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I've been feeling absolute struggle when working on shading/lighting lately, I think I need to figure out a new method/style of it that makes it enjoyable again but I'm not sure what that would look like for me >__<

commission for @ericfullswipe.bsky.social !! My first time doing hyper dick + balls 🥰

Also - threw a bunch of my scrapped concepts from last year (and an unsold adopt) into one sheet here. All of these are open!! I can also do small edits, add/remove scars and add genitals for free 1. 55$ 2. 65$ 3. 45$ 4. 65$ 5. 85$

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Also - threw a bunch of my scrapped concepts from last year (and an unsold adopt) into one sheet here. All of these are open!! I can also do small edits, add/remove scars and add genitals for free 1. 55$ 2. 65$ 3. 45$ 4. 65$ 5. 85$

commission for @ericfullswipe.bsky.social !! My first time doing hyper dick + balls 🥰

I'm officially back from my little hiatus to visit my family. Things aren't 100% but feeling SO much better that I got to spend a good long time with my beloved grandmother and take care of her for a while. I'll be starting commissions again so updates will be on the way soon!!

A quick doodle of an old character of mine, attempting vent art. A lot of times my emotions just feel too big for me to unravel outside of my own head lately - it's hard to even TALK about much less figure out visual allegories or anything "smart" or cool or unique. No thoughts, just sad dragon.

my main hobby this past week has been rebuilding my personal music library cause I'm so sick of streaming and algorithms. Not only is organizing files extremely soothing for me lately because of the concentration it takes to organize, but also being able to truly shuffle all of my own music again -

Man, life is such a rollercoaster for me recently, grief and anticipation of death and also just absolute frustration at the medical system in the US. Some days I wake up thinking I've processed things and can start getting a grasp on getting it all back together, but then another round of bad news.

I posted a vague update about it a while ago on FA, but one of my most beloved family members is in the hospital for the 3rd time since August, and my family isn't expecting her to live much longer. It's hard for me to even put my thoughts into words lately, so just please be patient with me.

Damn, birthday coming up next month and I just realized this year will be the year I've officially been out & transitioning for more of my life than i spent being cis, but my family still misgenders me every time they speak even right in front of me

I feel like my brain just leveled up recently. lexapro makes me feel like my brain is growing. like i hit a new stage of growth every few weeks or months or so idk. I just get waves of sudden realization about the things about my anxiety that aren't even rooted in reality. like it's self made

Reactions like this to brians story show why it's valuable to keep talking about. As artists we are living the situation and assume others are aware, but the truth is most people do not know

working with a few avian character commissions and was thinking to myself: surely we could throw in a gag that's more optimized for beaks,

its been not even a full semester off swimming and i miss it SO BAD. its so good for my mental health and energy levels but fml outside of my college the only other pool I have access to is at the gym and it's a warm indoor pool and feels like swimming in PISS >__<

I'm OPEN for Fall/Halloween themed commissions for my next batch!! All my prices for my current commission types are listed here if anyone is interested (though you can contact me by DMs here for those that don't use FA!) www.furaffinity.net/journal/1121...

big drippy... 👀 finished halfbody comm for bjarko on FA !!

Digi-alien symmetry adopt!! Inspired by digimon, neopets, aqua pets, jelly toys, all that good nostalgic stuff ;w; They're available for 80$ USD! Can also be viewed on my FA over here - www.furaffinity.net/view/62261466/

I'm OPEN for Fall/Halloween themed commissions for my next batch!! All my prices for my current commission types are listed here if anyone is interested (though you can contact me by DMs here for those that don't use FA!) www.furaffinity.net/journal/1121...

I need it to be Halloween already... ;___;

Sorry for going MIA the past ~2 weeks, I've been still working but got hit with god awful depression/anxiety levels. I'm waiting on a doctor's appointment to reassess my meds but I was able to finally see some friends irl last night though and that really healed me, needed it way more than I knew

Digi-alien symmetry adopt!! Inspired by digimon, neopets, aqua pets, jelly toys, all that good nostalgic stuff ;w; They're available for 80$ USD! Can also be viewed on my FA over here - www.furaffinity.net/view/62261466/

Browsing through my files to clean up a bit and finding so many old unfinished design concepts from 2024 when I was trying to make a fursona before I got Haru's current owl design. O__O Think I'm gonna put up a few of the best ones for sale instead of leaving them in my files to rot

big drippy... 👀 finished halfbody comm for bjarko on FA !!

Pro-tip, by the way: When calling Visa about this and leaving a complaint to the company, they will tell you to go to their AskVisa email instead. Tell them you've done so multiple times and never got a response. They CAN log down the complaint; they're just told to try and filter you out.

OUGH having such a rough week this past week, and the heat wave doesn't help at all. also annoyed cause I've been trying to keep on top of my water/electrolytes but i think because of my SSRIs i'm still dehydrated cause my vision goes out every time I stand up the past few days >__<

Affirmations for every artist here!!!

Finding out my grandma, who beat cancer when I was a kid, has cancer again after they did emergency exploratory surgery this morning :( still waiting on biopsy to know what type/stage but feeling a bit sad today

most interesting side effect of lexapro is i'm comfortable with my body in a way that i haven't been in sooo so long, if ever. i always felt like an awkward baby deer in my own skin for as long as i can remember but lately I feel like i'm actually enjoying and proud of my body. didn't expect this!!!

complaining about lexapro making my brain feel "slow" and also difficult to concentrate on one thing without jumping around to other things, but then remembering that's like. the point. to slow down my anxiety and also stop me from ruminating all day

been doing pilates in person lately and it's so different than just following youtube videos. getting corrections on my form and which muscles are engaging and everything is so crazy. Literally waking up parts of my spine and my shoulder that were like fused for years!!!

Completed YCH/commission for firelilly on FA !!

YOHL - #Neolore

A character sheet for @feetpawson.me ! This is some of the prettiest markings imo.

Adjusting to being back on lexapro for my Anxieties ;u;'

Finished "What's In Your Bag" commission for @quynh.bsky.social !!

Ended up getting the galaxy tab s6 lite and I'm loving it!! Trying to figure out if krita is gonna be comfy for me since I really don't want to pay for CSP monthly sub, and autodesk sketchbook is nice but haven't found a line brush I like in it so still trying to find a setup that works, but this is

At least suffering through all this animation work has made me really unafraid of larger sequence/character page commissions because I'm like. if I can draw a character for like 250 frames I can draw a character 6 times for a page!!!! Bring it on LMAOO

I've been absolutely drained lately and super demotivated with my finals projects because I'm not proud of any of them!!! They're all due within a few days so I'm glad they'll be over at least but I feel so sad because I kinda. hate all of them. I just wanna chill and work on furry commissions UGHH

Dang, kinda feeling sad/sentimental I'm going to be quitting swimming after this semester and this week is my last week doin it. Being in the water is so great for regulating my mental health BUT the chlorine has been majorly wrecking my skin no matter what I do lately to try to protect it

Just 4 more weeks and I'll be done with my Hell semester.... I'm so burnt out after this past semester it's been so difficult, I'll only get a week break before the next one starts but I'm easing up on classes after this one so my balance w commission time should be much better going forward :')

Finished Mini Ref Sheet Commission for @konaburd.bsky.social !!

I got a biiiig headache. I am literally just T posing around the kitchen because I can't stand the SWEAT, I hate the heat so muchhhh ;___;

lately I've been putting on the sims soundtrack while I do my mundane daily life tasks like meal prepping and cleaning and it puts me in an interesting headspace 🤔 life is just like the sims.... i can visualize my lil level meter going up while I work on things