I'm starting to get the impression that people who complain about toxic positivity don't know what it actually is. Especially when the source of the conflict is over a minor cut in line over a card game which they immediately apologized for. All the problems in the world and that's their hill. 🤷‍♂️

Now I remember why I don't play SoT during school holidays. Literally nobody is friendly, and everybody will attack you randomly.

Being neurodivergent means, I tend to overexplain everything in hopes that communication is clear - then fret endlessly that my over explanation was irritating.

I'm really not convinced all this AI upscaling is giving us the benefit it claims it does. You can't convince me that you can make an image larger and have the computer fill in the blanks on its own without a bunch of mistakes that degrade the image.

So talked to my audio specialist contact about the HRTF (Head Related Transfer Function) profiles that SoT recently added and it's 20 dollar price. Imagine my surprise when he indicated he thought the price was fair. But he's also in the "Games should cost more" camp, so I guess I can't be shocked.

I gave SoT's new spatial audio a try as game sound is a huge deal to me and often makes or breaks my experience. (and I know somebody whose specializes in game audio coding, so I kind of want to talk to him about it later)

Getting to the point I don't even want to hear new music for fear of supporting some AI bro and the music platforms don't give a shit. Guess I gotta just stick with the classics for the rest of my life.

I'm aware of the possible real life reasons the cards are gone. But from a story standpoint, I find this very dissatisfying. Who did the order lose? Pendragon? Madam Olivia, my beloved and trusted mentor, forgive my impertinence, but that was seasons ago - why the delay? What aren't you telling me?

Yes, I went for it. No, I didn't win. Still debating if I should keep trying. Shaking pretty bad from the attempt.

It's my baby girl's first b-day away from home. And she's spending it in a mental hospital - and I don't have the code needed to wish her happy b-day because the hospitals won't even confirm the patient is there unless you have it. Upset, but holding it together thanks to the meds I have again.

Okay... I gotta ask... Why the F--- don't reapers take Smuggler's loot?

Got reminded that I'm still a few pieces short of completing my Lucky Hand set for my Sloop. I can't help but wonder if Jr and Mel are trying to pull me to their cause - because I had completely forgot these gifts give Doubloons (And now I want to farm them)

Doctor refilled my prescriptions today! YAY! Pharmacy is out of Adderall and won't fill it till tomorrow. BOO! Guess I'm drinkin' again tonight. (On the upside, I'm back in DRG which is a ton of fun when you've had a drink or two or three)

My breakthrough of the day? My trust issues with others comes from a deep-seated fear of betrayal. And SoT is a game set up to not only allow it but encourage it. I know it's just a game but having my trust betrayed hurts on a level I can't quite describe to the point I can't betray others.

I can say without a shadow of a doubt, Adderall makes Sea of Thieves much more enjoyable. With it, seeing a player ship doesn't send me into a fit of nervous panic to the point I can't even fight a meg without screwing up. Then I inevitably feel them judging me from afar and log off embarassed.

I ran out of my meds and stupid state laws regarding how type 2 controlled substances is preventing me from refilling without a office visit which of course couldn't be scheduled immediately. My brain is an unfocused mess - this sucks.

I put money into this so long ago, I can't even remember when. I wrote that money off a long time ago. Teaser hit my feed today, I had forgotten it even existed. Still... pretty telling that comments are turned off. LOL www.youtube.com/watch?v=QM_l...

Missing Ozzy - and this one feels appropriate right now. www.youtube.com/watch?v=b75F...

I wish all of you a safe and happy Halloween - and a Blessed Samhain to my Pagan friends.

The client I've serviced for years is being taken over by a larger company the past few months, so question of what will happen to me and my team is looming. My country is being taken over by fascists, and my daughter is in the mental hospital again. Not sure how I'm holding it together to TBH.

Uhhh, well this is awkward.

I think most of us who support game representation could understand it on an empathetic or intuitive level. But it's a whole other story when you get hit with it on an emotional level. I met a neural spicy NPC recently - first since my diagnosis. It hit a lot different this time.

Palia is my latest Cozy game - and it's an addiction I can't let go of. Maybe it's the welcoming community, or the repetitive tasks my ADHD brain thrives on. Or maybe it's because I can decorate a house, I'll never actually have a chance to own IRL. Who knows. I just know it's keeping me sane RN.

I'm not sure how I clung to this tiny mote in space as it rotated around our star one more time, but I'm still here. Been doing so for more than half a century, but I'm still hanging on.

