I think ahra'a needs to have glasses

boy I tell ya I am really struggling to get that very specific shrine vermillion in wax melt form

anyway this season of drag race really has production playing in our faces and it's starting to piss me off lmao

I feel like I should maybe be trying to squeeze in some markets before it starts getting too warm to want to be outside with candles lol

slept all day bc migraine so now lying in bed unable to sleep more despite migraine

I'm SO sad, I made a batch of melts yesterday for the shf collection but really really hate how the color turned out so I can't/don't want to use them for photos, and now I have to either figure out a way to offload them or just throw them away

supplier drops new fragrances “hm these listing images look kinda…” yeah

god I miss japan lol

the reason I hate Returning To The Waking Sands (and all subsequent home bases in the style of the waking sands) is not the trip there, it's that you have to go through two loading screens to get to the NPC you need to talk to

if I had been smart I would have gotten some snack at the grocery store today but I was on a mission (for yeast)

complaining every day until my tongue goes back to normal

yesterday my dentist confirmed that I have nerve damage in my tongue and I knew that's what it was but it still suuuuuuuucks

several code enforcement officers walked by my apartment ARE YOU COMING IN OR NOT also I did not know until today that county code enforcement officers wore uniforms like cops lmao

we got advised by our apt management a few days ago that some apartments are being randomly selected for a code enforcement inspection within a certain time frame today so I have been in Extreme Waiting Mode since like 8 am

I really don't consider myself, like, vocally political/radical at all because frankly I am a coward, but I tell you what, respectability politics from within the LGBTQ+ community has really become a berserk button for me

friends, I did something extraordinarily stupid tonight. I argued with someone on reddit (in a very queer sub) about whether or not calling someone "they/them" after the person has stated their pronouns is misgendering

I’m so tired of having teeth

WHEW boy big anxiety

AND I'm getting my permanent crown on at seven in the morning tomorrow I hate this

anyway, having the world's worst time trying to iron the kinks out of this label design

every day I learn something else about shf lore and my first reaction is to boggle and go "WAS THAT IN DOCUMENTS AND I WAS SUPPOSED TO FIGURE THAT OUT MYSELF?????"

lrp I have become "too old" for a lot of things at the ripe old age of 33 after being very unkind to my body in my teens and early 20s, and the shift from not thinking about how anything will affect you physically to saying "yeah no I can't eat that anymore" about a cosmic brownie is extremely real

[Your 23yo mutual]: I stayed up till 5am, I've had 3 energy drinks today, I've ran 5 miles, I am unkillable [Your 36yo mutual]: You know what. Heating pads are really nice, even when your body isn't in agony. It's just a very comforting feeling as you sit there doing your tasks.

In Japanese, you address elder men as OG-chan and i think that's beautiful

anyway. sweater

oh I am severely not smart enough for ktisis and also whyyYYY DID THEY CHANGE THE CAMERA CONTROLS TAKING VERTICAL SHOTS IS SO HARD NOW

anyway we're off to a rousing and predictable start

have pretty good grasp of new wol's personality in general now but struggling a bit to come up with like... how did he get here and how does he feel about Things Happening suddenly

the only Really Bad Thing about starting over as much as possible in xiv is that there are mounts I had help getting and like, I had people to run me through coils and stuff, and uhhhh now I do not have people

it's been such a long time since I actually played through ARR that I don't remember what's original and what changed with the rework but I've been enjoying it so far!!

I don't actually think I'm stupid or anything, I just know where my shortcomings are in terms of media consumption lol

watching shf lore videos like "wow I really am not good at understanding things but at least there are people smarter than me who can explain"

the gear situation is SO dire

always absolutely nuts to me that silent hill is supposed to be in maine

okay so maybe not spending $50 on plant illustrations but probably like $30 or something

what's up it's 11:40 pm and I'm contemplating spending $50 on plant illustrations so I don't have to draw plants

anyway silent hill f good even if you are like me and only really comprehend the most obvious and explicit symbolism until other stuff is pointed out to you

I can’t comprehend or cope with the whole concept of unreliable narrators in general (with a few exceptions) and maybe some people would think that makes me an idiot but it’s really just a media-based manifestation of “autistic people take things literally”

got the true ending (?) in shf so now we’re done with it 😔

we went to a new-to-us japanese restaurant for early valentine’s day dinner :9 beef udon sukiyaki

leveling up so fast that you can't keep your gear even close to current

never mind I don't like any of it

picking new main job based on how much I like the current artifact armor

it's nice to be Thinking About WoL again but like... fresh and unmired by bogus worries about them being "interesting enough" esp since I am someone who... like, does prefer to adhere pretty closely to canon... and I had definitely started feeling like that made me boring and uncreative

also I have now picked up all DoH/DoL with new catboy and unsurprisingly I am neglecting MSQ to level those until I need to get to higher level zones for higher level mats

BANGS FISTS ON TABLE LAST SHF FRAGRANCE OILS TOMORROW now I just need to uhhh. iron out the label situation lol (I only had solid concepts for like 2 of the... 5?)

I had a pretty strong initial impression for new catboy personality but the more I look at him in cutscenes the more I'm like "well that first idea was wrong"

twiddling my thumbs waiting for my last batch of testers for shf fragrance oils to arrive I have CONCEPTS and I need to REALIZE THEM

I did immediately jump back into crimes because I still hate the vanilla sausage fingers so much that it negatively impacts my Gaming Experience and that's just a personality flaw I have

anyway we got the UFO ending in shf so now we’re on to the true ending