damn thats crazy idgaf

i figured maybe because the last DND sesh with said oomf i heard some background noise where her parents were still up at like around 11pm to 1 in the fucking morning LOL.. i love how chill they were...

i still think about this dream. tbh any time i ever dreamed of being at someone elses house and i feel comfortable they always never seem out of place. most of the time dreams abt being in other ppls houses would feel jarring...

happy anniversary 2 them

every malaysian oomf i have either lives in: a) KL/Selangor b) North of Johor c) North of Malaysia

honestly she was the first malaysian oomf who ive known for a long time and the fact that she lives in the same state as me makes me frustrated bc we should be meeting up ughhh

had a dream i live in the same neighbourhood area as oomf ive been friends with since 2016 and i visited her home and it was very comforting and almost like we've known since forever (i mean, we have but still)

executor #nightreign

#eldenring doodle

hm interesting

aku pun ada bpd lahabau bukan kau sorang je i think sometimes we need to admit that we're all a little self centered for thinking nobodys liking or loving you

saw a tweet that iterated the same thing i had on my mind that they couldnt get behind not liking before replying someone omg they rly spoke my language but now im beating myself up about it bc it seems to be lost forever smh

MY TOMODACHI LIFE IS SHIPPED AND THIS WILL BE HAPPENING TOO

im not trying to dismiss people's emotions but when i say i dont like a particular thing that someone does and they keep doing why do they feel the need to be "hurt" by it. i just hate reading long texts. we're having online convo not a debate

golbez...............

my stomach hruts

sighs alright

为什么能这么可爱

ppl cant complain for things that they dont like and do the very thing they complained about

the line "yet now i find i've grown into a tall child" from first love / late spring resonated with me bc... i genuinely don't know how adultting came so easily for my parents. being treated as a child still really adds the salt to the injury...

on top of everything else i think the worst part in all of this is that how vehemently unaware of my going ons that the moment i explained i was bullied in school this came off as a shock to them. like this is news to all of you??? you dont think i am the way i am bc both environments affected me??

genuinely how do you undo whats already been done. if i were in their place the guilt would be eating me up from the inside out. i already accepted that was my punishment for being a "bad child" but what about them. you cant really arrest someone for something they did 18 years ago can you

i dont wanna be one of those "i hate seeing ppl and their parents being nice to each other" crowd but i cant think of a normal interaction with mine

Messmer x Tarnished doodles #EldenRing

i miss vent app lol i need to use it right this moment

lowkey forgot i had this account but here’s the elden ring doggies as an apology :3

#ELDENRING #エルデンリング

#ELDENRING #エルデンリング

like okay cunt i am sure everywhere else is the same as in johor but like johor is the worst possible state rn and it basically took the mantle off from kelantan is it so wrong for me to criticize of this bum ass place with israeli seasians roaming around icb

i rly cant message or read in the car bc i have motion sickness + didnt help the fact that i puked in the car after my departure from Kuantan lol i wish malaysia isn't car dependent

lol i thought i could qrt this and be like "nvm i like johor yay" if we ever get to go to the petting zoo in bandar penawar... now this whole thread still rings true

i hate johor so much it's not even funny, more so in Johor Bahru. tmw you realize you grew up mostly with singapore's influence and subsidize and after covid happened, literally everything abt Johor is nothingburger if it weren't for sgeans

new month isn't here but i have a feeling it's gonna get worse from here. puked abt 2 times in the car bc of motion sickness and the lack of sleep. now i just don't have any mood to do anything, not especially when i come back in bum ass Johor

Ymir

bpd is crazy because when you're at your lowest it's not like you don't have all the options you just choose the very strange ones to go with this is why i make rash and drastic decisions when it comes to my personal issues

this is why having an athan system on a device that is deemed idle is makruh in islam bc my mum installed this athan app and the prayer called right at the scene where Osha went topless 🤦

i need him to suffer with me

VARRELSKSKDJFFJ@/&/?,?

anyways, GoT s2 time

just found out abt the tweepcred thing. i can't believe it's real. and they say chinese social medias have strict regulations. saying it's orwellian is an understatement

A vision of fire #eldenring #art

i love the punchline "we learned this in school you were too busy drawing an eye" it means the eye was the only thing that person knows how to draw so might as well focus the whole scope of things

this came to me in a dream #art #eldenring

oh well this is my yappertron5000 let me continue talking about Game of Thrones