks at him with the sort of gentle expression that Shen Jiu knows will never be genuinely meant for him and says, “Do you think that maybe what happened to you in the past is affecting how you see things now?” “No,” Shen Jiu says. “It was nothing. Nothing happened to me.”

Shen Yuan transmigrating into a world with Shen Jiu still in it (as an NPC Peak Lord or something) and figuring that something isn’t quite right with him. Shen Jiu isn’t just an asshole, he’s hard to get along with on purpose. He’s hiding something.

Fanfiction doesn’t exist to be “good” it exists because something went horribly wrong with you while you were watching a tv show and you’re gripped by madness

It's funny writing fic about a Chinese series written in Chinese set entirely in fantasy China as a non-Chinese American because like, the characters are speaking Chinese but also they aren't. They are familiar with the Chinese cultural landscape but also I'm an American writing for Anglophones.

Time travel au where sj wakes up in the past with his memories from pidw but he's a disciple and Extra traumatized and starts clinging to yqy 24/7

I’m attempting to Mewgenics-pill the server. So far no takers, perhaps because it’s called Mewgenics and I look insane talking about it.

Love that the way to tell Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan apart is which one looks fucking miserable.

Shen Jiu having a ton of completely unprocessed shit going on in his head. He understands that his past was worse than normal but also doesn’t really understand it. So he doesn’t know the boundaries for things like physical discipline or expecting too much out of his disciples.

shen jiu to me is someone who doesn't really think himself capable of being truly independent i think

Shen Jiu being the absolute worst as a teacher because he 100% lives vicariously through his disciples (well, the ones he actually tolerates) and expects them to work just as hard as he did at their age. Never mind the fact that he kinda destroyed him doing that…

I think an important part of Shen Jiu’s character is that he is Miserable. He does horrible things but he doesn’t enjoy them because he doesn’t seem to enjoy much of anything. The closest he gets to happy is when he’s being comforted by women. And is that really happpiness or just need?

head full... of foxjiu....... 🦊9⃣

Anyone want a list of my bizarre Shen Jiu headcanons?

Deeply codependent qijiu where Shen Jiu just doesn’t eat or sleep without Yue Qingyuan being there for him. He’s too paranoid and just plain scared alone. But nobody would poison Yue Qingyuan or sneak into his bedroom to hurt him so it’s safe to eat his food and sleep in his bed.

What if Xiu Ya was the sword that Shen Jiu used to kill Qiu Jianluo and it became more than just ordinary metal because his qi was going completely wild during the massacre.

Apparently people still send spam faxes in the year 2026. And they go to public libraries for some reason.

Shentwins where they go through the Qiu manor together and then join the sect and Shen Yuan is able to make friends and work through his trauma and be happy and Shen Jiu just can’t. He’s always going to be living with the aftermath of what happened.

drew it... when he gets little they feed him sweets and play dress up and do his hair...

unfortunately i think he'd be very vulnerable to this sort of thing... he is in danger...

don't worry, you're supposed to bleed the first time

he can't maintain inedia when he's little so qi-ge feeds him and then he's only happy when qi-ge eats too.

disciples yue qingyuan and shen jiu go on a mission to promote peak unity and shen jiu gets injured.

suffer does the wolf crawling to thee

pretty boys

practice wedding

sketching that sy gets a baby scum villain to raise thing i've been talking about. wanna draw something more but i gotta work up to it so just messy sketches for now

a new girl at the wrp deciding that this pretty well spoken cultivator who is nice to them is Going To Take Her As A Wife and does not get what she wants. her efforts at attempting to seduce sj just get her a lapful traumatized man every night.

modern qijiu au where yqy was adopted by a wealthy family and sj was a runaway picked up by his abusive boyfriend wyz when he was 15

disciple sj who is so angry at yqy and snaps at him constantly but still wants him to Do Something. has dreams about yqy kissing him, touching him, forcing him, and is ashamed of himself about it.

Shen Yuan transmigrates as an NPC Peak Lord and goes to his first meeting expecting Shen Qingqiu to say some sinister vizier shit only to met with “Sect Leader, An Ding cut my budget AGAIN! Make them fix it!” in the most whiny tone he’s ever heard.

Shen Jiu age regression but nobody notices when it happens because it just makes him very quiet and obedient.

Something very interesting about AI: I’m into a niche kink that is basically SFW and not at all gender specific and there are a lot of videos on YouTube. Predictably, the search results are now flooded with AI. Except the AI videos are all of women. It’s still very easy to find real videos of men.

“Does it ever get any better?” In his dream, Shen Jiu sees a back alley in a city he doesn’t remember the name of. A boy who looks no older than ten, but he knows is closer to twelve, looks up at him from where he sits against the wall, a wooden bowl in his hands.

Shen Jiu likes to pretend like he’s a statue, that his body is impervious and nothing that happens outside will ever sneak its way in. Fire consumes wood and paper but stone will always remain, covered in soot on the outside and still the same on the inside.

The CVS phone robot is my enemy.

A commission for some disciple era liujiu :> #svsss #liujiu #SPart

Currently working on a new fic where Shen Yuan transmigrates as Shen Jiu’s baby and… uh… it’s in the Qiu manor so things are bad.

Completely unrelated to my usual stuff but top surgery really was the best choice I ever made and I’m so lucky it was available to me and I love my parents so much for paying for it and being there with me every step of the way.

if i didn't draw something for myself i was going to bite someone so here is a very boring shentwins/ scumcum/ whatever ‣ #art #svsss #jiuyuan

When Luo Binghe finally allows Shen Jiu to die, it’s a mercy. And then he opens his eyes to a familiar bedroom, barely more than a closet, in the servants’ quarters of the Qiu manor. This time, he’ll do it right. This time, he’ll wait.

In the end, Shen Qingqiu tells her some herbs to make into tea and when Luo Binghe does the inevitable, she doesn't get pregnant. It does feel like how her shizun described, like something essential has been cut out of her insides with a jagged knife. But pretending helps.

Ning Yingying can’t argue with that. Nobody likes her shizun except for her. He’s a hard man to like. But everybody likes Luo Binghe, even now. “He’s not the boy I knew,” she says. Shen Qingqiu tilts his head and looks at her with interest. “He isn’t? I knew what he was from the beginning.”

Gonna finally bite the bullet and make a non-fandom, mostly library stuff account so normal people have a place to follow me without being spammed with noncon. If you all promise to be good, I’ll tell you about it.