you might wonder why i tagged the latest image with a ship but didnt tag gravitational pull, which is clearly a ship drawing and i dont have an answer for that 🥲

#拓衛 #takuei multiple eitos end 011 cw blood / gore "I wonder why our hatred is so strong? Where does this emotion come from? I guess we'll just have to figure it out together."

the chase scene keeps running away from me in fear (haha) so i decided to draw smth else 011 to finally get done with my meitos log

SF route spoilers #hndr_fa

if your first route is kg, it doesnt mean that you are the kind to double down on bad choices or anything like that. it just means that the white demon will always get your ass

i also like 🌊👁️ quite some amount (my first route was killing game so that makes sense lol) but i just feel lonely in my vision of totally freaky yugamu mostly coming from other routes 🥲

ohh i know what i will draw next

#hndr_FA #eitoaotsuki All Back Eito 蒼月のケツが描きたくて…

my thought process went like: "so eito likes extreme music alright" ➡️ "if normal human voices sound terrible to him, does that mean that extreme vocals sound sweet and pleasant to him instead" ➡️ "he would be a diehard purist for 1980's black metal demos but for wrong reasons" 👍

takumi and eito should argue abt books and their movie adaptations

#takuei #拓衛 cw blood / eye fucking 😊

i feel like some spoilery art is easier to pass as "is it just a cool artistic vision" than the other. which is why im not so sure abt posting 🪼👑

guess what, its multiple eitos again #hndr_fa

it was really funny of me to go "i allow using my drawings for icons/headers" and then fail to use them as my own icons or headers

END009~012 衛拓 / eitaku poipiku.com/10005613/121... #ハンドラ #hndr #hndr_FA

#takuei #拓衛 cw blood / eye fucking 😊

do i have to bump 042 to give you guys in my notifications a better idea what i usually draw

after all i changed the username but only bc having both this tab and twt tab next to each other was confusing if the usernames were exactly the same

takumi & eito... always fated to hurt each other, to punch down, get up and strike back... when the destruction of one never brings a sense of triumph, when the path to healing and acceptance isnt allowed to come to a satisfying conclusion, when the only true finality is mutually assured destruction

#hndr_fa SF route winamp-milkdrop ui redraw

#hndr_fa end 006: "Those negotiations entailed balancing the interests of the various factions, convincing those in power, and at times resorting to threats and violence."

tbh i kinda regret speaking abt anything on this acct after posting drawings but whatever i guess?

#hndr_FA #eitoaotsuki 🕶️蒼月

i think keeping my bird app account locked is just a force of habit even if ive already said similar shit here. its 10 yrs old. theres so much filth there. im not prepared to getting my random tweet caught in someones fyp. also my drawings got it in shadowban hell even under the lock for some reason

#hndr_FA #ハンドラ美術部 #EitoAothuki #蒼月衛人

im pretty sure simply talking abt [rules] isnt banned so theres this. thing ive been thinking abt regarding fictional noncon fetish and its portrayal this is just my opinion from discord dms rather than idk a proper meta piece on the topic lol

lowkey want to take off 💧🌊💧 emojis simply bc i most likely want talk abt them much and certain planned drawings wont go on this app due to [rules] 🤭

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notifications on this site are scary cant they be grouped like "x user liked 15 of your posts"

lrp me screaming in the void that "eito has to die, he's not normal, not even a human anymore" is a deliberate choice of words and not just the writer's exercise in making the character as ableist as possible 😭

Defender of the moon 🌙 #hndr_fa #hundredline

Like petals in the wind #thehundredline #hndr_fa #kyoshikamagadori

all these are random reuploads from any time since september but also on ao3 i prefer making logs of multiple pics like on pixiv, meaning that theres quite some time passing before i post on there

#hndr_fa gravitational pull

and while im at it, i absolutely am not gonna tolerate any slander like "if you use the words girlboss and malewife an anvil will fall on your head" or whatever from ppl who perfectly like bored and/or problematic tropes within their preferred gender combinations

im not sure how that works if there are "advanced labels" that you can hide or get warnings for in settings, but on your own posts you can only apply a "regular label"? whats the point?

i said yesterday that im flexible abt yaoi positions but when its het i get really picky. the girl must be on top (or no insertion involved at all) or else i dont want it. its not a strict "landmine", just smth that gets me 🙄 "mm yeah been there seen that a thousand times already" lol

#hndr_fa 💧🌊 end 05␩ / end 059

#hndr_fa artificial moon

trha.bandcamp.com/album/di-nid... I think I posted this here before but this album is absolutely magical... The swans on the cover... It feels like it was made for me

#hndr_FA multiple eitos (again) cw suicide 3 earliest pictures i made for 100l

ill be open abt my main inspiration source

well whatever you say im fucking proud of that 042 piece. i call it an anomaly (bc it got 20x more engagements on the bird site compared to literally anything else) but there was such a burning unfiltered desire to get this exact vision out of my system and it worked so fucking well

ao3 (and poipiku lol) will most likely stay my main art platform just bc it allows everything. i know having to click an extra button before seeing the picture is a detrimental factor but also whatever. i heard ppl wanted more labels to help others either to avoid or to look for things

eito didnt have to say "fill me with your hatred" but he did

im a fujo with a massively unfixed mindset and dont tend to give specific intent on sfw pieces (and also usually ignore it on other ppls art). but! i do typically interpret poking wounds or non-sexual natural holes, or even some random "long object basic freudian metaphors" as topping

takumi in the trc cutscene has a tissue box right above his pillow, but in the lda its on the table at the opposite side of the room. methinks hes too used to jerking himself off in bed to sleep so he would just fall asleep with the cum-stained hand in his pants like that

speaking of "talking to the wall" blogging style (kind of), i think im getting closer to my understanding of why i hate fandom discords on one hand, "gatekeeping" your "cool kids club" has always been a thing, with user-locked blogs and forums and all that

#hndr_fa multiple eitos + basic instinct crossover for my friend from the bird site