enjoy it when authors insert being used as a cauldron into sj's tragic backstory. love making his life worse in my head

disciple sj who is so angry at yqy and snaps at him constantly but still wants him to Do Something. has dreams about yqy kissing him, touching him, forcing him, and is ashamed of himself about it.

Yqy should nake sj cry i think it'd be cathartic for them

I feel like a grey blob

yqy spanking sj with his own fan

sj humping a pillow to get off bc he doesn't like touching himself

yqy wearing more casual clothes and the collar is a bit looser then his formal wear and his chest hair peeks through and sj keeps staring and staring and staring and--

was playing with my dog and likes when you run with her but she got under my feet and i fell hard and something in my shoulder popped, i can still move it around but it's getting really sore

yqy often puts a guiding hand on the small of sj's back and his hand spans it's entire width. it makes them both horny and neither of them say anything about it.

Got a little scratch in my enameled dutch oven and its probably fine but i feel awful about it. I only use wood utensils in it and i try to be gentle. One handle is chipped bc we dont have a lot of storage space and it gets hit sometimes when we're putting stuff away

ballet au would work really well for shen jiu. body breaking determination to be at the top of his field, exploitation in the profession, etc etc

Sj prefers "simple" food (minimalist, refined. Good for a sensitive stomach) and yqy prefers "simple" foods (common, nothing fancy or complicated)

Sj should have a greenhouse i think

visualizing toddler sj all bundled up with a little fur lined vest held aloft in yqy's big arms.

sj arching into yqy's hands like a needy affection starved cat, he enjoys taking advantage of this response whenever possible

yqy finally convincing sj to sit on his face and he's boney and feather light and yqy has never been happier

Got an ask on tumblr about yqy de aging to just pre xuan su and i keep thinking about it.

Love aus where sj has a really close relationship with the women at the warm red pavillion. In my head im always thinking he probably has more in common with them than he does most of his peers.

Qijiu making up and getting together and using the wrp as a honeymoon hotel. No one really registers the fact that sj and yqy disappeared together, just that yqy has been seen going in and out of the wrp and seems friendly with the girls there.

wish i could animate. the way sj moves in my head is so moe

Need a qijiu love triangle but not with binghe or a peak lord. An older brother slave that sj finds while out on a mission who he barely remembers but immediately recognizes him as that cute baby xiao qi got all possessive over. Sj is immediately taken with him and brings him back to his peak

I dont think i can stand the thought of yqy ending up with anyone other then sj, its too upsetting to me

sj gets de-aged to a toddler, yqy reacts well and is very normal about it

qijiu making up and everyone learning very quickly that yqy never really had a problem with sj's sour attitude, just that it was directed at him

I have been feeling awful for a little bit just sad all the time. Cant read qijiu fics bc those tend to be sad and put ne in a worse mood lmao

Typically I don't really like found family stuff but with qijiu i think its different bc its canon so they dont have the weird fandom baggage that comes with "found family" head canons and also they're Weird about it

Sj doesn't let himself cry, but i also think it would be hard for yqy to let himself cry.

lets play truth or dare

witchy

Doing thanksgiving prep and my back hurts. I gave myself a Job on my day off

I just think sj wants to be treated gently and taken care of and i think yqy should crush him up in a little ball in his hands to achieve that

sj manicure is medium almonds, perfect cuticles, sheer pink polish with a matching pedicure

fetishizing the idea of sj looking like he's in his early-mid 20's and yqy who looks like he's 40

mmmmmm i need yqy to feel deeply paternal for sj and then i need them to fuck about it.

I need to get sj high i think

sj has the same beauty and charm as a victorian maiden slowly dying of consumption i think

i think of sj as someone who had a general aesthetic appreciation for art but would think of most of his early study on qing jing as being pretentious rich people bull that they only use to show how much more ~cultured~ they are, until he finds works that really speak to him emotionally

sj, despite everything, still wants yqy to compliment/pay attention to/be proud of him and i want to see yqy leverage that against him

Sj putting on a cutesy or slightly childish affect when he wants to seduce yqy and it works unreasonably well

Trying to figure out the mindset of a guy who does nothing but enable sj, asks him if he regrets it when hes locked up in prison, then uses his torture to commit suicide.

still very happy with my sj and yqy designs. yqy being very masculine and.... virile. sj an ethereally beautiful scrap of a man. i've always found that sort of contrast very fun

you can watch but you can't touch

one of disciple sj's shijies went on a mission with yqy and they were affected by a minor magic aphrodisiac so sj has to hear people whispering and gossiping about what a gentleman yqy is, how considerate and giving, how /big/ he is!! and he feels like he's going to explode.

Yqy kind of has big virgin energy but considering the setting i think he's probably fucked at least a little. There's are a lot of talk about his prodigious size.

Sj gets hit with one of the dangerous aphrodisiac plants in pidw and he refuses all treatment. Mqf eventually heads to yqy and says "look, i don't want to force him, but at this rate he is going to die. Please talk to him."

yqy going to visit sj after he's had a qi-deviation and he's sitting in his bed, pale and thin like a sickly victorian maiden, glaring at him when he walks through the door and the only thing he can think is it's the most beautiful he's ever looked.

Anyway yqy should get to go ape shit. Waking up in the ling xi caves, with memories from the pidw timeline, even more intertwined with his sword then before. Remembers how it felt to slide down sj's throat, slicing him open from the inside.

Yqy but theres something possesive in the way he says "xiao-jiu". An implied "my". "My xiao-jiu". Shen jiu doesnt know if he hates it as much as he should.

disciple shen jiu being abused and taken advantage of by a woman...

how fucked up would sj have to be to arch his back and spread his legs on purpose...