I adore this month. :)

Ugh, learning a bunch of songs I liked were AI generated hit me like a punch to the gut. They've been removed from my playlist and blocked from ever showing again, but man do I feel dirty having been duped. :(

So.... there is this cave at Ruby's fall right next to rubies remains. Never seen it before and I've been playing this game 881 hours. I like to think it's new - but it would be totally on brand for me to just be unobservant and never notice it till today 😖

I put this on some of my socials last year, but it's worth repeating. I love Halloween, aka "Free Candy Day" and can't wait to be see all those smiling kids on my porch with their bags open. I don't care if you say Trick or Treat not, it's Free Candy Day, come and get it!

If the right wants to be persecuted so bad, they should send themselves to conversion therapy. 😡

Managed to talk 3 of my boys into a Galleon. Yes, it was only safer seas, two of them are still swabbies. But it's the best Friday Night I've had in a long time :)

What a Sail of ups and downs. Took on a Ghost fleet, under an active volcano. Lots of screaming, asking why I'm on fire, ect... but managed to take it down and get the loot back. Went to do something easier, got hit with a Skelly Sloop and Meg at the same time, was feeling spicy and didn't log.

Set sail for Fetcher's Rest from Flintlock. Ended up in Molten Sands. I really wish there was a "The Legendarely Lost" title, because Sidney is a horrible Navigator. 😅

If you see this, repost with a vampire that is not Dracula.

Doctor wants to not only up my ADHD meds but give me a 90 day supply. Insurance says "Nope, we'll only pay for 30 days at a time, no refills" Fucking America man. 🤣

I live maybe an hour out of Atlanta (with perfect traffic) and know people who go to Dragoncon every year. So naturally, this showed up in my feed today and gave me a chuckle. Especially the part about the so called "AI artist" needing to be escorted out by Police.

This perfectly balanced assembly line was made possible by meds. Honestly, I would not have had the patience and focus to set up these neat and orderly assembly lines in Satisfactory without my ADHD meds. The motivation I feel to do things I normally wouldn't has been refreshing.

What's that skully? Yeah, I agree. Life is really killin' the vibe here. Yeah?... Uh huh?.... Why is it you're the only one who makes sense in this world? And they say I'm the crazy one...

Remembering that Halloween is on the horizon has given me new life. (MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY!), I know how it pisses off the Xtain Nationalists that it exists at all. As low as I feel, the idea I can piss off the MAGA crowd by going all in celebrating, it's revitalized my will to fight.

*sigh* My country fucking stinks.

Stars had aligned and put me in a situation where I was comfortable enough to attempt fighting Redmaw for the first time. Driver reset hit midfight and crashed the game. Of course, ship sunk when I got back. Guess I'm done with SoT for the day. That just deflated any desire to bother further.

This is me trying to get to Crooks Hollow when my Meds haven't kicked in yet. 😅

To cap the night, I decided to do one last voyage to the Roar to introduce my son to it. We breached at Fetcher's rest and I said "Welcome to the Devil's Roar". I shit you not, in that moment, the volcano went off. Welcome to the Roar indeed. hahaha

Found a bit of smugglers loot at Merrick that somebody had left behind, so turned it. Immediately noticed a Reapers Chest somebody left on an island so grabbed that and turned that in too. Now a Reaper's bounty is sitting on an island unclaimed. Guess I'm the SoT garbage man today. 😆

Happiness is bringing your 6th grader onto a brig for the first time and helping him dig up his very first treasure. 😁

Doing an informal poll on the behalf of a friend who is arguing with his book editor over the correct use of a specific English word. Give your gut reaction of which is right and continent you are on if you want to respond. TY "Which configuration to use is a purely [aesthetic|esthetic] choice."

Have motivation to get things done now thanks to the meds. Actually cut my SoT session short because this office is a pigsty and felt the need to clean it. Actually got most of it done. Now my problem is an over 50 body not keeping up with my ambition. I really let myself go, don't do that kids.

I haven't touched Battlefield since Bad Company 2. So Battlefield 6s open Beta was a bit of a shock. I have to relearn everything. With my age, I still can't stand up to the youngsters in a snap aim fight. But somehow, I'm still having fun out-thinking them.

I just moved from one task to another without rotting in front of my computer for a couple hours and feeling like it was a huge emotional burden. And I don't care what you all think because I've been freed from the crippling fear of rejection that ADHD supercharges. These meds are a game changer.

Had my first Adderall little over an hour ago and I'm starting to feel... different. Small things that used to irritate me and make me put something down I can push through now. My head isn't full of distracting thoughts. Is this what a normal brain might feel like??

ADHD isn't a flaw, it's a different operating system in my brain. And tomorrow, I hope to finally download patches that help me work with it better.